Tag:

Wonderful Person

Maybe I can help someone, for once…

by onlydyinginside 5/28/2013

written by onlydyinginside

I am drowning in my depression.

I am unable to reach out to anyone, because I have no one to reach out to. I have lost what friends I had because I was “a bummer to be around.” I did what I could do mask my feelings, but I can’t, not anymore.

I am writing this not looking for sympathy, but to simply tell my story, and maybe, for once, I can be of some worth.

I was raised with one simple phrase beaten into my head, I am worthless. Whether I am or not, does not matter when that is the only thing you feel: worthless. I […]

5/28/2013 3 comments

If Prom Were A Movie

by cooleo99catsmart 5/8/2013

written by cooleo99catsmart

See- prom is coming up. Every year I go to prom with my friends and I have a great time. I don’t think this year will be fun. I’ve got a stressed head thinking about my final grades, college programming, summer job possibilities, dealing with family (cancer patients, old with broken bones, trying to live my life for me), and the person I love and whether or not we are going to get back together. If this were a movie, then I would exit prom drunk and happy with my friends and when he tried to take me back, I would either throw up on […]

5/8/2013 2 comments

Stranger of Cancer

by Miss.Mayhem 1/20/2013

written by Miss.Mayhem

You know what would be wonderful? If I got Cancer and died. See I wouldÂ rejectÂ ChemotherapyÂ and then I’d die sooner or latter. Then everyone would talk about me after I died like I was such a wonderful person.

“She fought so hard”

“There was always a smile on her face”

“She could always make me laugh!”

Maybe my dad wouldÂ finallyÂ show his face at my funeral…first time in almost 10 years…Or maybe my mom wouldn’t even tell him about it…My teachers would probably come. I was a very loved student. IÂ hardlyÂ ever did my homework and I was failing most of my classes but they’d come…I’m sure of it. My reading teacher […]

1/20/2013 0 comment

complicated feels man..

by b1urr 1/17/2013

written by b1urr

i’m the type of person who hesitates to kill myself because i still have faith that maybe something good can happen. so i make a little agreement with myself; if nothing happens, if i’m not ever happy, within 2-3 months, i will die. every time i’ve done this i’ve met a wonderful person who seemed to be capable of being a good enough friend to make me decide to live an extra 3 or so months.

now that i’m with my girlfriend, this something goodÂ will nearly always be present which means i’m “safe” for a bit (or forever if she stays with me that long). but […]

1/17/2013 6 comments

Things can’t get worse

by toming 11/6/2012

written by toming

Sometimes I like to think that things can’t get worse, but then they always do. College is a miserable experience… I have no friends that can hold me together. My family is unsupportive of me ever since I decided not to be religious. I’m not even sure whether or not I’m going to be fired from my job. My car is now not running for the second time this month. And worst of all, my fiancÃ© left me 5 months ago. I was sure this was the lowest point I could get to. And then tonight, the only friend that I had left to really […]

11/6/2012 0 comment

living for them

by theraven 7/11/2012

written by theraven

Sometimes I wish I was normal but that’s never going to happen. Life is supposed to get better but I doubt that. All I feel is numbness and it’s better than the pain I felt before. The only thing stopping me from going through with suicide is my best friends wouldn’t be able to handle my death well. My mom stopped caring about me a long time ago but my dad would go crazy without me with him. I refuse to live for myself, I only live for them, although I donâ€™t care about myself, I care too much about others to put them through […]

7/11/2012 0 comment

Time To Move On

by iamnotkristen 4/4/2012

written by iamnotkristen

It is my intention to leave this life.

To start, I would say that I am not in that space where suicide helplines call “pain is greater than capability to bear.” I am not doing this on the spur of a moment’s depression or of a single terrible setback. No, none of these apply to me.

Let me share my story.

(1)

I was physically abused as a child. My father had rules that were only known to him. His mercurial moods did not help. From as young as pre-school (I do not remember exactly when they started), he would beat me, with his hands, with sticks, with canes. […]

4/4/2012 4 comments

James…. you silly… you left me without a goodbye.

by loreildarksky 3/12/2012

written by loreildarksky

You left me, James. Not even a text or a message to say you were ending it. I know I wasn’t the best friend I could have been… should have been… But I wish you’d at least tried. I would have tried to help, even though I was so far away. Maybe I could have talked you out of it for a little while… maybe it would have been long enough for you to realize that maybe suicide wasn’t the thing for you. You could have had so much.

I feel so selfish, sitting here and thinking as I write this, that maybe all the […]

3/12/2012 7 comments

Just trying to be here

by Kieylee102 6/24/2009

written by Kieylee102

I’m trying to be here and be happy but I just don’t know how long I can keep up this lie. I look at the person that really cares about me and feel so bad about lying to them. I’ve lied about a lot and I don’t want to keep lying but I feel that if I tell her what I really have going on in my head I think it would scare her so much she’d be afraid of me. Then just yesterday I did something stupid but she doesn’t know. The other day she asked me if I have been thinking about cutting […]

6/24/2009 4 comments