My life has been on a spiral ever since I got adopted 2 years back into my real mom’s family… I have not seen my real mom since I was 12 years old… I am 14 almost 15 very soon, my step family has been very hard on me, they make me feel so unwanted and they make me just feel like I mean nothing to anyone.. Then school has not been any easier either, I have so many friends that care and love me for who I am and I am very known in my school but dealing with the people that hate me […]
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Here’s my story. One year back I was the happiest man alive. I had a good job. I had just got promoted. I was the senior most in my office. My marriage was fixed. Then this eye problem cropped up. The doctors diagnosed me with a rare incurable genetical disease. In just a year I’m now almost blind. My muscles are so affected that I’m wheelchair bound. I have lost my job. My fiancee left me. I have lost all feelings in my body I can’t feel hot or cold. Now the doctors say my kidneys are also failing. I’m in constant pain. I’m just […]
Why bother in the world of inequality, where billionaires have everything and the masses are destitute. Why work, why slave over, why even participate in the game of social mores and maniacal head hunts. Maniacal CV and Resume sending. This is not the way life is supposed to be. Spend all your money on pleasure, and then let someone else play it. Fuck all the GDP statistics and the deranged global money-changers.
the clutching curiosity of death is grasping me relentlessly. i wonder the thoughts that would race through my mind as i plummeted towards the pavement, i wonder what people would think when they discovered what happened to me, i wonder what people would think when the found out my true story and how shitty i felt while i was laughing at their jokes.
i will end my life, i will end it, i will, no one else, nothing else. this is me taking control of my life.
Hey everyone, Frodo here (for those wondering, no that isn’t my real name, though it’d be pretty cool if it was). I don’t really know what this site is for, as I found it while searching up how painful it is to overdose (apparently very painful). Â But I decided to register because I thought someone here might be able to help me. I just can’t take any more of my life. I know it sounds insanely selfish, but I just don’t want to live anymore. I feel incredibly weak for having these feelings, as I see people who have much worse lives than me be […]
I wish of death.
I hate my life so much.
To much drama at school.
Mom thinks everything’s fine.
I’m getting called a slut and guys are asking me inappropriate questions about sex.
I feel dirty from all the stuff I’ve done over the past year.
I’ve gotten insane.
I’m depressed.
I’m young.
I wish I could just fade.
Fade away.
Fade away into a big, dark hole.
Where I will never be found.
And be alone.
Forever.
No more drama.
No more relationships.
No more bullies.
Just me.
Alone.
Forever.
okay um, i need a fucking knife, i give up on this dehydration thing. it is taking so long and i keep accidently drinking with my meds and then i go to purge the water and urgh im just tired of life. i want to stab my boyfriend but i cant cause he is grounded because he went clubbing with a girl who is hard core crushing on him, she is bombing his ask, and why cant he see how much he is hurting me. i wish i could just tell him that i hadnt selfharmed in almost 2 months before we started dating, and […]
So the other day, my family and I went out to dinner. My dad is very critical of depression, and somehow it came up. He started going on about suicide. He said that suicide is immature and stupid, and basically that anyone who attempts or does commit suicide, is pathetic basically. And I’ve been struggling with depression, so I feel like if I commit suicide, he’ll just be critical. He doesn’t care. And half my friends hate me because “I’m so freaking stupid and I need to get over everything or kill myself.”
Hey,
I have been thinking about ending my life for over 10 years now, and I have decided that its really time to go. I’ve tried to make something of my life, even though I didn’t wanted to. I have had boyfriends, I pass my exams, I see my friends. But it gets harder and harder to act like I like my live. Nothing I try changes anything. There is nothing wrong with me, I know that, except that I just really hate life. I just don’t want to try anymore.
So I was thinking of drowning myself by anesthetizing myself with Chloroform and making sure that […]
To say no one cares about me would be a lie. I know I am loved. I know that if I pulled something off that I would hurt a lot of people. I have many friends. I am in a leadership position in the military (not stating what branch). Yet I still constantly think about ending my own life. The thoughts probably come every 5 days or so. I just feel as if theres nothing for me or like I’m going nowhere. But this isnt something that just came about. It has been something led into.
