I hate the fact I exist

Why does a piece of shit like me exist? I deserve everything that happened to me. People like me don’t deserve life. I don’t care for anyone except one person. I don’t care for my own family or most of my friends. I damn deserve the hits to my face because I never do anything right. I deserve to be called a whore because that is what I am. I decided to try to dance. And I deserved to be sexually assaulted at 13. I damn deserved that shit. I deserve to have the type of anyone parents I have. And parents who want to literally kill themselves. Ones who drown their self in alcohol because they can’t admit they have a problem. I deserve to be kicked out of the house. Idid king hate myself for letting myself get raped at 14. That’s what whores get. I know I’m disgusting . I let a police officer get nudes of me. And I fucking am a whore because of all the guys I played for my own damn happiness. I’m a piece of shit because I make everyone damn hate me. They all don’t talk to me anymore. And it’s fucking karma when the dude I get feels for just used me. And stole my iPod. And now I have to find a way that my parents won’t find out and beat me. I deserve to let him literally fuck me and get into my personal life. Why can’t I die? I tried twice but it won’t work. I just want you back so bad .