I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the […]
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I’ve never really had any sense of direction with my life. I think about the future quite often, but I don’t see myself in it. I never have. I don’t see myself doing any job or having children or getting married or living anywhere. I just don’t see it. I’m 23 and that’s still young, but most people have an idea of what they want to do with their life… I just don’t. I think I am destined to commit suicide. I feel like that’s my purpose in life. Does anyone else feel this way or think this could be my purpose ?
There comes a time in someones life where things hit rock bottom, then you think you are as far as you can get when you are wrong.
What I mean by this is things get worse when you think the possibilities of life getting worse are next to nothing and they can only get better, well I bring you news life can get worse then you think it could.
So today this is my suicidal note and goodbye for the world, today is the day everything is going to end for me.
I have been hospitalised three times for cutting, (in attempt to commit.)
This time it’s going to […]
lately my mental health hasn’t been too well.
i feel like i’m wearing a mask.
i am the happy and energetic person with my friends, but when i get home it’s like i’m a totally different person.
i always feel so unhappy and i feel like there’s something missing.
it took me a lot of courage to actually type this out.
i’ve started self-harming
i’m surprised no one has noticed all the scratches on my wrist, but i’ve been trying to hide it.
i’ve gone from scratching myself with fingers and biting myself
to pazors and compass points
but i want something more
i want to cut, but
i don’t want to see the blood
see all […]
Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. […]
I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life
by niki
written by niki
I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !
I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future
you see ,.. Reality / real world / real […]
A 17 year old named Draven managed to do it and made it on Yahoo news. It’s sad when you think about his final hour of life or even his final day on Earth. Maybe it’s a little inspiring too because if a 17 year old can do it right who can’t? I don’t know how hard his life might have been, but I personally respect him. His loved ones are now going to go through a difficult time, but that’s typical when a death happens. It’s an everyday reality that’s generally unexpected…
Wherever you are now, I wish you the best. Just my 0.02¢.
RIP Draven. […]
Hello everyone. It’s been awhile since I have logged on. I been dealing with the depression on my own. I have had good and bad days. I tired to talk to a counselor at school about my suicidal thinking, but I was put on a waiting list. I have to wait a whole month before someone will even talk to me. By then I could have killed myself… Just saying.
I have tried praying…
well, now I am here.
what are your thought? Do you think suicide is a selfish way to go? Have you ever heard someone tell you that? People tell me that it’s selfish? But how […]
******TRIGGER WARNING for survivors of sexual abuse… And cutters and those who are suicidal… So everyone.
Dear Sick Bastard,
Yes you admitted to touching me, for kissing my 6 year old body. I am much older now and the physical memory of your hands stroking me passes through my tortured mind often. When I cut in every place you touched me I feel the shame and disgust again and again. When I bleed I feel the relief that is promised to me. You my prince my beloved uncle and I your little princess we played those roles so well didn’t we? Now my only respite is the […]
This could be a trigger so I ask people who have tendencies to skip this.
I would just like to ask for opinions, thoughts, anything. So if anyone would like to reply, please go ahead. This is not a post about hope but about suicide.
I am 21, I am far from being young and I am far from having what you would call a hard life. I have a degree from uni, I have a roof above my head and all that shit. Yet I still want to die, there is nothing for me to live for. i am a waste of space to everyone around […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SGDHfcZVOg
Here, it’s his little brother and sister but it could be your mom, your dad, your friend, your husband or your wife. I know how hard life can be and how desesperate a person can be but what you’ve heard on this video is the reason why I’m still staying in this shitty world. A suicide is the most personal of all things and you don’t need to involve other peoples, peoples you love. I’m not trying to stop you but just remember that even if you’re dead, the world still spining and on it, you will be nothing but a dead body and I don’t think […]
people think that i can always handle their words well guess whati fuckn cant . i cant handle people calling me fat worthless stupid ugly or them tell me you should die nobody wants you here nobody will miss you if you are gone no one will care . it gets to be to much . i cant handle this anymore i just want to forget everything the pain everything . i dont get why people think its okay to do that to me or others . ive lost so many people .. its been five years since my bestfriend killed herself for the same […]
And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.
You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this […]
well this is my first post here and I can say I’m a little shy … Let me tell you a little about my day and perhaps very soon on my life. Today was an ordinary day, I went to school, I met my only friend and as always people looked at me ugly, as if it not was for me to be there.. The day passed without anything extraordinary (addition to people ignoring me, as I said anything different) I went home and then that feeling of loneliness revived (in fact it is ALWAYS there) and then started to cry as she thought in […]
See, I can come up with 100 reasons NOT to live.
Life is too demanding for you.
Because there’s nothing more you want from life.
Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.
No more having to prove you’re good enough for people.
No more having to lie and pretend.
No more being treated unfairly.
No more holding the weight of the world on your shoulders.
You’re tired of being judged.
No more being ordered around by people.
No more competition.
No more debt. You actually won’t need money anymore.
Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.
Because you’re going to die anyway. It might as well be on your […]
I feel like jumping off a building. This would’ve been my last choice when it comes to offing myself but I can’t take it anymore.
I know it sounds silly but I am heartbroken for the nth time. It sucks when you’re 28 years old, kind of pretty, and single. It sucks when you see other women you know being wooed and cared for unlike yourself. It sucks to always feel like a loser. It sucks when you thought God had sent you the one but he’s just like everybody else, maybe even worse.
I don’t think I deserve to live. If I really am meant to […]
I’ve been well aware of my anxiety and depression for a while now (5 years). I am 20. I go through phases of suicidal thoughts. I’m mostly fine, but sometimes it all becomes too much and I want to die. I’ll google the painless way to kill yourself.
Last summer I started dating a guy. He is wonderful and kind and sweet and caring. He is who you dream of meeting. But. There’s always a but. I think we fell in love too soon, too fast. Because now, 8 months later, I don’t know what I want. I don’t know if I love him. But I […]
I’m suicidal and have been for over 30 years, living one day at a time. That method of surviving has made life long and exhausting. I’m not suicidal because of some previous abuse (physical, sexual, etc.) or anything traumatic such as that. I’ve had a great life by most people’s standards. I just observed early in life as a shy, quiet, Asperger’s kid that there was not much to look forward to other than going through the same motions as everyone else–get educated, further that education, get some sort of job, advance in one’s career, make money, and pay bills–oh, and die. Sure there are […]