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by Adderallslits 7/29/2014

written by Adderallslits

So I haven’t slept anything tonight either. It seems it has become somewhat an habit of mine, not sleeping that is. My brain’s a gooey mess, and I find myself at the edge of sanity yet again.

I don’t know what’s worse, living in this blurry world of mine in a zombie like state, wasting time, almost not existing… Feeling this emptyness… It’s funny… No Mather how shit everything feels, if you take away one of the human essentials it actually gets worse. I just miss seeing things clearly, ya know? Sleeplessness is fogging up my fucked up mind and I feel so powerless.

but as I […]

7/29/2014 9 comments

soul bearing isn’t my thing

by I-dont-love-right 7/28/2014

written by I-dont-love-right

All I want is to be okay. All I get is worse. I just want help but I’m too prideful to ask. And when I did. I got yelled at for not even talking to my mom about my problems. But that would end bad, since she’s one of them and God knows I’ll never trust someone who almost drug me to my grave.

Suicide is an option I can’t have. For though I would love it; the escape. I wouldn’t be able to leave him…Its cliche I suppose but he’s my foundation, without him I would truly collapse.

Lately I’ve just gotten worse and I can’t […]

7/28/2014 1 comment

Thanks

by BreakMeFree 7/26/2014

written by BreakMeFree

Dear mother,

I really really don’t like you. But I’m trying hard not to say “I hate you.” But thank you so much for making my life a living hell sometimes. Thank you so much for making me go into actual depression. Thank you so much for controlling my life. Thank you so much for threatening to punish me for the things I don’t do, instead of thanking me for the stuff that I actually do for you. And the list can continue. But instead of continuing, I’m just going to say you’re welcome for leaving you in the dark about all of this because there is no doubt that you are actually happier this way. […]

7/26/2014 2 comments

Fucking Parents.

by VampireKid 7/23/2014

written by VampireKid

It’s bad when you feel like a fat ass and a failure. But what’s even worse, is when your own parents always tell you that you’re fat and you need to do an hour on treadmill or something before you eat. And when my mom starts giving me weight lo

Last time I heard, parents were meant to be kind and supportive to you. Not whores who want you to be a stick. It doesn’t really help that my sister is really skinny. It’s only because she’s lactose intolerant and allergic to just about everything!

It’s not just that though. I already hate my body, appearance, and so […]

7/23/2014 2 comments

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by Kailee3 7/22/2014

written by Kailee3

You know how odd it is, whenever i cry over you .. you text me? Like is this some sick joke? All i want is to hate you but seems to me that will be impossible. I’m so unhappy with life and you just make it worse.. Well today i told Rj i’m tired of being there for everyone else but no one is there for me and i listen to EVERYONE, but yet i have no one? All he said was ‘You need to let people in…’ How can i let people in when my best-friend’s cat scratched her one day and she was […]

7/22/2014 0 comment

Fate worse than life

by I.cant.breathe! 7/21/2014

written by I.cant.breathe!

I got dragged down
By the current.
I know how to swim
But why fight it.
Faces and places
Come to haunt me
Along with things I’ve done
Im going to hell.
A fate worse than life?
There is none.
How do you breathe
When the air is your poison.
I fight hard for purpose
But I do not have one.
My legs fail me
Because there is nowhere to run
When your demons trail behind you.
I cant breathe
Im choked by my sins.
a fate worse than life?
There is none.

7/21/2014 1 comment

I want to die because I’m lost

by depressed girl 7/18/2014

written by depressed girl

Everything just seems to be going wrong. I don’t know who I am and am not even really sure who I want to be. I guess you could just say that’s my age I’m 19 going on 20. So that’s reasonable. I feel down. I feel like no one understands me . I feel like am becoming distant from those I love. I can’t enjoy life. It sucks right know. It really has since I turned 12 and just got progressively worse. I feel better about myself personally as time has gone on. Its just I feel inexperienced and less mature in the ways of […]

7/18/2014 2 comments

Why am I not happy?

by Fadeto_black 7/18/2014

written by Fadeto_black

I don’t understand myself. I am truly privileged; I have a family that puts me in their best interests, friends who care about me, I’m not poor, not sick, I live an average middle class life and I have no hope for it.

A future that would satisfy me is not realistic. In order to anticipate the future I would have to be a different person and be extremely lucky. I dread the future and feel haunted by the past. A friend told me to focus on the present but I struggle to find pure happiness in my present life.

I know what should make me happy […]

7/18/2014 5 comments

Euphoric To Melancholy… Uselessness

by SuicidalProcess 7/15/2014

written by SuicidalProcess

I feel utterly useless. In my daily life to even on SP. When ever I finally think I can do something, I try my best at it. I work as hard as possible, thinking “This might be the day where I can finally do something right for once!” I brim with the confidence that only appears every other blue moon (If I’m lucky). Only to be destroyed. I end up worse than I was before, getting closer and closer to my limit everytime. I don’t know how much longer I can last. My fuck-ups are only a single percent of my problems, but it hits me […]

7/15/2014 5 comments

help?

by martijn 7/15/2014

written by martijn

Hello, my name is Martijn. I’m a 15 year old boy. I’ve had a depression before when I was about 12. It lasted about a year. Ive been in therapy and been taking medication since then. The following 3 years of my life have been great. But half a year ago, I started fealing anxious again. strange, violent toughts towards me and the people around me popped op in my head. I often felt empty, as in a dream but i couldn’t ‘wake up’. It felt like I didn’t use my medication anymore, wich I have to control my anxiety. Since then, I started feeling […]

7/15/2014 4 comments

Bad antidepressants

by genesis0987 7/15/2014

written by genesis0987

(I realise that all of them are bad in one way or another) but I want to know specific ones I should definitely avoid. I’m going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow and the nurse told me that because of my assessment results I will most likely be prescribed antidepressants, so I want to come in prepared. I would be very thankful if any of you could advice me on this; I don’t want to get side-effects that will make me feel worse than I already do.

