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Guilt…

by disgusting 9/4/2015

written by disgusting

Anyone else feel guilt knowing what you’re going to do to others? Of course most people aren’t backed into a corner like I am… but it’s hitting me a little bit here and a little bit there.

One of my bosses had a friend die yesterday. With my death coming soon, I feel bad for inevitably making her cry.
For everyone at my jobs, for letting them down, being such a disappointment and a waste of time, money, energy, training and resources. I’m sorry I can’t go on being homeless.
My kid. Yes, I have one out there who will be 17 next month. It’s her decision after […]

9/4/2015 3 comments

If anyone wants to here a drink

by wndozh8er 9/4/2015

written by wndozh8er

1-304-727-2357

9/4/2015 1 comment

by Diablo 9/1/2015

written by Diablo

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I’ve been avoiding everyone and one person that’s the hardest to avoid is my boyfriend since he lives 1000+ miles away and looks forward to talking to me everyday. Last night I told him everything that was wrong since I’ve been pushing him away for a few days and he wouldn’t let me get away with it. I told him about my excessive drinking, my smoking cigarettes again (I broke my promise to him), me taking pills, cutting myself and not eating. He tried helping me he was so frustrated and just wanted to do what he […]

9/1/2015 2 comments

Rickets.

by sickfromthemelt 8/30/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

So, some trivial shit happened about an hour ago:

*Nephew pulls pins out of board, I lose my shit and pick them all up*
Me: Mom, where do we keep the pins?
Mom: How about, instead o-
Me: Uh, I just want t-
Mom: YOU’RE JUST LIKE YOU BROTHER… AND YOUR FATHER!!!
Me: Mom, I just want to know where-
Mom: WHY, YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME!!!

At this point, no one would tell me where to leave them, so I just left them on the table, my sister comes into my room, throws them all over my bed, and yells at me for leaving pins where […]

8/30/2015 6 comments

Sad boy

by Delisnak 8/29/2015

written by Delisnak

There is a boy,
inside he is sad,
he keeps it bottled in,
and this makes him mad.

Why cant the world see,
the pain that makes him be,
no one to understand him,
he wants to be set free.

The world is not right,
and his mind just collides,
theres no disfinct reason,
for why he burns inside.

Nothing to him is clear,
he sheds but a single tear,
it trickles down hs face,
over his cheek a moderate pace.

It falls through nothingness,
the nothingness he feels,
to hit the ground,thud,
with that tear, he disappeared.

8/29/2015 1 comment

People here…

by disgusting 8/26/2015

written by disgusting

Wndozh8r (did I get that right?) Been trying to tell you that I’m also from WV. I was born & raised in Morgantown. I am only surprised more people in WV aren’t in here, because living in WV is enough to make one want to kill themselves. 😉 lol (But actually I have had a moment or two of being homesick. It’ll be 2 years out of WV before I know it. I lost my whole family and life there.)

Somebody Insignificant (is that right?) Damn it to hell, I’m horny! Lol

And for others, I wonder what these guys look like who swear they’re going to […]

8/26/2015 15 comments

A story about a former stupid friend I use to have..

by wndozh8er 8/26/2015

written by wndozh8er

I had this friend who I started talking to online. Me and my far away girl met him from a chat site. His wife left him after 4 years. He admitted that during the entirety of the marriage, she never let him do anything sexual with her at all! No sex, no foreplay etc! I was completely shocked.

He is a 43 man with Cerebral Paulsy, she was 25. She left him for another person with CP. I felt so sorry for the dude. I even ordered him NASCAR video game with my own money.

For almost a year after she left him, he praised her and blamed […]

8/26/2015 145 comments

Untameable

by The Indigo Kydd 8/24/2015

written by The Indigo Kydd

Hidden beneath the pile of forbidden fruit

Lies emotions that whisper nothings sweet and crude

an attitude of lust and a beauty everlasting

brings with it the terror of an unexpected sting

the warm rush of feelings never felt

hand of avarice and wickedness ive been dealt

no doubt that i dont know what lifes all about

but i wear a mask and play the part and pretend to know the route

existence is the devils mistress and you wont be remiss to hear me say i dont miss this

the heart wants what it wants so get a grip

blood to spill and im insatiable ill take it all drip by putrid drip

a skip […]

8/24/2015 1 comment

Welp, had my 12 packs of the “silver bullet”

by wndozh8er 8/23/2015

written by wndozh8er

Last night I didn’t think I’d get to drink here again after last weeks shananagins. But after Donald Trunpesue debating skills, I convinced them to allow me to have only a 12 pack of cooers light. I usually get extra with it but conceded to there rules because drinking the light stuff is better than not drinking at all. Eh I wish I spent my time drunk better. I spent the last two hours debating with them once again on my right to die. I don’t even know why I waste my breath with them on this issue. They don’t believe that I have s […]

8/23/2015 13 comments

Any advice? Sorry it’s long…

by JustSomeGirl 8/22/2015

written by JustSomeGirl

Hello all,

This is my first post on here, and I’m hoping to get some feedback about my situation and if I should be taking some sort of action towards it. A little background to the life that led me to this site. I have cystic fibrosis, a degenerative disease that currently holds the life expectancy at 37. I am also pre-diabetic and if this carries it’s course then my life expectancy will drop to a whopping 24. I am currently 19 and these two numbers have haunted the majority of my thoughts for quite some time now. I have not had an easy run at […]

