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Tired of life

by Schiz018 7/24/2015

written by Schiz018

Tired of hiding behind everything. Lost all motivation. Trying hard not to give up. Haven’t shed a tear today which is a change. Still tired of this bipolar suicide shit. I’m suicidal.. Now I’m not.. Now I am again.. This is one crazy planet. Wait I’ll just check with myself again I now may not be suicidal. Lol

I know no one can help me even ssri’s give me serotonin syndrome after only a few short days being on them. Which suck because the first day or two being on them is good.

God did you screw up giving life to me with a mental disease or […]

7/24/2015 0 comment

Hello – first post

by Thisisme21 7/22/2015

written by Thisisme21

It can’t hurt to post :). I’ve been suicidal now for a few months, and have come to accept it as where I am now rather than resist it. It has guided my decisions, I am off abroad to do wwoofing with someone that I have been in and out of relationship since I knew him. Truth is that only now that I am at my worst can I see his true beauty and see how much I love him. He loves me completely too but so much that it scares me cos I don’t feel I deserve him. He even loves me now when […]

7/22/2015 2 comments

Not Yet.

by MentallyWeak 7/21/2015

written by MentallyWeak

My mother tells me I’m selfish but she doesn’t know that I didn’t kill myself yet just because I didn’t want to hurt her.

I really need a therapist, I’m constantly telling my parents I need a therapist, but they keep telling me to tell them my problems and the don’t fucken understand. Like they can’t take a hint. They don’t want to get me a therapist because they don’t want to pay the money.

If only they knew I was suicidal.

7/21/2015 6 comments

But I Can’t

by -M- 7/19/2015

written by -M-

“I am hungry but I can’t eat.

I am tired but I can’t sleep.

I am depressed but I can’t cry.

I am suicidal but I can’t die.”

7/19/2015 9 comments

I need someone

by LostSoul 7/19/2015

written by LostSoul

okay so I’m a 15 year old girl( I turn 16, in just over a week) and instead of being absolutely over whelmed with excitement for my birthday, which’ll be spent with friends and false happiness. But nonetheless right now all I’m filled with is a numbness and thoughts that are bad and time consuming.

Its not a new feeling to me considering I’ve been feeling suicidal since I was 10 ( which was the first time I tried to suffocate myself ), the feelings have never really abandoned me, and i always feel like I’m stuck with them. It didn’t help that earlier this year, […]

7/19/2015 10 comments

Depression Is Taking Over

by -M- 7/16/2015

written by -M-

So living with constant depression and daily suicidal thoughs has changed me and my mind into things I wish never existed. I think most people going through the same things would agree with me when I this.

1.) Everytime someone asks me if I am doing okay, I have to put a fake smile on my face and say I am fine because I don’t want people to see how much depression truly controls me.

2.) I can’t take my necessary daily medicines without thinking of overdosing.

3.) I can’t cross the road without the thought of wanting a car to hit me crossing my mind.

4.) I can’t […]

7/16/2015 4 comments

Well…

by uhm..imhere 7/12/2015

written by uhm..imhere

Well. Short story is,, I am suicidal. I have no reason to live anymore. I don’t know what to do….

7/12/2015 4 comments

Suicide Story

by happygirl12 7/12/2015

written by happygirl12

My name is Kaitlyn and I am currently 17 years old.

I’ve never written about my suicide story before so bear with me.

The cutting and suicidal thoughts all started in 8th grade when I found out that my mom was an alcoholic. I blamed myself and thought that everything was my fault. Since she was going through pain, I deserved it too. I would cut myself just deep enough to leave a mark. (Those cuts later got to the point where I was scared that I would need stitches.) I went through all of 8th and 9th grade, keeping everything inside and not talking to anyone. […]

7/12/2015 2 comments

When it’s time….

by vik 7/6/2015

written by vik

It’s been quite long since i’ve first felt miserable. the constant feeling of loneliness despite going out and hanging out with friends and family is so chronic. it didn’t end at being sad and miserable. i’ve attempted suicide several times but alas why it’s not working? perhaps different way might help. it’s reason of being in medical school or family issues or self problems that compels this feeing of being helpless and sad. sometimes, suicide despite being a good solution it’s a difficult one to make. i feel terrible and each episode gets worse than previous. i think i’ve to stick to my time plan […]

7/6/2015 0 comment

Days growing darker

by Travels with Charley 7/4/2015

written by Travels with Charley

My dad killed himself when I was in the third grade, so I know a bit about the damage suicide does to survivors. The grief was unbearable, I felt rejected, abandoned, unloved, angry. My mom didn’t know how to talk about it, so I was left to make sense of all of that pain and loss on my own.

