Sunday night I took a walk along a bridge that I like to call Bridge Four in the city of Louisville, which I unfortunately live in. It was dark, cold, snowy, icy, and windy. I was talking along and spotted a kid up along the rail of this bridge: he was peering out into the distance, just watching the dark water below as the currents passed. As I approached closer, thinking that I would just walk by, he spotted me and asked me if I had a cigarette. Now I don’t usually smoke but once a week at the most, but as it would be […]
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that title just describes it all. I honestly hate myself. I don’t look in the mirror because I know I will hate what I see and I will hate what I have become. My arms used to be clean slates and now they are nothing more then a cutting board filled with old and new marks. I promised things that I have broken. I try not to let things get to me but how can you fight your own mind? there came a time when I just gave up and stopped trying. I hate myself for that. I was in therapy for awhile but I […]
In a perfect world, I would no longer be here.
There is no purpose.
There is no reason….
and every breath is just to pass time.
and smiles are actually tears….
Would it really be suicide if I never existed?
Every night, I sit on the ledge of the rooftop
and I look below at the 10 storeys between me and paradise.
a trip down to heaven.
From up there even though the stars are shining I cannot see them.
I just want to disappear.
I’m tired of living.
Save me…because I’m not going to save myself.
Okay i’m being completely honest here, no sugar coating anything alright. I have just come across as a huge disappointment in my entire family and every time i try to regain any self confidence it just plummets back down. I’m tired of everything and i’m not scared of the future anymore because i’ve decided that i will not have a bright and wonderful future anymore because i’m done. I may not live past 20 and I guess somethings happen for a reason and my reason is that i’m useless and i no longer have any significance to anyone. Not my family or my so called […]
Hi everyone, so today was the weirdest day in English. My class and I are reading Fahrenheit 451Â Â and we got to a part where Guy Montag’s wife Mlidred overdosed on sleeping pills. So, of course my teacher had us stop there and she started talking about the book’s society. Then she got into suicide. As she was talking about overdosing and what it does to you, I tried to stop listening to her because I been wanting to OD for a while now. Eventually, I heard the word “cut” from my teacher’s mouth and I wanted to start breaking down crying. Suicide really affects me, […]
am I the only one who has that feeling of taking your life for no reason at all. Well I have that feeling days when you just look in the mirror and say why am I here who am I. That moment when your mom looks at you and says I wish you weren’t born and you think to yourself I wish I wasn’t born too. You go to school joke around smile when with your friends but in your head your like when can I go when will death visit me. Telling someone you just want to die but they just look at you […]
How on earth could I be fair that a 17 year old girl who is doing her trial HSC exams get pregnant, that’s not the unfair part, the unfair part is that she was so happy she realised that this child would be her reason to live, this child could save her, she was so happy, she was so ready, she knew she would probably be a single mother, but that was ok, she had support, she wanted to keep it, but no, she miscarried, she was so distraught that her depression became worse than ever, she began a month long bender, during which she […]
I’ve struggled with severe depression for 6 years now. I have been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts and close attempts. I have been a self harmer for 4 of these 6 years.  I’ve tried all the medications, I’ve tried all the therapy, I’ve tried everything. nothing significant happened in my life to make me feel this way, its just the way I am. chemical imbalance bullshit. my close family is aware of my depression, yet they don’t know that I struggle every single day just to wake up and get myself out of bed. They don’t know that I’m failing college and close to dropping out. I’ve lost my […]
I’m so sick and tired of bad things always happening to me. I had a terrible childhood, adolescence and now adulthood. Recently, my worst nightmare came true. I’ve been contemplating suicide again. I haven’t thought about it since I was 14 years old and now I regret not doing it then. I wish I could go back in time to when I was 10 years old, kill myself and frame my adoptive parents for murder. That’s what they deserve. But it’s too late now. I didn’t kill myself when I was 14 because I falsely believed that “it would get better”. I was wrong. It […]
Hey guys, I’m a new-comer to this forum.
Hello,
I have recently set a Death Clock for myself, the end of December. At which time, I will decide whether or not to commit suicide with my gun.
I’m twenty-two years old, never smoked, used drugs, and can count all the drinks that I’ve ever had on two hands.
I’ve never been abused or experienced anything overly traumatic; however, I isolated myself when I grew up which I believe helped to instill low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety. I also have or fairly awful memory, which may be in part to the depression, since I studied hard in school and college, […]
(I know that some of you won’t, but please keep your rude, degrading comments to youself. Like a diabetic doesn’t ask for diabetes, people with mental illness don’t ask for it either.)
I inherited bipolar depression from both my mother and father. I’ve had a lot of emotional problems since I was a child. I was always extremely depressed and angry, somtimes suicidal. I had a compulsive cutting addiction as well, not just surface stratches..the kind like “Oh my God hold her down, put pressure on the bleeding. Call an ambulance” I was hospitalized twice which I am immensely grateful for. They gave my bipolar depression […]
The question is: is suicide the way out or the way in? Love this quote. What do y’all think?
Hey.
This is my first entry. I’ve never really been good with describing my pain or how I feel. So, bare with me, okay? I live in Montreal, Canada. My parents aren’t married and they have four kids, myself included. This has a lot to do in my life so it’s important that you note this.
I began to feel depressed when I was ten. My older sister, Veronica, was the main reason to my bullying. She always pushed me around and made me feel like shit. You might say that everyone feels like this at one point, right? Possibly. But what made this worst was that […]
There is just simply no joy left in my life.
I’ve been in therapy a few times. And I eventually do see improvement, but it takes years of work; painful work. And it’s expensive, it sucks to throw a lot of time and effort and money into this just get up to a baseline where I can function.
I have cycled back to hopelessness, despair and a deep depression again. I think this is the worst yet. Added to my black mood are some financial hardships that are becoming overwhelming. We can’t register the cars, our health insurance has lapsed. My husbands’ income is commission only and […]
i’m not sure how this works but ill share with you that I recently tried to commit suicide and i almost died and i was in the hosppital for about a week and then put into a msntal home and no one gave a fucking shit so i moved away from them all and no one misses me and i should of died because it eould of made no difference and i hate the world bye
Question, roughly how many who’ve come here actually went through with it?
by Snake5422000
written by Snake5422000
I mean obviously, if they went through with it, they wouldn’t be here posting…. But I’m sure if some of them did. there are probably some people on here who can stand witness. Perhaps they’ve known some of those people, even if only from on this forum…. I suspect that there are some here (I won’t name anyone or point anyone out– I doubt I could yet anyhow, I haven’t been here that long, but even if I could I’m not trying to stir anything up here) who are just sort of emo and looking for kicks and drama, but I am curious how many […]
The first time I attempted suicide I was eleven, it involved a shoddily tied hangmans knot, a bag, and a closet it looked like some kind of scene out of an erotic asphyxiation porn than a suicide. It left a circle of bruise around my neck for a week. My mother had been screaming at me for days , constantly yelling, constantly questioning my loyalty, constantly belittling me, keeping me in the house for days unable to go to school like all the other little girls do. I had no other option, no one would believe me, my mother told them I was crazy, I […]
When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?