My original post of this was a little harsh, so I posted a better version of it. I’m 25, married and suffering. This is just a glimpse of what my life has been like. At age 4 I was diagnosed with Spinabifida, and then my dad died. I grew up an angry kid. As I got older I got Appendicitis and lost tons of weight. I was down to near 70 pounds when they finally got the appendix out. After months of therapy I finally healed. Everything seemed to get better and so I wanted to start a new life. I got married and moved […]
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I was physically abused by my brother until I was 16 and left home. I admitted it to my parents, with whom I have always been very close with 3 years ago.
They claim to believe me. The claim to back me up. But after my last suicide attempt, after 3 days in 4 points in the ICU, when sent to the psych ward..they promised me certain things.
You see I uprooted my entire life on the West Coast to move back to the Midwest and help care for my sick father. He’s very young, only 65. But has a host of degenerative diseases. I went from […]
Dont get me Wronq . Life Is Hard , For some People it May seem Impossible . But Yur Not alone , If yuu have No One I Guarentee Yuu IM HERE . Ive Had My Fair share Of Harsh Time . some Suicide Attempt , Sometimess Still Do Have Thouqhts , But Theres Always a Way Out It May Not Seem Like It But there Is . Dont Let the Pain Of Missery Of A Situation get To Yuu. Yuu Are Worth so Much and yur Life is so valuable . dont Throw It Away Because Of somethinq thats Goinq On . Talk To […]
Nobody believes I’m depressed. My parents say depression isn’t real. My friends think I’m an attention whore. He thinks I’m not suicidal anymore. Truth is, depression is real and it hurts like hell, I don’t want attention they give it to me because they saw my cuts, and he just doesn’t want to believe that I’m still planning suicide. I think it’s funny that they can’t cope with my depression. I mean, it’s MY depression, not theirs… I just wish it would stop or that I could talk to somebody who I don’t have to look at face […]
I really don’t understand. Nothing affects me like my father. I’ve had my brother tell me he is so disappointed in me, that I am selfish and immature, that I abuse the ones I love with what I do, that all I care about is attention-seeking, that I’m going to fail in life. I’ve had my mother tell me that she simply can’t believe that I am not doing this to hurt her. That my cutting, that my suicide attempts, that even my physical illnesses like my catatonic episodes where I ended up in Hopkins Neurology because I couldn’t move my body, that all of […]
I don’t want to see anyone go through the hell i had to. I want to help.
by Daydreamer
written by Daydreamer
I am an 18 year old boy graduated from high school not too long ago. My first suicide attempt was after the first semester of Sophomore year. Drank half a bottle of rat poison because i was too chicken to hang myself. I never felt so alone as i did then. I was a ghost, my friends would talk to me but they didn’t care about me. They tried, but they never got me. The people who i loved the most my friends my family, it felt like i was nothing to them. Wen’t walking around everywhere with a hole in my heart wanting something […]
In 2002, I was in 8th grade, and that was the first time I started thinking about killing myself. It’s also when I started hurting myself. Things got a little better in high school, so I was just self mutilating day-to-day. Then as a senior in December of 2006 I ate a shit ton of aspirin, and ended up in the hospital after my first real suicide attempt. My favorite part was when I got home and my step mom asked me if I was ‘stupid or something’, because ‘everyone knows’ that aspirin is a blood thinner and actually makes you more jittery and awake, […]
I stumbled upon this site on accident, as I’m sure a lot of users have. Â After spending a good hour reading through older posts I decided that maybe it was a good idea to share my own story. Before I do though, I would like to request that I don’t get any of those standard responses that you see on most forums. I really don’t want to hear about how selfish I am, or how things will magically get better one day – no offense, but none of you know me and you can’t rightfully say anything about my lifestyle choices. Isn’t the internet grand?
Anyway, […]
A girl at work made me listen to the voicemail that her husband left her right after he slit his throat in a suicide attempt. I was shocked at the time but now that I’ve had time to process, I cannot stop thinking about it. I am extremely upset. I have attempted suicide once and no matter how happy I feel like I am on the path to becoming, always return to thoughts of worthlessness, uselessness, etc. I am just falling back into a dark place right now and was hoping to maybe at least hear from someone who understands.
