It’s a cut to the wrist with the bite of my kiss
I don’t mean it baby when I go crazy
There’s really no such thing as control when I lost my hold
Just remember I don’t mean it baby when my heart grows cold
I’m sorry
For what I’ve done and I can’t ever change
Just a girl who steps on glass and walks on you all day
I’m not trying to bleed but I don’t try not to
I’m not trying to hurt you but I can’t help you
Welcome to pain, it’s my second face
Can you feel the bruises I’ve inflicted […]
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Ugly
Hello! I’m writing this in order to get some help, and be sure that i’ve made the right decision.
I wrote this to another person on another website:Â <<<Â I feel the same as you do/did “Every day I wake up feeling terrible! I don’t want to die,i just don’t want to live like this.” and i felt it since i was your age 17/18 and then i was dreaming about killing myself but i talked to others and i was to weak to take my own life so i said that i’ll wait, that things will get better, two years have passed and i had a big […]
So a few weeks ago I found out this guy (that I don’t even like as a friend) has a crush on me. It’s awful and annoying. I never picture anyone having a crush on me (due to physical appearance) and when you find out someone does to me it’s just like uuhhhggg!!!!!! Why?!??!!?!??!??!?!?!!! I seriously want to scream I don’t like you!!!!! But I would hate myself after. I’m still confused on why some one would like me. I’m depressed, ugly, fat, and just gross and lately I haven’t been myself at all and it’s scaring me. *sigh I really don’t know what to […]
” Have you ever just laid in your bed and cried? Because you think you’re ugly, because you’re not good enough for anyone. You’ve counted your flaws from head to toe, making yourself feel worse. Cried because of all the comments that people blurt out actually hurt? Cried because your family is dysfunctional and never understands you. They tell you to stop complaining . That you have it so much better than the kids in Africa, even though they don’t understand your life either. You don’t want to feel like an attention seeker, so you bottle everything up? Around friends and family, you’ve created this […]
I am on the edge. Trying to determine whether or not it’s time for me to die. I just want the curse to be lifted. I want to be set free. Happy again.
But what if dying is not as wonderful as it seems?
I don’t necessarily want to kill myself. But i think most of us on this site have contemplated it at least once before.
I recently made the decision not to eat any more. My stomach is too large. My thighs are too bulky. My arms are too fat. i hate being ugly. it sucks.
“Suicide is never the answer.” yeah, okay, i get that. But […]
I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)
I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]
I am obviously perfect. I am the best person possible.
I am the most talented person who ever lived. Not being able to do anything well is the most important and amazing ability anyone could have.
I am the most handsome and good looking person ever. Who could ever say lazy eyes, thick messy hair, big head, giant thighs stomach and face, and an annoying voice is ugly?
I am the nicest and sociable person ever. Everyone loves how I say the most awkward things possible and the blank looks they give me mean they think I am the greatest person ever.
This doesn’t work at all.
I don’t know how to say this but here it goes:
“Useless, Ugly, Hated, Misunderstood, Piece of crap” are words to describe myself. I’ve never been help to anyone, all I’ve ever been was a bother. A bother to my parents, my friends, my relatives, my family and all. No wonder I get screamed at alot of times. I’m useless. No matter how hard I try, things always turn out wrong and dissapointing. I’ve never known a happy ending, other than those in the fairytales. But fairytales are not real, never will be. Some people will just say “Life’s what you make it”. But that doesn’t […]
eveyone tells me i’m a mistake to this world. maybe they’re right, i am. or im just taking things way to seriously but no one understands that words hurt. especially cause i’m really sensitive. people tell me a lot of things that i really can’t argue with. for example ugly, not good enough for anyone or anything, useless, stupid, etc. my bullies were the ones who made me hate my own refelction. and instead of solving my problems, i hide from my problems. i just hate to be put down everyday. everyday is just another day to wake up wanting to die and cry. sometimes i […]
The prayers I used to say like now I lay me down to sleep if I should die before I wake.. Take on new meaning though I am not religious. And all the pain still there and the advice that you’ll just run in circles for years in therapy.
