I just burnt myself for the first time, and i don’t see what all the hype is about. I have heard from so many people that after cutting becomes too easy and doesn’t give enough thrill, burning helps to fill that void.
It’s a waste of time, it didn’t hurt all that much and looks like shit.
All i want to do now is slice my flesh open to see all my blood.
One fail after another.
….have you ever come to the realization that the only person who was wrong about the person u loved most in ur life…was u?
or have you ever realized that the only person in your life is the person who disappointed you the most…. Â (you)
being alive is THE most horrible waste of time.
i dont know what im still doing here.
please do not try to judge me, but thinking about it now, i don’t think a human being should even need friends.
i’m not saying they r a waste of time, but they aren’t “requiered” to live. Any man can live and be sane without having to interact with many other humans. actually, people need friends to one, know how to interact, two, keep up with news, or three, know what to be sane it.
but being sane isn’t of one quallity, besides the quality of being sane. sane can mean go along with killing millions of people who go by that religion and be normal. or sane could […]
I estimate this fight has been going on for a grueling decade now. As a juvenile I made an attempt. It’s been my only attempt. However, the thoughts never subsided. I learned in this last year that they can get worse. But I still try to carry on. Act as though they don’t exist. These thoughts are very much real I’m sad to say.
Ive tried seeking help. I started by informing my family. As they did when I was a juvenile, it was brushed off. I’ve learned to not tell them much about my life. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t abused as child. I […]
Losing a great friendship for after so many years
is like you never have met them.
Strangers at the beginning with no history.
Friendship in the middle
Thought friendship was supposed to last forever
A great friendship at least.
Thought it was supposed to be
So many history together
So many memories
Just became forgotten.
So much doubts
So much distance
But it was worth it.
Now Strangers at the end
There’s no tomorrow
Only cuz there was yesterday
Change is difficult.
And at the end,
Strangers once again.
Once you told them you loved them
It just goes downhill
No hope
No light
No faith
No trust
No anything
Just nothing
But dead memories
Its true
People change
Even if they don’t want too
People will eventually change
And all you have too do is..
is move on.
Accept […]
So, I’m sitting here waiting (it seems I do an awful lot of waiting these days) for a ride so that I can hopefully get to my so -called “parenting class”. Have you ever been to one of these classes? They’re a total waste of time, and just another way for the state to keep your kids longer. I mean, really, who the hell needs someone to tell them how to take out the trash every day or remind them that babies can’t be brats? Are we really not evolved enough yet to understand that children are generally unable to be mean until the age […]
To all of you out there who have problems with society, religion, government etc. I can tell you that there’s a good chance that your anger and/or frustration is justified. I have answers. You may not want to hear them. I am not a therapist, counselor, psychiatrist etc. I am a philosopher, an author, a teacher and a student. I am not here to preach, judge, defend, or honor. I am here to provide concepts and theories that I have gathered from decades of research and self-identity.
I want to make something very clear. To those of you reading this, I am not condoning violence on […]
I just posted a book in a reply to a post I read on here. This site isn’t what I was looking for however I am grateful to have found it. This topic of conversation isn’t exactly what you feel comfortable or welcome to discuss openly with anyone. I don’t advocate suicide for anyone, it’s horrible in fact and when I think about the impact it has on the people who care about you it does feel selfish. I can only speak about my own situation. Today is a very dark, lonely day and I have never felt more isolated or alone in my life. […]
“My name is unimportant. I am neither male, nor female. My age has no relevance to my grief.
Consider me a faceless representation of depression. An anonymous death seeker. A hopeless nobody.”
