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Jane

by defeatedbyrain 10/19/2015

written by defeatedbyrain

I have this friend, for privacy reasons I’ll call her Jane.

Jane victimizes herself. If you don’t know what that mean, it basically means that in any situation she is always the victim. She’s the one who’s been wronged and she’s never wrong. Of course, that isn’t true, we’ve ALL been wrong at one point or another, but she just won’t admit it.

So at the moment we’re in a huge fight, and I really want to remain being friends with her, but she’s driving me insane. I have explained so many times why I’m mad, and she just doesn’t ‘get it’. She keeps telling me I’m […]

10/19/2015 11 comments

suicide season

by melodychild 10/16/2015

written by melodychild

I live in a pretty rural area I guess you’d call it. In the last few months 4 people around here have committed suicide. I knew one of them vaguely from school long ago. I feel like this is a sign telling me it’s ok if I go too. One of them killed himself on my planned death day, the day after my birthday. I wasn’t able to go through with it because my dad had decided to stay home. I know that might be a sign too. The thing is, I could go on, maybe. I don’t think it’d be worth it and I […]

10/16/2015 4 comments

Protected: They’re sitting in my head.

by whiskered-fish 10/13/2015

written by whiskered-fish

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10/13/2015 6 comments

please

by No_one_care 10/11/2015

written by No_one_care

Today i had a lighter and thought about how it would feel on my skin. But i am to afraid of the unknown to try. I love the way a blade feels or even a pencil back and forth. I need help. My mind is so filled with hatred and resentment. I know that i am asking for help but if i am telling the truth i will not even accept it. I am no good. People come in and out of my life so quick. I just want someone who not gonna walk out of me because of something i say or do. I […]

10/11/2015 10 comments

Just want to leave…

by SoulGold 9/28/2015

written by SoulGold

I’m done, I just want to leave and put this agonizing existence behind me. Yet everyone has to keep telling me that it’s my “duty” that “I have to” to stay alive for everyone else. Bullshit no one gives a shit and I know that. If I disappeared tomorrow, the only person who would miss me is my mom and I’m sure she would get over it. I don’t matter in anyones life, everyone else has a better friend then me and just keep me around cause they are just sympathizing for the reject. After all, doesn’t everyone say that they need to get rid […]

9/28/2015 4 comments

I really regret telling people about my cutting and wanting to kill myself. This “help” isn’t helping me

by meg3323 9/23/2015

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9/23/2015 4 comments

I’m horrified this happened

by BluDude976 9/22/2015

written by BluDude976

I tried to use the Reddit app for the first time last night. I posted some very personal stuff in the Depression and in the LGBT section to see what people would say. The responses were extraordinarily abusive. People blaming me for something someone else did that was out of my control. People telling me to fuck off and get a therapist. I’m actually shaking it was so upsetting. This is why I don’t try to make friends, whenever I reveal anything about my depression to punish me for it. When I deleted my account there was a question of why I was doing this […]

9/22/2015 9 comments

This will be long..

by radi0active-f_ckup 9/22/2015

written by radi0active-f_ckup

Around November, 2011, I met him. I was almost 12 (I’m 15 now), & he was 22.. I fucking fell for him so hard. I never even knew what it was like to be in love with someone, but goddamn I fucking knew that he was the one I wanted to be with. At first, we were okay with each other.. We met because he was my mom’s tattoo artist, & they happened to be really good friends. My mom had recently found out about me self-harming, so she introduced me to him, & told me that if I ever needed someone, I could go […]

9/22/2015 8 comments

Losing my best friend

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

The latest in a series of shitty things that are happening to me is that my best friend has decided that she hates me. I had never shared with her anything about my depression until I learned that she had tried to kill herself and was put into a mental hospital, that was six months ago. Yesterday night me and her had been drinking, I told her I didn’t want to drink because I don’t like how she gets when she’s drunk. She didn’t listen and got very angry and upset. She wanted me to move in with her, but I don’t have the money […]

9/17/2015 3 comments

Why am I so terrified?

by chelle428 9/14/2015

written by chelle428

I’m planning on making an appointment to get on antidepressants soon, I also plan on going to counseling soon. I am so incredibly terrified of going into the doctor’s office and telling them I’m depressed. I don’t even know why, but just the idea makes me sick to my stomach. Also the idea of going to counseling really scares me, I went to counseling once when I was younger because I was forced to go by the SRS since my parents were abusive. I’ve hidden my depression for so long, and I’ve been depressed and cutting myself since I was 11, and I’m 19 now. […]

9/14/2015 1 comment

Rant

by Xole Skythe 9/13/2015

written by Xole Skythe

I’m so tired of being alive. But it’s like I don’t even belong in death. Like I could never deserve such a privilege. I’m stuck, in between life and death and no matter how exhausted I am, I just seem to go on like a curse inside of me. I just want to lay down, crash and never wake up. But every single morning, my eyes open and my conscious never stops murmuring words here and there. So many years have passed now but it’s all so confusing to me, cause my memories are all a blurry haze and I keep forgetting to dislike the […]