That feeling when you’re a little kid and you get lost in the grocery store, it’s scary.. but now I want it for good.
I made the worst mistake of my life by trying to end it. But the craziest thing happened. It became the biggest blessing as well. I grew up hearing things like, “you’re ugly,” “worthless!” “a mistake” “why didn’t you get an A?” This over time by family, peers, and our culture in general just eroded my self-confidence and by the age of 23 I was in full blown anger and depression. I was so tired of being rejected, judged, teased, bullied, etc that I couldn’t see any other solution but taking my life and so I tried. Well, God decided he had another plan and […]
I am someone you may not understand,
I am someone you may or may not know.
I am someone who cares too much.
I am someone who thinks too much.
Talks too much.
Talks too little.
Thinks too loud.
I am beautiful.
I am ugly.
IÂ am fat.
I am skinny.
What do you want me to say?
I don’t know what I am
Who I am.
But I am someone.
This is my first post. I’m  a 31 yo female, a cutter, overweight and ugly….I deal with the pain every day. My dad is getting on in years and he has been forgetting a lot lately, which makes me even more sad becuz I know that he has real reasons to be depressed and want to die, but he doesn’t. But maybe it’s cuz he forgot he wanted to. My pain is mostly from love.
In 2011 I met someone I fell in love with, hard, and I know he didn’t feel the same way. How could he, I’m me! But over all this time […]
I wonder, if there is an end to any of this…. things keep happening …. some of us are depressed, some of us want to end our life, some are struggling to find a meaning , some are try struggling to find a way out, and then there are others who don’t have too many doubts, they are almost sure of what they want and are working towards it. And life goes on…. the race, the rush, the panic , the ecstasy, emotions,feelings, sensations…. everything that makes this web of life goes on… just goes on , not waiting for anybody or anything…. there is […]
I’m a 20 year old girl, i have a job i don’t miss a day, i have no real friends i spend all my time playing computer games and thinking bout what i am gonna do to change my life so ill be happier but then i remember who i am and how its worthless trying to fix myself when i cant be fixed i was teased through high school we were kinda poor so i couldn’t afford any nice clothes i wore so many handy downs u could tell i was poor i was a loser i still am i dropped outta high school […]
I am tired of my life. I am tired of looking back at my past and looking into my forward. I have a feeling of complete hopeless. I have been suffering from depression for 7 years of my 20 year life. I am usually always depressed about one thing or another but sometimes my depression explodes and hurls me into a scary state of mind. I am currently in one of these states of mind. I have a ugly past and I have obscene tattoos that remind me of it daily. I wake up and wish my tattoos where gone but they are not they […]
I’ve been cutting since 7th grade. In 7th grade is when I first got bullied, some girl called me ugly, I told her off, she got her friends to go kick my ass blah blah blah. I dropped out half the year and decided homeschooling would be better for me, but no. It got worse, it lead to cyber bullying. I went back in 8th grade thinking it would actually be better since new people will come in, it was actually way worse than the year before. Rumors went around and what not. I left half that year also. During that summer, I made a […]
I’m not really wanted here at my home, my town, or my school. People even say it to me. Everyone seems to be strait up with me. Like “No one even likes you here, just leave already.” “If you take all of your medication and die no one would even care.” I mean like, I ignore them. But I can see why they don’t like me, I don’t even like me. Haha. I’m ugly, I’m too quiet, I never talk, I’m weird, I stare too much, I try to be smart in school (but get judged for it), my whole life revolves around my dead […]
I am not skinny. I am not fat. I am not pretty. I am not ugly. I am not mean. I am not nice. I am not popular. I am not unpopular. I am not weird. I am not normal. I am not social. I not quiet. I am not liked. I am not disliked. I am not happy. I am not angry. I only identify as one thing; sad. That’s it. Why? I am tired. I am sick (recently diagnosed with heart problems). I have no real friends left. I have no caring family. Why? I never did anything, to anyone. I used to […]
That will be my one crowning achievement in my worthless fucking existence. I want her to find my bruised bloody corpse and know that she is the reason for it.