Sometimes I want to just end it all. Everything seems so hard for me to cope with.. And having absolutley noone that underdtands me makes it worse. People think and say I shouldnt be so dowm, and depressed all the time but, I can’t just stop. I’m a messed up teenage girl, Can anyone Redefine Happiness..??
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Suicide
Is the “survivor” the one that attempts and survives OR a friend and/or fam of a person that killed themself? It is exactly 2 years today that my brother took his life. 270 to his head. Yes it was a success as far as suicide is concerned. Were there other options? I would like to think so. But I recognize he may not have felt the options were available. I only know my specific situation. I have zero right to say what others might do or think about doing. I am available to talk to, to answer questions in honesty.
I can’t remember the last time I was truly happy.
I have no real friends that I can talk to anymore and I have no idea what I truly want to do or where my life is going. I went to college and I have a stable job. But I didn’t make it in life. I am an average person; I am a loser. I wake up, go to work, eat, shower, watch TV, eat, read a book, sleep—repeat. That’s it. Nothing spectacular but nothing that miserable.
I am afraid this is my life. This is it. There is nothing more.
I no longer have any real desire. […]
I’ve been cutting myself for a while and I can’t take living anymore
My boyfriend saw his dad get killed and i don’t know how to act around him now that I know because he thinks he’s a waste to the world and a few nights ago he stabbed himself and it’s the day that his ather was killed tomorrow so he’s very emotional and I think I upset him because he ended up crying and begging me not to break up with him but I just asked if he hated me because he was being a jerk
Anyways
When I was 12 I got […]
i’m new here and i will get straight to the point: i suffer from depression that is killing me, i feel so insecure, so doubtfull of myself and i sometimes hate myself for who i am and i’m afraid what will become of me. i just have this feeling and i just can’t turn it around. i have been bullied at class, and i’ve got no friends in my class. they all think i’m weird because i listen to heavy metal music and R&B music together. i don’t like hiphop and that kinda crap and that’s why people in my class think i’m weird cause […]
My name is Scott Teller, I am far from a professional, I don’t even know what I’m doing really. However, I am genuinely offering my time to talk to you, or just listen to anything that is on your mind. If you would like to talk to me personally instead of on this forum my email is iwilltalk2you@gmail.com. I hope to hear from you soon.
I’ve never attempted suicide, but I find myself thinking about dying ALOT. Wondering who would care, how would their lives be, who would miss me, if my ex would feel guilty, how would I die, who would be at my funeral. I feel as if these thoughts consume a part of me that is too much to bare. Here I am 9:20 am. I should be in class but of course I woke up today with no sense of motivation, wondering why I woke up in the first place. I fucked myself over again, I failed last semester, &failed this semester too because I have […]
Never thought I would be on a site like this. But you people would understand the most, or maybe not. You wouldn’t actually know what I go through, or much less what anyone else goes through. You have no idea of what goes on in people’s real thoughts, their real emotions, struggles, and actions. All you can really do is just read along and try to find a connection, a answer to whats ailing you, a hope that the person that wrote this would find a answer themselves, a answer that would cure the damages inflicted on you. But I’ll tell you this, they’re no […]
Where to begin is hard. Then again nothi ge come easy. I’m getting older and more mature obviously but to me, I think others see me as a child. I dont honestly think I’m suicidal. I couldn’t be. The outside looking in my life is complacently perfect. I would be viewed lucky by most. Friends, a loving girlfriend, well liked, two parents, grandparents, a job and not a lot but a reasonable amount of money. In reality though- my best friend is leaving me for a group off cocky self obsorbed pricks; we were close, always different but he was indeed my best friend. My […]
Sorry people hehe the title was just an example of how only serious things get the attention. Just a test is all… Mostly I wanted to be aware of stuff people would want to read about from someone else’s point of view. Sometimes an outside opinion from someone who doesn’t really have a biased opinion might be all you need. I rather understood the comment about pain being on the inside while on the outside it’s damn near hidden. It spoke to me a lot, I know I’m not alone.
