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So many Fucking thoughts about stupid fucking bull shit that I shouldn’t even give a fuck about but I do because that’s me and I’m a fucking idiot and I do whatever the fuck my mind tells me because I don’t know how to fucking tell it no… NO!!NO!!NO!!
Why does nothing ever fucking work out?!?! Why is everyone so fucked over in life?! Why do the ass holes and dick fucks get away with everything and the nice people get stuck with the shitty end of the fucking stick!!!! Omg!!!! Fucking shoot me I’m so tired of my mind running 10 million miles a fucking minute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Touché! Not only do I not know how to tell my mind NO I don’t know how to tell people NO! So I’m just every ones damn doormat! Those Im led to believe love me treat me the worst! & ALWAYS gets away with it!
Amen!! Amen!! Like everywhere you go you’re afraid to even say anything to anyone because if the fear of being judged and the fear of having a “friend” for god knows how fucking long and then them stomp all over you like you’re fucking trash on the ground!! I’m tired of being pushed aside like I’m some fucking dirty ass laundry on the floor!!! I’m tired of the word “love” WHAT THE FUCK.. I’m pretty sure everyone who had EVER “loved” me either fakes it and gets a thrill out of fucking taking advantage of me and beating me into the ground until I can’t take anymore or they just eventually up and fucking leave… Whatever…. I’m fucking done!! I don’t even know how to write down this bull shit that goes through mind anymore….
I looked and wished for a like button!! I know exactly what you mean and what you feel. Well maybe not exactly but pretty damn close!! The guy that supposedly loves me & has trapped & tricked me in to being stuck with him just woke up & said “you can’t do anything fucking right!” HONESTLY?!? wtf! I don’t even know where that came from! I didn’t even do anything! My mother (who is supposed to love you always) abandoned me when I was 8. Love is a fucking illusion that is used by the heartless to fool the foolish into doing what they (heartless) want! I fucking hate my life, this guy that I call a boyfriend (he’s a tool), I hate every thing there is about this world except my son. Unfortunately I’ve stayed here for just him for 8 yrs now! My will to keep going is rapidly running out!
Ugh the love is an illusion part <3 sounds just like something I would say and I could say more however I know a few ppl here would probably be over judgmental and put in their opinion somewhere where it really isn't fucking needed seeing as to how none of us really know one another and their full story
Love is a terrible illusion. People lie about it. I doubt may anyone that has ever told me that meant it.
I agree deathy! I have a hard time believing anyone ever meant it!
Maybe….somewhere. I miss, at the very least, being held. That may make me a sucker, but I don’t care.
I am sorry. More two cents than was necessary for anyone. Cheers, friend.
Lol I agree! I miss being held, cuddled & kissed on the cheek or forehead! Now I lay next to a cold hearted ass hat.
Someone suggested craigslist for a cuddle buddy earlier.. Lol I’m considering it
That might not be a bad idea…
Haha I did it! Just went to craigslist & searched for the word cuddle! I was surprised at how many people are looking for just cuddle buddies! I am in the middle of the U.S. “Suicide belt” so that may explain it!
Haha. That’s a new one. Thought it would be a ton of bollocks. No where near the middle US, but I am assuming it’s indicative of a more wide spread phenomenon.
Hey guys. CL is cool and all, but a few things: you’ll find a lot of spammers after your credit card info. You will get catfished. You will think you’ve found someone, then your feelings will be hurt when they stop corresponding because they found someone they like better. And last, women have no problem meeting men in public, there’s a reason why they’re looking online. So uh, good luck, and wear a raincoat if it’s gonna get wet.
Please be careful when meeting people online. Try to meet in a public place. Travel to the place yourself, in your own car, bus, taxi, etc.
You are controlled by your thoughts because you are weak.
I think you messaged me KFeeney not sure though but I responded
I’ve just started on Zopiclone and although it works the problem is that it only has a 6 hour half life so I’ve been waking up after 6 hrs. because of all the drugs I’ve taken over the years sleep means something different to me than everyone else. I never get tired and fall asleep like a normal human. I’m incapable and even if I did get sleep it just feels as if I haven’t anyway. But rather that actually take the time to find out the real problem because you don’t fit in to the doctor’s limited knowledge then you’re finished. Then when you ask them for more Z-pills they say ‘oh lets talk about whether your childhood, are you feeling stressed at work…’ am I’m thinking you fucking stupid bastard for the millionth time I don’t have a fucking personality disorder. It’s like I can’t win; what ever I say is wrong. Wrong wrong wromg.
I’ve told someone I’ve loved them and ment it with every fibre of my being. It’s just that Love is not reliable. This should be known by both people.
Kochia- I’m not talking about sex or any of that! I’m simply talking about a pure innocent hug! Walk up to someone and be like “it’s nice to see you! Hope to see you soon” *hug! That’s all lol no funny business!
Deathy- yes there’s a phenomenon where the portion of the U.S. that has the highest altitudes also has the highest suicide rates. It’s one little cluster of states!
I think love is real… i do believe some of the people who claimed to love me at one point or another…its a fickle thing tho emotional love because arent all emotions subject to quickly change…? with that said real tru love is a choice i feel. when the emotions leave you’re left with your choice…im not sure tho