9/13/2015 1 comment

A Trapped Cycle

by Black_Heart2001 9/12/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

I am so fucking sick of you pathetic excuses for parents telling me that I’ll “ridiculous”, “a failure”, and pathetic every time I mess up at something, not matter how minor, no matter how many times I succeeded. I’m sick of you telling me that I’m not good enough. I’m sick of you guys using my dreams and my ambitions and threats against me, like I won’t ever get anywhere in life if I suddenly didn’t live with you anymore. Well heads up, fuckers. You cut me off when I was 14. Since then, I have made my money, paid my own tuition, bought my […]

9/12/2015 0 comment

I just want to be free

by AA2I2 9/12/2015

written by AA2I2

I feel like I’m withering away.

Rotting from the inside out.

My body breaking down and I’m going into shock.

I can’t feel anything anymore.

There is no life left in me.

Not sure why my heart is still beating and my eyes still seeing, my fingers still touching, and my mind just wandering.

Around in circle until I can’t remember who I am.

I’ve forgotten.

Or had I ever really known?

It takes courage to take your own life.

To let yourself drift into nothingness.

Into the unknown.

To leave your family, your home, this life.

But this home is no longer a home.

It […]

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Education, Evolution, and Suicide

by Black_Heart2001 9/10/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

Even when I was on the brink of killing myself, when all I wanted to do was rip my skin apart and die, I never missed an assignment, or failed to sit through a two-hour-long lecture, even when I couldn’t breathe because of panic attacks. I never once missed a training session or a competition even though I could not stop coughing because of pneumonia. Even when I was burning at a high fever, I never even thought about my own health when I was staying up late to type an essay. I didn’t mind driving myself crazy wondering whether or not my essay was […]

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9/10/2015 4 comments

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Be Happy?

by Black_Heart2001 9/8/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

People always say that “happiness is a choice”. Well, guess what? For some people, it isn’t. How do you find happiness in the breaking of a heart, in the sound of your own parents telling you to never see them again? To hear over and over again how you failed, and no matter how hard you try to think of something good, the only thing that comes to mind is that you’ll be dying soon. It’s not like there isn’t any happiness. There is. It’s just not enough to win compared to all the disasters and failures we have to face. Being happy isn’t a […]

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9/8/2015 7 comments

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No one listens

by disgusting 9/7/2015

written by disgusting

I just got to writing a good steam of conciousness for a change, about how no one listens to me. Long story short, everyone else is always telling their stories about their life and no one is willing to listen to mine. Even the people closest to me who see me the most don’t listen, so how can I ever matter in this world? I don’t, and I can’t. Anyway, I guess this will be the book to look for when I’m gone. I bought it at least a few months ago but haven’t kept up with writing in it. It was my intention to […]

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9/7/2015 3 comments

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Fuck-up

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 8/21/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

That’s me. A giant fuck-up. A huge mistake. A waste of space. Nothing important.
That’s how I feel today.
I accidentally came out to my mum today. She asked a rather leading question, which resulted in me accidentally telling her. She didn’t say anything back, and continues to treat me as normal. I wish she had said something, because I have all these thoughts of what she could have said or thought, and I feel like these thoughts are slowly destroying me.
I wasn’t ready to tell her, and I feel like I have been forced to come out, and it’s really upsetting. I feel […]

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8/21/2015 1 comment

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Am I Insane? I used to think not, but now I am not so sure..

by PlagueDoctor 8/20/2015

written by PlagueDoctor

I used to think that everyone else was fucked in the head and that I was the only normal one. I still think that most everyone is below me, but I am also questioning my own sanity, which has me questioning everything I think I know, and believe.

The other night I had the opportunity to do some research. My Psychiatrist told me that I was mentally ill, I told her that the only mentally ill people were those who had brain damage, everything else was simply weakness. She said that there were two kinds of mental illness, the one I was referring to was organic […]

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8/20/2015 2 comments

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by Delisnak 8/18/2015

written by Delisnak

the truth is we’re all suicidal people telling other suicidal people its okay when we all know its not. sorry if its offensive in anyway to you but im tired of the bullshit.

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8/18/2015 19 comments

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Impaired and Destructive

by brodie3750 8/17/2015

written by brodie3750

…or at least that’s how I think I feel

I’m so worn down and tired all the time now. I’m not usually one to commit to displaying how bad I feel but recently I just had at It on social media (Instagram, snapchat, etc) Eventually people took notice and started worrying.

My boss called me in for a chat recently to see if I was alright. She looked at me funny when I couldn’t give her a reason as to why I feel so horribly bad. People who don’t actually suffer depression don’t seem to understand that it’s not necessarily a combination of negative things that make […]

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8/17/2015 5 comments

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