It’s still pretty early for bed and I wanted to get up resonably early so […]
i am tired of being a coward i fantasize about suicide for past 3 months i planning to go tonight in a few hours and drive a designated place i know that is going to be painful but it will end i just want to see if i have the guts to do it i hope that ill be able to reincarnate and try to have a better life i hope that those ideas of hell are non true as i was writting this a family member opened the door of my room not aware of my intentions i might not end up doing it […]
Through out the past 2 years I’ve been going through a good day bad day situation, but in the past year it has turned into weeks and months. Longest time I was servilely depressed was 3 months, I was cutting my arm and body continuously, it was the school summer holidays, I spent most of that time at home, watching terrible cartoons. I’m 15 years old, right now though I’ve been doing OK for the past 2 weeks, it feels strange and more se-real, more illusionistic yet more eye opening. But I know that the bad days are just creeping up, yet this time I […]
Hello. I’m 21 gay, super sensitive, highly anxiety sufferer, depressed.
I was abused sexually/physically when i was a kid.
all that good stuff.
well in 2010 i went to college roomed with a friend from highschool, i wasn’t really confused about my sexuality. idk how to explain it. well i fell in love with him. he outed me after i explained it the best i could. in which was i’m gay i’ve fallin in love with you, i need to move out and choose my on way. Â he taunted me, grabbed his junk at me all the time. it made me feel so worthless. when i moved out. […]
I remember the first time I actually thought about suicide. I was doing the dishes, and I broke a coffee pot. The only damn coffee pot. I was so sick of everything, of doing every fucking thing wrong, I just started screaming. And then that’s when I heard my mother’s voice. She said, “The knife’s in the drawer. Cut off your singer and you’ll be dead in five minutes. I walked over to the drawer, pulled out the knife, and pressed it to my finger, then my wrist. Hard. Until I winced and pulled it back. I spent the rest of the day sobbing under […]
i have been betrayed by my so called friends am mad at the world and lost all hope for trust and this is developed into despair and depression. Everyday is painful I am reminded of how much this hurts every time I wake up in the morning and I ask myself how come am not dead yet. when i contemplate suicide something happens and i end up postponing it. For example, I might get a random call or visit from a friend and I have to “act” like am ok but this kinda makes me post pone it till later when I am trying to […]
To all who’ve loved me.
i leave this is in wake of my soul, as it has left my body.
I give you my utmost apologies, that i know will never suffice for the loss or troubles i’ve given you, in my life and in my suicide. I would not leave a note if it weren’t for the urge i feel even now to assure you that it was by nothing you’ve done, that i’m leaving my life this way. To my family and friends find solace in the fact that were it not for you, i would not have even made it this long. You loved […]
i hate my life because;
a) i dont have friends. they dont want to be friends with someone that is suffering depression
b) i have no one i can trust.
c) i ruined everyones lives.
d) i am stupid.
e) i am so far behind in school. i am 2 month behind in school work.
f) i attempted suicide twice.
g) i am never happy anymore. because i have nothing to be happy about.
the Cutter
It feels a little tender at first, hot as blood rushes to greet the sharp edge of your relief.
You promised yourself you wouldn’t, but the pain is just to much, inside. If only you can find a balance, a balance between the lonely suffering of your internal hell and the sharp, clean, slice of your external shell. Deeper this time then ever before. You must dig deeper to let it out. Your inner hell, red in its anger, hot liquid in its trespass.
The blade slices, a dance of blood lights it’s way, your focus follows it, watching. You feel almost outside o […]
Hey my names Jasiel and I’m 12 years old. This is going to take me a lot of guts because I haven’t told anyone about my problem…it all started when I was 9, I was a happy little girl just walking by her self like always, the day was pretty and perfect. Until…all of a sudden everything changed to black. I wasn’t scared because I was used to the dark. But then something got my intention, it was just laying there hopelessly without any movement. It looked familiar and so I walked towards it, I turn it around so I […]
I’ve been feeling suicidal for about two years now. Read the text wall if you care enough…
Read the recap if you won’t read this, but I’d appreciate it if you did.
I’m only 13, and I’m currently in the 7th grade. My therapist, who came to school to attend me weekly, told me she believed I had depression in the 6th grade. I had discovered the topic not long before she told me this. I told mom when she came to pick me up, she didn’t buy it. It started getting worse after a while, but I wasn’t being treated. Only after a few months later […]