I’ve spent my life doing everything for everyone. I worked my ass off for ungrateful bosses. I threw my social life away to finish worthless years of schooling. I pushed away possible love interests to better the odds of my friends. My entire life has been a waste of time. A waste of space on this decaying, dying world. There is no hope for mankind, and just the same, there is […]
May 5 2012 Day 1
Today I had an idea. It is a good idea I think. From this day I will stay sober! There is this really disgusting habit(addiction) I have and I do believe it influenced my life in a way I never imagined. I know I can’t get the girl I love, even if I stay sober now for ever, but I can help myself a lot. I hope my emotional roller coaster will stop. It is not a serious problem, nothing life threating, but my addiction is bad for me. Very bad. I am feeling so sick every time after I lived […]
The birds must think we’re all a bunch of idiots. We have this wonderful little planet all to ourselves, and we’ve divided it into little sections. We build walls and fences, and we draw lines in the sand. We build little cages around ourselves. We use all of our energy trying to keep Them out, and trying to keep Us in. It’s a waste of time. We waste much of our time trying to make temporal things eternal. We try to fight our own mortality by constructing things that we hope will last forever. But after we die, our creations turn to dust. Birds know […]
well, it’s cause I have nowhere else to go; nothing else I want to do besides wallow in misery.
Or misanthropy. Misanthropy in me is more real than I ever thought. I could have sworn that I started having delusions and psychological disorders of my own accord, because I was bored and needed something to think about. I really do dislike people though. Not because I think they’re evil or destroying the world or anything, they’re just not my cup of tea.
People live through their mouths, always talking, always consuming; don’t they get tired? I’ve been tired going on 4 years now.
Or 3 years. […]
What happened to us? What happened to the world? Why is this site filled with  so many of us technically healthy people trying to destroy ourselves?
But do we blame the world? Or do we blame ourselves? Am I depressed thanks to unbalanced serotonin? Am I suicidal because depression’s genetic and mine is confusing? Do we blame science? Do we blame society? Do we blame each other? Is it the fault 0f previous generations? Did our parents feel this way? Is it normal for a teenager to feel tired of living?
So many questions surround this topic, and it seems to me that the core question of […]
Iknow that this might sound cheesy, but it can hurt more th an you think…teenage heartbreaK.
I know the topic is weird to think that somebody would attempt suicide over it, but it happens to me a lot.
The first time my heart broke was when I asked out a guy who me and my friend I guess really liked but yet she still encouraged me to ask him out. So after school I walked up to him and asked him out he said no. Now you’re probably thinking m well can’t you find somebody else the answer is no. I can’t just get over […]
High school is stupid! Grades are stupid! Being a teenager is stupid! I hate everything about it! I wish we could just skip this chunk of our lives. It’s a great waste of time.
All you do is stress about high school just to stress about college and for what?! To show that you payed more money for a stupid piece of paper thy says the word “diploma”!
I hate being a teenager! I wouldn’t want to live this part of my life even if people paid me!
All I do is stress about school. Whether or not I’ll make grades. Or get accepted to […]
So, i found this site and thought: Why not share some of my thoughts here? First i must say, that my english isn’t too good, so boring, repetitive and easy sentences will be written here. Now let’s begin.
First some information about me: I am completely healthy, i have good grades even though i don’t study for it and i don’t have financial problems. However i probably have a Schizoid personality disorder. At least i fit exactly to all descriptions you can find about it. Also i am very bad at sports, only moving a bit exhausts me, i can’t walk for a long time […]
Recently I met a girl at College and we got on really well. A couple weeks passed and I felt like we were getting closer. She moaned about her ex a lot but I thought that was quite normal for girls to do that? She’s the first girl I’ve really spoken to for about 3 years and certainly the first I’ve had feelings for for a very long time. I actually felt alive again. We speak a lot outside of college and text a lot as well. I planned on asking her to do something socially tomorrow at college. It was a weird feeling…. Kind […]
In 7th grade I had the bestest friend you could ask for, but then, she became a band geek and she just drifted away. Then in 8th grade i made a pretty damn good best friend. But then high school came and my bestfriend went to some other school, and everyone just changed. I started to look at everyone diffrently, and all I saw were inconsiderate assholes. Then I noticed the shit my mom was going through: woke up at 5am, worked ’til 10pm every day, no days off. I feel so useless because I can’t do anything to help her. And she works her ass […]
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