8/22/2015 11 comments

Tell Me What an Ugly Freak I Am

by skykiller17 8/22/2015

written by skykiller17

Not kidding. Don’t hold back on what comes to mind when you see these pics:

8/22/2015 27 comments

Constant

by smiars 8/22/2015

written by smiars

My sadness never goes away it’s constantly grabbing at me in the slightest saying “you can’t forget me” as if I had a choice

it latches on to every ounce of my living, adding to my anxiety, my confidence and me questioning, if I’m good enough for myself?

not once have I lived a day like the other kids, not once have I spent a day with out this lingering darkness, not once has this thing loosened its grasp, constant doesn’t let go.

Constant stares me in the eyes when my family dinner didn’t involve the middle child,

constant pushes me away from any school events because constant won’t […]

8/22/2015 2 comments

If anyone wants to talk

by AleksiK18 8/21/2015

written by AleksiK18

HEY! Im a guy from Finland who was once suicidal, but overcame my suicidal thoughts and am here to listen to people if there interested and can offer advice on a wide range of issues.

If you like, you can email me at Tomialatalo@inbox.com I just want to say, that i’ve been there, and know just how far that deep, dark rabbit hole really goes! I have gone through a lot of bullshit in my life, but GOD has always been there helping me out of that rabbit hole! Just saying. Im kind of a “life consultant” if you will. I cant perform miracles, but i […]

8/21/2015 3 comments

if anyone wants to talk

by lonelyguy91 8/20/2015

written by lonelyguy91

So im still doing these personality/life readings. this is for anyone who is questioning a lot of things. doubting. I’ve been there and now see things a different way 🙂
I can tell most people are planning out how to commit. try this out before planning, which I hope you guys don’t succeed. know there are people who actually care, even though it may not seem like it.hope this helps you all.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtwarItfsWE

8/20/2015 11 comments

Just in case

by Sui_RC 8/19/2015

written by Sui_RC

If any one wants to talk like one on one.cus they arent comfy on a public forum.
I created this id for this site only, ie, you guys,
This sites given me pretty good advice, so i guess this is me returning the favour

So the id is

sui_rc@yahoo.com

8/19/2015 0 comment

Felling hopeless

by todaymaybe 8/16/2015

written by todaymaybe

Darkness, my friend

Breathless, and tired has become a regular feeling, the darkness taking over the light within. Shadows of my past, the skeletons in my closet and the words that left scars, over flow, leaving me grasping for help. Unable to move, to face the day, I lay there in quiet, letting the shadow take all my goodness and innocence and leave me empty and hollow. Rushing through my days in a haze, forcing a smile onto my exhausted face so that no one can see that I’m falling. Smiling, laughing and hiding, leaves me feeling weak and small, I am just gliding through life […]

8/16/2015 2 comments

Read this…

by kinda anonymous 8/16/2015

written by kinda anonymous

SOCIETY: are you under 100lbs?

GIRL: no, but im happy.

SOCIETY: is your hair down to your ass?

GIRL: no, but im happy

SOCIETY: do you have huge boobs?

GIRL: no, but

SOCIETY: do you have a flawless smile?

GIRL: No.

SOCIETY: Do you realize how ugly you are?

SOCIETY: Do you realize that no one wants you?

SOCIETY: Did you realize your stupid?

SOCIETY: Where did you go?

SOCIETY: have you commited suicide?

SOCIETY: Omg, no, she was so beautiful, and special, and loved, she will be missed so much society is so ugly, why did she have to go?

8/16/2015 7 comments

Is 25 over the hill? Who else wants to die young?

by goodboy 8/15/2015

written by goodboy

The age before life starts to get worse, you leave your prime and descent begins. Cavemans only lived to their 30’s, this was the most natural and primitive human lifestyle back when every human was robust and healthy, nobody had suicidal thoughts or modern problems. In contrast, really weak but advanced people like Romantic poets (john keats) died in their 20’s-30’s. The only time people lived to 60+ was when they were healthy but lived in farms or villages. Only recently EVERYONE even unhealthy/mentally ill/pessimistic people can expect to live to 80’s-90’s and It’s because of the medicines we discovered. Life today is more artificial, […]

8/15/2015 8 comments

How do you let go of everyone that loves you?

by goodboy 8/14/2015

written by goodboy

I think if I didn’t have a mom and dad It would definitely be a lot easier to die. It must be a much harder choice for people who others rely on, how can you go through with it if you have kids? I’m lucky nobody relies on me, I’m only thinking how bad the effect will be on my parents who love me but don’t rely on me and actually want me to go live on my own now. How do I minimize the suffering death can cause? I’ve tried once before but I began thinking of my mom as an old lady with […]

8/14/2015 5 comments

how?

by kinda anonymous 8/14/2015

written by kinda anonymous

When I’m alone I feel sad, alone but when people come around its like a part of me wants to be happy then another part doesn’t…

8/14/2015 0 comment

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