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Please Help

by prettiestfish 4/7/2015

written by prettiestfish

Everything hurts I want to die I don’t know what to do. I have a mood disorder and there is no cure and god I don’t want to live like this. Treat the symptoms, manage your emotions, improve your quality of life! But there’s nothing that can cure it.

I can’t eat either get it past my lips or I throw it up. I either sleep too much or can’t sleep at all. I haven’t left the house in days and I can’t talk to my family anymore.

Right now I can hear my dad down the hall calling all these therapists to help me. He’s started […]

4/7/2015 4 comments

My Story

by AlexelA 3/18/2015

written by AlexelA

I apologize for the lengthiness of this in advance. Just kind of the story of my life starting from 7th grade to now. No need to read it if you don’t want to.

I’m only 15. I’m currently a freshman in high school, and I’ve been battling depression since around seventh grade.

Before you ask: no, I’m not diagnosed, but I’m positive I’m depressed. I’m perfectly aware of all of the symptoms associated with depression, most of which I have.

Anyway, the symptoms started appearing sometime around sixth grade, but not enough so that I was truly depressed. My grandfather had died the year before, and I didn’t […]

3/18/2015 2 comments

I finally did it. I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE!!!!!

by Ria0331 1/16/2015

written by Ria0331

BEFORE CONTINUING ON MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING AND I’M NOT RECOMMENDING ANYONE TO RESORT TO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been over consumed with death and suicide. I have been dealing with big upcoming decisions and stress. Also I have been suffering with a huge increase of panic and anxiety attacks. I do goto counseling and take meds daily. I am diagnosed with borderline personality disorder along with both mood and anxiety disorders.

I have been using my coping skills and yes they work, however it wasn’t enough. I have been exhibiting manic symptoms even though I’m not bipolar.

As a teenager I used to dabble in cutting and self mutilating, […]

1/16/2015 0 comment

Help me, I need it.

by alina_01 1/6/2015

written by alina_01

This is the real reason I know I have changed, I am in an extremely messed up situation and I’m not beating myself up over it. It’s shocking to me because I feel like I should, I feel like I should want to be dead right now, as if I should hate myself. I have made so many careless mistakes and now I am dealing with the consequences. I never slept around I had only been with 2 people my entire life. My ex and a new person that I had known for a few months before deciding to do that. Well some how I […]

1/6/2015 1 comment

Sunday, delusion day

by depressednihilist95 11/2/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I went to a psychiatric testing place last week, and I’ve got to go back again Monday. I’ve noticed that I express far fewer symptoms of depression than I had years ago. For instance, I don’t actively want to commit suicide, but I still wish to stop existing. I sleep whenever I can, because there is nothing to do at all that means anything. I don’t want a job because there is no point, and I’m currently mentally incapable of having one, as I break down about a couple of weeks in, realising how pointless and worthless I am and that my job suggests the […]

11/2/2014 5 comments

to end my depression

by schizophrenia 222 10/9/2014

written by schizophrenia 222

I just want my depression and the voices to end, I had the best job and the best wife and lost it all. I have lost my life, my confidence and all my friends. Am currently studying again and doing really well, but hearing voices to commit suicide and having depression big time sucks as if I can’t pull myself out of a grave. And yes I do take meds.

I have gone through suicide in my head thousands of times and know of the painless method I will actually carry this out. Just need to save some money. It’s pain vs pleasure for me and […]

10/9/2014 7 comments

Expiring

by mudturtle 8/18/2014

written by mudturtle

For a long time I’ve known I would die by suicide. I know now that this time has come. I’ve come to the end of my mortal life and I can’t live any more. The only unknown in this equation is when. I’ve been hospitalised an average of four times a year for the last four years for mood symptoms and psychosis. This feeling of expiring has been building for a couple of years now and it’s grown to the point of no return. I’m not sure that I can come back from this feeling. This feeling of complete emptiness, blockage, doom, the end. The […]

8/18/2014 5 comments

I need there to be something wrong with me

by broken-notes 8/14/2014

written by broken-notes

I am not depressed. Or so I’m told anyway. Great stuff. Except that doesn’t relieve the crushing weariness which makes everyday life unbearable.
Aparently I cannot be depressed as my semi conscious, morose state isnt constant. No, I have days of energetic, paranoid agitation; bizarre periods of un-lucidity in which nothing seems as real as it should and believe it or not, some days of relative normality. Unfortunately however, accordong to some of the small army of doctors ive seen, the presence of these other states exempts me from any kind of medical inerest or help. They were not […]

8/14/2014 3 comments

Hi please read and help

by engfi 8/1/2014

written by engfi

Hiya for who ever has reads this. My problem has been going on for nearly 9 years now, out of a 7 day , say 3 to 2 days am happy full of life,loud making jokes,love my girlfriend full of trust , then for next 4 days am down in dumps don’t want to get out of bed,moody,paranoid,want to kill my self this has been going on for years and iv never been for help (and don’t plan to) but a came across this site and was wondering if any one has symptoms and can help ?

