It never fails to amaze me how incredibly rude and dismissive some doctors and nurses are. Why if someone is struggling with depression would you seek help from someone that talks down to you and treats you like crap? I wonder how many people have killed themselves after going to the wrong doctor or because a nurse acted like a hateful judgemental asshole…
I’m a selfish person for thinking about killing myself is what I keep hearing from family. I have a special sensitivity and I see the world and people and I see their hearts, all of their bitterness, coldness, ambition: the same things I see in myself sometimes. I don’t belong here. Maybe afterlife will bring me to where God is, a heaven better than this place. I’m here because I’m guilt tripped into staying here by my family. I don’t find happiness in earthly things and I certainly don’t like being judged constantly. I just want to BE. Can that place be found here? I […]
If anybody is out there and struggling with transgender or knows somebody battling these feelings and the intense inner turmoil that comes with this: please give me a shout.
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I’m ready to do something extreme. I’ve never felt this degree of panic or anxiety or intense death. Holy fuck.
One of the things that piss me off the most is when people do drastic things for attention.
I hate when people say they have depression and that they’re depressed when they really mean sad. Like depression is a mental illness that you would have to be diagnosed with. You can’t go around telling people that you’re depressed and expect sympathy. I get that being sad can eventually turn into depression. You cannot just have it from one day to the next. If you were actually depressed, you wouldn’t tell anyone or make it public, because you know thay everyone will end up treating you […]
I’m struggling with my self confidence. I feel so ugly and I hate my body. My ex boyfriend watched porn behind my back, huge tit porn. I don’t have big boobs and It has made me hate myself so much. I wish I had big boobs, I wish someone would love me for my body
Would be nice to be dead.
And I hope that it will happen soon.
I never really had a chance to regain my life.
Once you’ve been down, you stay down.
Some make it back up, some just don’t.
I’ve been struggling for the last two years to regain pieces of me that were. But no such luck.
Hurting myself in the ways I do is the only way I know how.
I’m an invalid, sick in bed every day with terrible pain. After surgeries and painful experiments, all the doctors can suggest is to take me off my painkillers and just see what happens, if anything. Which will help how, now? I can’t keep house, I can’t go out, I can’t make love. I can just lie here and weep. This illness has taken away my career, my house, most all of my friends, and my ability to enjoy most anything.
My mother has cancer and her chances aren’t good. I’m too ill to care for her, and even too ill to drive down to visit her. […]
everyone around me is leaving me behind. Friends getting married and graduating college. Meanwhile im struggling to find who i am which is fucking stupid because im 24 i should fucking know. I dont belong anywhere im just lost. Im generally a good person help people out when i can. Im even a fucking vegan. That should count for somenthing rigth? Nope the universe hates me. Everytime i choose a path it seems to be the wrong one. Crummy relationships , unsuitable career, even my hair is bad.i know there is people with bigger problems but Im tired of always failing im done trying i […]
For everyone out there who is struggling with suicidal thoughts and/or depression, I just want to ask you a question. Have you ever felt like this a drowning feeling? Because if I am the only one, that would be good information. Thanks.
how can I freaking die without struggling? That is the question! I been living in hell since my first memories. I been blitzed since 7 am but I know I am sobering up. I wanted to die since I was a child. How can I do it painlessly? Can someone help me please?
Well I’m currently struggling with alcoholism, I love it so much and hate it at the same time. I’m trying to think of a way to regulate or cease consumption of it all together. I know from experience I just can’t have a “couple of drinks”, I’m an alcoholic, it’s never just a couple. Can’t drink only on weekend because it just starts to extend into the weekdays. I have to stop. But how am I going to stop? I guess I’m gonna have to wean myself off, my current concoction that I usually drink is about 12 ounces of whiskey/gin/ or vodka, and about […]
For a person that is already struggling and have been struggling for years there to see those is alot of extra hurt and pain when those ones closes to You don’t really try to help support or care so You continue to EXPERIENCE A LIFE FULL SORROW AND DISPAIR THAT IS PLACED ON YOU IN THE FORM OF MENTAL ILLNESS! Which through My Wife And Two Daughter’s Eyes, Which By The Way, Believe In Christ Jesus, Plan And Simple That Their Husband And Father is just “CRAZY!” How fun and rewarding it is to see those closes to You are more than Willing To Help […]
Today is Father’s Day and here I am in solitude because I’m such a failure as a father. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety over a year ago and I’ve been struggling with it for a long time. I had it managed until recently when my medication ran out and with no health insurance, I’ve fallen back.
Today’s supposed to be a celebration of one’s father and a celebration of me being a father…but depression reared its ugly head and I yelled at my son and in turn everyone has turned their backs on me. I’ve laid here for hours thinking about the butcher knife […]
Im tired of all this fucking shit. all these people. I hate this world. I hate being stupid and trying so hard to catch up and create opportunities for myself. I hate my home. it’s tense most of the time. I can’t do shit. i want to go back to college but then i find myself struggling and being sad for not being able to make friends. I come from a tough background and these white rich kids have been given everything to them. it sucks. i hate my life. i want to end it. i haven’t cut in about a month and […]
Eurgh im struggling again, I’m sick of my life being robbed due to bipolar and anxeity. I try to be a good Mummy to my four children but with two babies aged 17 months and 4 months I just can’t cope. I’m feeling under pressure to be a good mum and wife, no one appreciates me, I hate what I see in the mirror now I miss my barbie doll looks and perfect figure im just a fat depressed mum 🙁
I’ve been dealing with depression for most of my life. Add to that a schizoaffective diagnosis and life becomes wonderful. I’m struggling. I’m on the verge of becoming a shut-in because I’m paranoid and feel people are after me. I’m not a bad person but this illness brings out my paranoia and it’s ruling me.
I don’t know how to go on like this. I’m on meds and getting “help” but its not enough. I feel like there’s no point to life & it’s hopeless. Who wants to live like this? Certainly not me. The issue is, some would say its good; too chicken to suicide. […]
i keep struggling to find myself.. as if who I was completely dissolved into air and what’s left behind is a hunk of junk. today, I’m late for school again. I don’t even want to be here. all these teachers trying to educate us on nonsense that were never going to use in life. I dread school because of how stupid the administration is. I can’t wait for my junior year to be over and see how my senior year goes… if I make it…
I am too worn out. It is almost impossible to even stand up out of bed in the morning. My family has rejected me, and I lost my parents to alcohol. I myself have tried to get sober but can’t deal with the mental stress. My last year was spend with my girlfriend struggling with alcoholism. After putting her through the third rehab and countless nights worrying she cheated on me with someone she met there and ran off. I literally gave her every last drop of life I had left and lost all my friends in the process. I went into deep depression and […]
I felt better for a while and then it rushes back. Like a long lost lover with a toxic relationship. A battered person unable to leave the relationship with the abusive partner. I struggle to breath tonight as suicides embrace becomes stronger. I want to let go, give myself over to these strong clutches. I am exhausted living in denial. Seeing through the fog unknown memories. Struggling with childhoods demons.