By the time I was 16, I was deeply depressed, isolated, and suicidal. I found hope in Christianity, and I credit faith with lifting me out of that particular abyss. But depression has dogged me all of my life, and with it suicidal desires. Medications have helped […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

I ALMOST did it Wednesday night

by wndozh8er 7/3/2015

written by wndozh8er

I was already suicidal and then I found this girl online, an old flame. We started talking and seemed to have a strong connection. Then she started talking to me less and less! When I asked her what is up and to be honest, she said that she tried to look past it, but can’t stand people who are on SSI and welfare without working or goals! I was absolutely floored! Another rejection? She was all into me and then dumped me like I was a piece of trash and claimed that we wasn’t together in the first place.

I immediately got a 12 pack of […]

7/3/2015 4 comments

not seeing the point

by wdlj13 6/29/2015

written by wdlj13

There are so many things running through my head i might not make much sense, as I always do whenever I get suicidal. Actually saying that I’m suicidal actually makes me feel real juvenile for some reason, because I keep telling myself that I’m too old to run away from things like this. But truth be told, I’m just really scared of my life turning into nothing and having no point in life. I’m just really scared of my life right now, because I can literally feel it unraveling, because of who I am (and who I am NOT to be more precise).

I’ve always thought […]

6/29/2015 1 comment

I lost her

by sydsilvey 6/28/2015

written by sydsilvey

I knew my best friend since the 1st grade, I instantlly knew we were going to be best friends. We’ve done everything together up intill middle school, we got put on different teams and we kinda just lost our bond, i tried to make is work but it felt like she didn’t want to be friends anymore so I started hanging out with other people and I asked her why she doesn’t want to be friends anymore and she said because I hang out with other people more than her. Around the begining of the year I started getting depressed and suicidal thoughts and she […]

6/28/2015 3 comments

helping someone with depression/potentially suicidal person

by someonewhoexists 6/27/2015

written by someonewhoexists

I guess everybody has been in a situation where they didn’t know what to do. I have been in many, too. But this is something only you, people who are going through similar things, can help me with.

This post isn’t going to be about me, but about my aunt. My aunt has lost her son (my cousin) 2 years and 7 months ago if I’m counting correctly. He was only 17 years old at the time and he killed himself one night, somewhat out of the blue. The whole situation and his full reasons are a mystery – he didn’t leave any suicide note, he […]

6/27/2015 2 comments

The old you

by sydsilvey 6/27/2015

written by sydsilvey

I had this friend who knew from the start that I was having suicidal thoughts, and now that I think about it he didn’t do anything, didn’t tell a teacher or parent. We were dating and then he found out that I was having suicidal thoughts and he broke up with me, he said when I got better we would go out again, so I lied and said I got better, nothing happend. I was talking to him today and told him that I told my parents I wanted to kill myself and he basically called me selfish and said there are people out there […]

6/27/2015 8 comments

I can’t do this anymore

by Savakiss 6/26/2015

written by Savakiss

I’m a little bit new to this whole blogging my feelings thing, but i can’t keep it to myself anymore. I hate myself, i dont know how or wen i did, or i think maybe i always have. I dont think ive ever been happy. When I was really little it was me my mom my dad and my little brother. I always try and remember my childhood as being happy and i’m always that one person to point out the good in any situation, but it’s time i tell the truth. My dad was a rug addict. my dad did crack and cocaine and […]

6/26/2015 0 comment

determined

by 134kuub 6/25/2015

written by 134kuub

I just want to die

I have felt this way nearly 5 years now, i am so unhappy with every aspect of my life. I don’t know what to do with my future, i don’t feel excitement or motivation to do anything. I got diagnosed with an illness but it’s not even a condition that could kill me, it just makes me constantly tired and sore. I gave gotten to the point that i don’t care about being selfish and if it hurts people, I’m in so much pain all the time and i feel like it’s my only solution. Sometimes i want to reach out […]

6/25/2015 2 comments

“Just be happy.”

by SadPrincess 6/25/2015

written by SadPrincess

Mom always called me a guinea pig growing up. At first I thought it was a term of endearment, but that was before she told me it was because she could “mess up” with me (by being a parent) and hopefully get the next one right. Being the oldest is difficult. There’s a lot of responsibility and I was always the one to make an example out of. Growing up in my house was hard. It got to the point where I didn’t want to be anywhere near my family and isolated myself to school and home. I was kind of a loner and I […]

6/25/2015 3 comments

I just don’t know what to do

by Heiwana 6/24/2015

written by Heiwana

I am 16 and I am introverted, I have social anxiety and I’m suicidal. Just this month I tried to kill myself two times, and in one of them I almost succeed. I had no friends and now I am giving all of me to make some, but at the end of the school year I feel even more alone than before. I am exhaust, sick of everything and alone.

They only invite me if I am around them when they speak about getting out, otherwise I am totally invisible. I am annoying, boring, and nobody is happy with me around them, some times I feel that […]

6/24/2015 7 comments

by princessmay 6/18/2015

written by princessmay

why does feeling suicidal have to be so dark and lonely

6/18/2015 4 comments

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