When I was about 10, I became the victim of […]
my head is pounding, my vision is blurring, and my thoughts are skewed, i am on hour 20 of my fast, boycotting water and food. i read that old people restrict themselves of food and water, as a way of suicide, and the process often lasts around 5-10 days, so i guess that is how long i have left. i am grateful for this kind of suicide because my family and friends might not be aware that my death was volentary, hopefully the will see it as a crude accident, and feel no responsibility. fingers crossed.
Does anyone  know if i slipknoted a scarf tight enough around my neck and carotid artery that i would pass out and die about 10-20 minutes later? I read alot about suspension hanging and i would rather just do it this way if it would work. What do you think?
I want to die, and not because I’m going through some ‘rough times’ or whatever, I’ve felt this way since I was at school.
I’m in my 20’s and I have mental health problems, manic depression, insomnia, amongst other things, I never have any energy nor feel happiness.
I feel like life isn’t for me, it’s all too hard when I think of it all, it’s so daunting and I just don’t have the energy for it. I can’t hold down a job because of my insomnia, so what’s the point of living? I’m not wired properly to ever be happy and I’ll always have problems doing normal […]
“All my life I’ve tried to put it from me, saying Vladimir, be reasonable, you haven’t yet tried everything.”
by apatico
written by apatico
A little story, maybe a little hope.
Hi. I’m sorry for my English. I’ll try to make myself understandable. The reason that I’ve came back here to write this is that I’m feeling well. And I want to share this here.
Since my youth, since I had 8 or 9 years, I have suicide thoughts. Jumping was always my “favoriteâ€. Like the way it looks, flying for freedom, forever freedom. I’m, obviously, an atheist. Don’t believe in anything that will punish or save me. I’m all by myself, I was born naked and lonely, and I live and always will live naked and lonely, despite of the […]
Birthdays: supposed to be a day whereon good wishes help one to have a better day than usual. I am in trouble this year, today has been awful.
Everyday I wake up, go to the gym then to work, all the while trying to forget how lonely I am and how people do not help me feel less lonely. I get invites to other people’s birthdays and various nonsense, on mine, just like every other day, nothing. People Have no problem telling me what they need from me and criticizing me when I don’t provide it.
I am […]
I’ve stopped caring and so has everyone else. I’m struggling to find a reason to keep living this awful life, it’s not like I’ll go far in life anyways. Everyone dies eventually, why can’t I just make it happen for myself?
This sounds very vain compared to a lot of the other stories that people are telling, but I took prednisone, which is a catabolic steroid and it caused stretch marks all over my body and wrinkles all over my face. I also got plastic surgery that I didn’t need and ruined my face and body at only 27 years old. Money isn’t everything and I wish that I had never had it because I followed my moms footsteps even though I said I never would. I’ve become the freak I used to make fun of. Instead of being made fun of myself, I am thinking […]
The right to end one’s life in a calm, peaceful, and rational manner should be a basic human right. Society and the government seem to believe that they own us, so they make it hard if not impossible to find information and tools about self-euthanasia, and they criminalize people who try to assist it.
You will even see people posting on this site, trying to tell you about their value systems and why you should not end your life. That’s just plain rude.
Obviously before you would choose to end your life, you’d want to contemplate why you’re doing it, what could go wrong, who it will […]
I have a rare genetical disease that’s making me blind. I can hardly see anymore. It’s so difficult to write this post. The disease has also affected my muscles and nervous system. I’m wheelchair bound and I’m getting weaker day by day. I lost my job and my fiancee, she left me. I’m just 33 yrs and I wanted so much from life. But God has left me all alone. The doctor says I won’t ever get better. I’m going to die from either heart failure or breathing failure or failure of the liver/kidney. I don’t want to die in so much suffering. I want […]
The girl was laying in her bed staring up at the ceiling, unblinking, her long hair streaming out around her. Her tears had made large damp marks on her pillow case. The door was closed; the blinds were drawn.
She was waiting for the pills to take effect.
She wondered how long it would be before she started to drift away. She hoped it would be painless and peaceful – just like in the movies. How long had it been already? It felt like forever.
She thought of her family. Of her brothers and sister. Would they miss her after she was gone? They had never exactly been […]