I’ve been having depression since the end of 6th grade. I’m now in 10th. I don’t take anti- depressants anymore because they don’t help. Let’s start with the fact that- my family is fucked up. My dad used to beat my mother infront of my brothers and I, and then a few months after, he just packed his things and left us. I haven’t seen him since. He’s a stranger to me – and even though I still have this despise towards him for hurting my mum, I miss having a dad role in my life. The other thing is – I’m overweight. I’m 5’3 […]
I ve never really talked to anyone about my story, mainly because the thought of being judged is terrible to me. But I’ve never had an easy life. At 4 years old I can still remember my mom telling me after her nightly screaming arguments with my step dad that she despises me and wished I was never born. Things have always been like that. And so I’m always faced with these deeply underlying issues as I try to live a normal life. When I got away from her at 12 years old, it was only to live with my alcoholic dad who beat me […]
i Never Thought i Would Ever Think of Suicide or Self Harm, But When i Finally figured out i Was All By myself in a world full of non Understanding People, i Was left with Self harm, Daily. At First no i Didnt want to Kill myself it was just a stress release, i Was Only 13, My Mom was Never Around, && i Was Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, & Put on Meds For that.
i Didnt Want to Kill Myself until the Day i Went And Asked my Dad for help, i Felt worse that day, && i wasnt Just going to cutt, of corse he didnt believe me. […]
I’ve never complained. Never whined about how horrible it is to wake up, never screamed at the people who call me lazy, when simply existing takes everything I have. Nothing bad has ever happened to me. I can’t cry about not having a mom to love me, bad friends, abuse, rape.. all I can say is that I don’t want to live. Thinking back n my life I never had that drive to live. Never. The one person I dared to talk with about this made me regret it every time. I have never trusted people, never let anyone inside my head. I now […]
My name is Brittnee and I am 20 years old! I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and sentenced to a life of medication and therapist analyzing my every thought and move! I have been a cutter for 6 years and after my recent suicide attempt my parents made me move back home and my mother does a ~fresh cut check~ every single night. That’s where I have to go into her room and strip down to my bra and panties and she checks my body for new cuts! It’s humiliating. If I do have new cuts I am taken to the behavioral health […]
Shouldn’t we all be helping each other, not encouraging to commit?
I posted a suicide attempt of mine months ago on this site. Now I can’t stop smiling at how great life is going, I mean it’s nowhere near perfect but it’s much more bearable than it was before. In fact I created my own project into getting back into the social world. It’s not easy coming from where most of us have been, but in constant little steps, anything can be achieved, if only we believe. I know it’s corny but as the words of confucious, “It doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop.” And I don’t plan on […]
First let me say I practice remaining silent regarding my problem with suicide.
I have a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Both of them know why I attempted
suicide last year. The thing that I hate is I still feel suicidal. It doesn’t go
away. My suicide attempt last year was an overdose of Flurazapam and Tylenol. I
woke up two days later with a tube in my throat. The ICU report says I was in
critical condition. I’m 57 tears old. I have 5 children and 7 grandchildren. I’m
recently divorced. My credit is ruined and I’m hopelessly in debt. I’m a
teacher. I make […]
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where have i gone wrong?Â
my deep decent into depression is worse than i thought possible. i have literally lost my mind. ive driven myself mad. i dont know whats real anymore,i cant concentrate. i daydream consistently, i cant controll it, its like ny mind is trying ti escape reality. its become so severe i struggle to tell if im actually imagining it or its really happening. im so insecure, i have no friends, my family disownes me, treats me like absolute shit. im so very alone, not a single person to talk to, but thats just reality. i dont sleep anymore, i just lay in […]
Once I had a dream that I had just made an attempt to hang myself and I was looking in the mirror and there was a blue and purple bruise around my neck. A little more than a week ago I made an attempt and I looked in the mirror after I cut the noose off and my face looked awful. My normal coloring didn’t return until a few days later — I had to cover up with makeup and even then it looked bad.
That last attempt was the closest I have ever been to dying. I passed out and my coming to was accidental, […]
I should start off by saying I may not be someone anyone should look to for guidance or good advice. I am a survivor of a serious suicide attempt and many days are still a struggle for me.
I haven’t read through the site enough to determine if it’s a place where most of the posters are dealing with suicidal thoughts and mental health issues or if there is a large percentage of people who are in a good place mentally and are offering up advice. It seems to be a combination of both, with the earlier making up for most of the content.
Nonetheless, […]