I am feeling so depressed that it seems the only way to relieve the depression will be to commit suicide. I don’t want to die but there is nothing I find joy in despite having so many things to be happy about. My body constantly heats up and I get cold sweats. I cannot take it anymore.
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It seems on this web site I am in good company as the comments I have read here I can relate to and it’s been so long since I could relate to anything. Â I have been on anti depressants for 10 years. The last few weeks I have hit the end of my rope. Â I cannot cope. Â I am now planning my suicide which will most likely be an overdose and it is the only thought I can gleam comfort from, the knowledge that my destiny is in my control and that all the fighting will soon be over. Â I have 3 children and they […]
I’ve been reading articles from this website for a few weeks now and thought i should right something for people to read. I found out about this site when i was researching ways i could kill myself and found an article about exit bags. I suffer from major depression and i don’t wish to live any longer at least in my current situation. Its not that i always feel sad most of time i don’t feel much almost like i’m not here kinda of a lifeless feeling. I’m never really happy and I don’t see the point of living. I kept myself going by thinking when i’m 18 i can move somewhere else where i can be […]
I have no clue what I’m doing or how i found this webpage… I just attempted suicide today and I didn’t even realize it… I’m just gunna vent and rant about my life story now…Keep scrolling if you don’t care…which you probably don’t…
Ok…so I’ve been cutting myself for two years. On December 8th, 2011 I cut myself at school and got caught (I know I’m stupid for doing that but I really had to…) And in 2 hours…I was ripped away from everything I knew and put in a mental institute 2 hours away from where I live. I attempted suicide while I was there. […]
What society and God expects of me is hard. i don’t know if i can bear this burden, but no matter how sad i get i cannot give up.
Hey all. Up until 5 days ago, I cut myself every night. I decided I need to stop. It was not helping anymore, and it was becomming a huge problem. or should I say it is a big problem. yeah.. yeah it is. Today I couldnt help myself. I cant cope with reality. I feel like we have no purpose. We are born, we die. There is nothing to live for. Im lost in the universe. Im just afraid of what is and what there could be. And all the shit going on in my life. Moving, parents divorce, alcoholic dad, annoying sisters. no one […]
right im 22, i live in england and this is my story.
i met the girl of my dreams and we fell in love and after 8 years she is leaving me
i just dont know what todo anymore i feel like my whole life has just been flushed away and im losing everything. iv gave so much up for her and now im having to start all over again. originally i lived in newcastle then i had to move to london with my parents and i had to start over again and there i made friends and stuff then a few years later i met this girl […]
Hello everyone,
My name is Chris and I am 21 years old. You most likely won’t read this. Like most of you, I’ve been entertaining thoughts of death to myself very highly lately. I’ll post my story in which most of you will probably call me ungrateful, selfish or something and I’ll take it. Honestly, I’ve had a pretty good life even as a kid but I knew there was always something wrong in my head or something. I remember at the age of 7, my window guard falling out and looking out that window and just thinking to myself as a little kid,” I should […]
When I sit and think about my life, there is only a few good memories and few times when I can remember being genuinely happy. I feel that I am just going through repetitive motions everyday. I am taking 5 classes and working 36 hours a week. I have a good job and make good money. I am always so busy trying to keep up with school and work but I rather it be that way than to have time for my mind to travel.
From other people’s perspective, I have it all. But it is a very different story from my point of view. I honestly don’t […]
My family can’t seem to grasp the fact that I have a problem. They all think that I am making myself sad and basically faking everything. For what? I have no idea. Maybe they think I’m trying to get attention or to be rebellious. I am, however, 100% clinically depressed and in no way “faking” this or making myself sad. If I liked being sad, why would I be constantly thinking about suicide? I would try to stay here as long as possible to wallow in my own self pity, but I want to leave as soon as possible. I went to see a therapist, and […]
I’ll have officially turned 26 by the time I have posted this.
This morning it hit me. I’m turning 26, still living with my parents, never had any further education or qualification. I’ve wasted my life.
I look back now with regrets. “What could have been”. I’m really unhealthy, a non-existent love life and well, no future. I think today would be a perfect day for suicide.
I have a plastic bag and a helium tank in my cupboard… no gauge though. Home alone. Fate be with me… let me die.
hi. i’m buggie29. buggie because thats what this boy used to call me. i want to die. im scared though. my dads a police and he kinda used to always tell me stories about people who wanted to commit suicide. i always thought they were so stupid, but now im in their position. im scared, but i dont want to have to deal with this bullshit that happens anymore.
My quest for perfection is finally starting to destroy me. I’ve been caught up in the staunch objectivity of school- the only thing I care about is my future academic career. I’ve always been an above average student in terms of sports and academics, but now I feel like its all coming to nothing- I care too much; but I don’t want to care, I don’t want the pressure of having to achieve and do well in life.
The most blissful moments of life are those moments in which you simply don’t care. I just want to sit back and accept what I seemingly have no […]
I don’t know what to do guys, everytime i get upset i get suicidal thoughts. I know I have depression but accepting it and trying to treat it isn’t helping me. The thought of anti depressants make me more upset. I hate that I can go around and see so many people normal and then there’s me. Half the people around me are clueless of what I have and sometimes I wish they know so maybe they could talk me out of the thoughts I have. But as if i’d go up to someone and ask for help? I just can’t. I’ve tried telling people […]
You will always be loved!!!! Even though it may not seem like it.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
You may not believe me, But you will be LOVED by God!!!! you will!!!
Hey you! Out there in the cold, getting lonely getting old, can you feel me?
by Helix
written by Helix
It’s so strange… I mean, the way I feel… Am I depressed? I would say yes, but I ain’t that sure thats the right word to describe it. I got problems, many problems, but I’m forced too much to hide the real me and the things I really feel and I end up thinking that pretending it’s fucking okay for the sake of everyone keeping his quiet balance in his life. That’s fucking unfair, I can’t sacrifice myself just to prevent the people that surround me from breaking their peace.
I can’t convince myself that this is simply my life and this is all about […]
Hi,
I’m Arnaud and I’m 20 years old.
If you ask me what I think about my life I can only say that it sucks. I don’t know what to do.
Most people see me as a happy person with lots of humor, a nice smile and lots of friends. That’s nice because it is exactly what I want to show to my friends and family. I don’t want them to worry for me because I know they can’t do anything to help me.
When people ask me questions like: “what is your goal in life?†or “what is your biggest dream?†I reply: “buying an Island in the […]
Don’t start to panic for me, ’cause I have nothing to lose I am as bright as the sun, I burn up all that I choose, Up on the side of the field, I see a city with lights, I touch her face when I kneel, she tells me she’s not alive….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
So…. Updates for those who are interseted in me and my mental health, which is probably none of you….:/.
At 1am On Monday 6th February…my new nephew was born, i met him today and he is stunning….im in love, might upload a photo of us…
Im not talking to my dad, still. we got into an arguement after the whole police thing and thats just been it. i miss him though….should i apologise? do i even have anything to apologise for?….
I’m also considering a foster home, because as long as i’m living here i don’t think i’m going to get better…. so much stress and negative atmosphere….
I’m […]
does anyone feel peace when they start to contemplate suicide i know i do.
I fell another level into my depression. fell, falling,, anyway, I’m having trouble moving. That can’t get out of bed in the morning feeling.. suicide won’t be far off. kill me, i wont hold it against you