7/15/2014 3 comments

I am a bad person …. I Screwed Me…..

by manroh 7/14/2014

written by manroh

I am a gambling addict, I have borrowed money, stolen from my parents, even embezzled from my work to fund my addiction.

I am 32 and a father of two young boys aged 3 & 9, I practically have no relationship with my wife, I guess we are still together only because of the kids…

The current situation is that all the chickens are going to come home to roost. My lenders are lining up outside my door every morning, I don’t think I can hide my embezzlement at work for too long.

I have three options,

1. Stick a gun up my mouth,

2. Run away start a new […]

7/14/2014 6 comments

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by booisux 7/13/2014

written by booisux

I’m gunna be straight forward and say I’ve never attempted suicide. I’ve thought about it many times, but never tried. The main reason I haven’t is because I’m scared. Everything in my life has been determined through safety. I’m scared of almost everything. I scared to let people in, to talk to people, to do something wrong, to look stupid, or to let people down (just to name a few). My parents constantly fight and I go most days without having a real conversation with anyone. My friends and family all have this expectation of how they feel I should be. Which is smiling, happy, quiet, […]

7/13/2014 11 comments

Clock is ticking

by mills 7/13/2014

written by mills

I’ve always wanted to kill myself, ever since I was like 14. I never really got to try till I was 18. I was never happy with myself. I always failed at everything and I was sick of it. I’m tired of being treated like nothing, feeling worthless, feeling like I do not matter. My ex girlfriend made me feel so much better about myself till she cheated on me in the worst way possible and only made everything worse. I found myself back where I was. Surrounded by 4 walls, looking for anything to hurt myself with but pills wont work anymore. I don’t […]

7/13/2014 5 comments

Against Depression.

by thinflowers 7/13/2014

written by thinflowers

I don’t know how to feel about myself right now. I have been doing so many wrong things, just so I don’t feel bad. Just so at the end I feel worse. Too many parties, to many guys… Not so much shots. I feel so lost.

7/13/2014 2 comments

Help Me Break Up My Parents

by EndOfTheLinee 7/9/2014

written by EndOfTheLinee

So I don’t want to go into too much details. However, I live with my dad and step mom. For the past 3 years I have been sick due to spinal issues along my back all the way up to my brain stem. Basically my entire spine has loosened, and the discs/vertebrae shift.

I have tons of back pain and neurological symptoms. There is a bone in my neck that shifts and pushes on nerves near the brain stem, causing reduced blood flow to the brain. This causes my body to tremble, as well as short term memory loss, inability to think, fluster of emotions, pain, […]

7/9/2014 4 comments

Title? What am I writing a novel?

by shadowman 7/8/2014

written by shadowman

I want to leave this world but I am afraid of what might be next, it could be worse. I mean I am a believer but I don’t understand a lot about it, like why is the punishment so severe? I mean no matter what you’re guilty of, an eternal punishment on any level doesn’t seem right, I mean time here is so finite, and any thing you did wrong should in enough time be cleared but eternal damnation?, and for many all they did was get depressed and off themselves, I mean shouldn’t there be some sort of limit to the punishment? Suppose I […]

7/8/2014 5 comments

Why?

by NeverEnoughAnyways 7/8/2014

written by NeverEnoughAnyways

You spend your whole life trying to please people, but in the end the person you need to be pleasing is yourself. With me its different I try to make people happy and I try to please everyone and I know I cant please everyone but I try. My whole life I have felt like I am not worth it I have been told by people that I was just a mistake and that I am not worth it and that I should just go die. Well guess what they got into my head all the time I stayed strong for my family and I […]

7/8/2014 3 comments

Vent Vent Vent

by HumanTrash 7/8/2014

written by HumanTrash

I was in a chatroom on social media

and i saw those words

‘i feel like dying’

shit

thats not what the website is for

so i tell them

‘call the suicide hotline’

they disregard me

a person message

‘stoop her’

stoop her?

im so confused now

‘stop her,shes my girlfriend’

shit
what am i supposed to do now?

so i set up a little personal package

dont die

suicidal numbers

truths

sigh

send

there

i fixed everything,right?

10 minutes
30
nothing

Wait–

Something!

‘Has she responded yet’

And now im going back

To that one place

That one place where i

pull my hair

and cant breathe

and feel like letting it all out

literally

just opening my mouth and letting my organs flow

a shake and heave

and start my same habit in a different place

and think about […]

7/8/2014 2 comments

Help? Please?

by JiminyCrispies 7/7/2014

written by JiminyCrispies

Sorry this is somewhat long-ish, but I really need help with this?

So, I was going to make an appointment with my doctor sometime this month because I actually want to find out what exactly is wrong with me. Whether I need to been diagnosed with anything else. If I actually have something serious with me. The whole shebang. Because my mood is up and down constantly throughout the day, and no it’s not “just being a teenager”.

I mean, today in my Geography I was in tears walking to the room, and refused to speak to anyone for fifteen minutes. (I’d already had a breakdown in the […]

7/7/2014 4 comments

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