I don’t know what I am. I feel like saying I’m depressed will be an insult to those who have it worse. I don’t know what I want from life, I just know that this isn’t it. Sometimes I try to pinpoint the exact moment in my life that I became like this, then I realise I was always this thing. This thing that doesn’t deserve to live. I know sometimes the best people we know think of themselves as absolute trash, but believe me I’m a terrible human being. I’m toxic. I keep hurting the people around me, especially my mother. I find myself getting […]
I have a lot of things that run through my mind. Things I can not explain. My dreams haunt me. My goals are just false hopes. My life is a mess. I hate my life even though, I know others have it worse. This makes me feel guilty. The guilt I have always lived with. The hate as well. I find no point in life. I want to die. I say I’m not scared but I’m scared shitless. I don’t want to go but I do. I’m scared cause after death there is nothing. […]
Be that person to save someone on here…be their inspiration to open up their eyes and let them see that their life is worth living for. Don’t just encourage them to end their life or even wish them go luck to end their life, or give them any plans. Be their voice..
I’m so exhausted and lonely. I am so alone. I just want to cut open my wrists. All I do is have pain. Fb’s come and go. No family. I guess god wants me to come home? i don’t know. all i see is a bad future. where i live is such hell. a woman actually posted a “go away” sign on her door. i can hear the new neighbor laughing thru the walls. wish she would shut up, wish i wasnt crying. i dont know how to keep doing this. tried to call a friend, she’s always busy. this is not a life. so […]
Bring me a poison;
I would like to swallow
The choked feeling
In my throat
Bring me a noose;
I am tired of standing up
It will help to keep me upright
Even when I finally stop fighting
Bring me a blade;
I want to bleed out
All the pain and suffering
That resided in my being
Bring me sleeping pills;
To grant my greatest wish,
My greatest desire
To never wake up to another day
Bring me a gun;
Easy and swift,
I will put it against my head
May it blast my painful memories away
Bring me a disease;
May it slowly kill me.
Slowly, like walking in […]
. i just wish i could connect with someone. i dont know if i have much time left with my internet. Also, im not sure if i have much of my particular life left. I wish i could say something meaningful right now, something that i can give to the world, before i pass away either from heartache, or from some other reason.
I dont really know what im doing here or how i really found this place, all i know really know is that i am alone. I dont have any family or friends to talk to or suport me, an i wish i did.
I cant shake these feelings much longer. This life has not been kind and im ready to leave this forsaken place. Mid september hints the user name.
Well ive finally built up the courage to end it, there zero chance things get better . its like i try to talk to about my problem and ppl including my own mom just toss aside how i feel my depression , everything like is nothing. I just feel alone, im playing to lose.if i feel angry or sad my own family looks at me like i have no right to feel that way . funny thing is me and my mom got in an arguement just now and she wished me death at least she thinks so too . well someones wish is going […]
What are some of your biggest regrets, that you know wish would have done, or shouldn’t have done?
Let’s say you’ve just been diagnosed with a terminal illness and the doctors all agree you will be dead in less than a week. You only have 4 and a half days of physical and mental abilities before your brain is gone, you can’t walk or speak and two days after that you will be dead.
The Make a Wish foundation has caught wind of your story and they want to give you one last wish. You only have 4 and a half days to live it up. You must make every second count..
What do you wish for?
Felling much better. happier. healthier. have my ups and down, but its all good. Came out to 3 of my friends so that was exciting and fun. love there reactions.<3 now to come out to rest of my friend. wish me luck
that everyone will wish you hadnt
and you can never regret
Here i am back in a psych unit… I saw my therapist on Tuesday and i was too honest with her. So now i get to spend a week in here! I really hope it’s only a week because I’ve got to finish off my last preparations before June 11th. wish me luck people
Feel so empty each day i get more lost in my thoughts , thinking “why me” i tried my best to think it would get better but i was just lying to myself. I realized that my life will consist of depression , loneliness and hiding this emotions that are making wish of painless suicide. I dont have anybody to tell me that i matter or hear my feelings. Wish i could dream and escape my reality . it is the only way i can cope until i get the courage to kill myself.
I am going to try to end this in less than 10 hours
need to find a specific chemical
and also I need to inject it, IV
two hard works
I don’t know how to inject IV, I’ve read some internet guide but I don’t know how useful it would be
wish me luck guys
I woke up in a better mood than usual today, and I can’t tell if that’s good or not. Like the calm before the storm of something like that. I hope it’s not. I want it to just be over.
Anyway, I just wanted to post that it was a good day and I finally started my short story. It turned out to be easier than I thought once I got the ball rolling. It still isn’t really a coherent story just yet, more like a bunch of scenes that I finally typed up. But I’m working on it. Wish me luck.
i wish everybody on here and everybody in the world felt nothing but happiness at all times I wish there was no such thing as mean people I feel like if you really think about it most people’s sadness has to do with other people’s actions I just need for this world to be a good place I need to not raise my kids when I’m older to live in a place so depressing and fucked up I just need happiness and I need to be better at wording my thoughts because I sound like a little girl on here who isn’t making any sense
A tribute…
sometimes i wish i was on the NOSTROMO (spaceship from “Alien”)
It’s like my mind is clogged with overwhelming thoughts and feelings. It’s never small things either, it’s like my mind is trained to force questions upon myself like “Why am I alive” and “What’s really the point to all of this”. I feel so alone, I have few friends and none of them understand what it’s like to wake up and wish you were dead. (I’m pretty sure that’s a song lyric)
I never talk to anyone other my psychologist about how I feel, I’ve tried before and I just get judged and put down. People think I’m an attention whore if my sleeve slips up […]
i hate that im in this life, that i suffer so much yet am still forced to pretend like im ok.. I AM NOT OK!!!
i wish i could scream this to the world and finally rid myself of this charade