8/1/2014 21 comments

Way Out

by Sat 8/1/2014

written by Sat

You know that feeling in life when you’ve got to do something, but you don’t want to. You can’t get another person to swap places with you. No trades, exchanges, deals.

My deal is that I have to go see a doctor later this month and I already know I’ll have to undergo an operation. Can’t really get anyone to step into my shoes and take a vacation instead. Yeah, because it’s my body and my problem. Then I began to think what if I did not exist, then there would be no operation either. I’m not fond of doctors, operations, hospitals at all, so of […]

8/1/2014 1 comment

The end

by justintg 6/24/2014

written by justintg

Well.. I’m less than 20 days from being 18. I have had social anxiety for most of life, at least from when I was ~4. I have had countless episodes of it, whether they are a friend of mine or not, I will get nervous. I had to take medicine to walk the stage without panicking, as well as with my speeches this year. I am on medicine and I think it’s where I got the depression for the most part. I was told I have depression symptoms but since taking the medicine the thoughts of suicide has gone in more depth. I have now […]

6/24/2014 3 comments

Imagining and recovering a better self…

by 77nearlyheaven 6/15/2014

written by 77nearlyheaven

Just want to first say this:

IF YOU ARE ON HERE READING THIS PLEASE FORCE YOURSELF TO FIND REASONS NOT TO AND THEN COME UP WITH A RADICAL BUT ACHIEVABLE PLAN FOR BEGINNING TO LIVE AND EMBRACE LIFE AGAIN.

YOU ARE WORTH IT.Â YOU ARE, EVEN IF YOU CAN’T RECOGNIZE IT RIGHT NOW.

PAIN, DARKNESS CAN BE OVERCOME.

* * *

Have attempted suicide a few times, most recently 2007 (carbon monoxide, more impulsive and less deliberate) and 2012 (overdose, deliberate and methodical).

2012 was closest to date; received dialysis twice and woke up convinced I had irreversible brain damage.Â Realize that my resolve to succeed each time is growing and […]

6/15/2014 6 comments

My experiment in going off my meds

by k2fraser 6/14/2014

written by k2fraser

Well, I’ve been off my med (200mg Zoloft) for three weeks. Cold turkey. I was on it for both depression and anxiety.

The only difference I notice is that the physical symptoms of my anxiety have returned. That trembling sensation in my hands, nausea, sweating, flushing, etc. Anxiety levels and depression levels are the same.

Withdrawal effects were pretty tame. Nausea, head aches, dizziness, emotional lability (i.e. uncontrollable crying/laughter at odd times)

Hmm probably should go back. The physical symptoms of anxiety are a ***** and they are mostly visible to other people which is not good and in turn makes me more anxious.

6/14/2014 1 comment

To Ivancruz98

by LovingLife 6/13/2014

written by LovingLife

Was just writing a comment to you, but you already had removed your post.

So sorry to hear of your illness, my heart goes out to you. I’m having a terminal condition as well and have horrifying symptoms too, and they are getting worse by the minute; so I want to end it my way soon as do you.

If you would like to talk personally, I can give you my email address. We can talk here too if you feel comfortable. But if you desire not to talk, take care and I sincerely wish you a peacefull and painless end. You will be in a […]

6/13/2014 5 comments

Trying to enjoy the last days of my life!

by LovingLife 5/24/2014

written by LovingLife

Hi to all,

Well, it has been 14 months since got sick physically – could not exercise or do anything after a while; things escalated and got worse every day. Now just breathing is so hard, and can’t even move without having terrible chest tightness, stomach aches, dry mouth and other stuff.

Docs first checked me for some general illnesses and after they found not a thing; it had to be in my head, of course.

The thing is not like many here may have; I have a physical sickness which is killing me and the docs can’t find what seems to be the problem, and then the […]

5/24/2014 2 comments

What’s next?

by irefusetosink 1/29/2014

written by irefusetosink

I’ve had depression for a number of years. My parents work all the time and I wouldn’t consider my family to be close anyway so i’ve always been independent. When I was 11, my dad left my mum because she was an alcoholic but came back after 3 months. My mum lied to me for years about how he had left for another women but no..it was because of her and I was only told this 4 months ago. I’m not really close to anyone. I literally don’t care about anything anymore. It makes me laugh how even my dad thinks I’m not depressed, he […]

1/29/2014 3 comments

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