Okay, so I’m starting a new thread because I was hijacking someone elses with my problems and that’s not fair at all, I feel really bad about doing that. I’m sorry.
I basically wrote my story in a comment so I’ll just paste it here and explain a little more.
Such a long story.. I was so desperate last night. I still am and I don’t know what to do. I’m 20 years old, still living at home and I don’t have a job. My biological dad killed himself as did my uncle, we were very close. My mom, who has been married to another man for 17 years has been cheating on him and is now pregnant with another guy. My stepdad really needed me to be there for him because she left and she was his world, I’ve stayed up for nights listening to him talking about his feelings, I’ve comforted him when he cried and I’ve called the ambulance when the pain was too much for him to bear and he couldn’t breathe and had panic attacks. She felt bad and came back into our lives only to make it a living hell again. I have a brother who’s 14 and a sister who just turned 16. Mom is pushing me to get a job so I can pay her debt while she spends her money on new clothes for her and jewlery for her to wear while she’s out finding new guys to sleep with. My sister is allergic to flour so she gets some money each month to buy special food, but mom takes it and buys something for herself. Our bills are piling up and we have no way of paying it even though my stepdad is working, she demands he gives her the money so she can go out and do whatever. I had my heart set on moving to Ireland where my boyfriend just got a job, he left from Sweden to go there today, I applied for a job there to get away from the stress here, but I didn’t get the job. My mom just looked at me and laughed, and said “haha, did you really think you would get the job? you can’t do anything right!â€
She is so angry at everyone every single day and night, even though she did the mistakes. She let US down, she was screwing around behind OUR backs. We LET her come back, but she didn’t even apologize. I had another fight with her today, she didn’t even talk to me for 5 hours and I went to do the dishes and she said “aren’t you even going to say thank you for the food?†and I said “I was just going to do the dishes first†and then she flipped at me because I cried last night while talking to my stepdad (whom I’ve grown a lot closer to because of her bullshit) and she said “why do you even talk to me? you can talk to you stepdad, you don’t need me†and I said “so you’re not my mom anymore?†and she said “no, I wish I never had you, I hope you get a job and move out so I won’t have to look at you anymore†and then she called me a ‘baby killer’ because I got raped at 15 and had an abortion because I couldn’t stand the thought of raising a baby that was forced on me.
I need some serious help and someone to talk to asap. I don’t know what to do and I’m scared I’ll do something stupid. I’m so lost and scared. I’m scared of dying because I don’t think anyone would show up at my funeral.
Help me.
I’m doing my best and I feel as if that’s not good enough for anyone. I’m a good listener and I love helping people, my friends and family can always count on me. Even strangers can. But I feel like I’ve reached the bottom now. I have so much on my mind and being here for everyone and listening to their problems is stressing me out. I have so much to deal with and my coping resources are few. I used to cut a lot when I was younger (I know right, you’re probably thinking I’m the average emo kid who just wants attention), but I haven’t in a while now and I admit cutting was dumb. But it was comforting and I released the stress and the pain. I actually quit cutting for my boyfriend. He means the world to me and I want to be a better person for him. But lately he hasn’t had that much time for me because like I said, he got a job in Ireland and I feel like he’s so much better than me and if he knew what’s going on inside my head .. he’d be disgusted or freaked out. I feel like I’m worthless and that there’s no place for me here, but I’d feel a lot worse if he felt that way about me too. I really don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. Am I not supposed to find my way through this life? I know I’m only 20 but I need some serious help. As for my mom.. I don’t know how mothers are supposed to act, I haven’t really had a great rolemodel as far as that goes. I’m scared of having children because I don’t want to be like her. I don’t want my husband to have panic attacks all the time because I’m driving him crazy with my bullshit. My mom cheated on my biological dad so many times and it eventually drove him to kill himself. He called my house right before he did it and he wanted to talk to me, I was at a friend’s house and couldn’t talk to him and my mom didn’t even tell me he had called. He killed himself that night and I’m still wondering what it is he wanted to tell me. His twin brother killed himself the next day because losing his brother was too hard apparently. My mom wouldn’t let me go to their funerals and I hate myself for not going and it’s killing me. Maybe I should talk to someone about this in real life, but I’m not that comfortable with talking about feelings and stuff. I find it easier to write about. I don’t know what else to say other than I’ve got a hard time dealing with the pain I’m feeling and the way I’m being treated and because I don’t cut anymore I don’t know how to fix it. I keep thinking about killing myself, I’m scared of dying though, but not as scared as I am of living. It’s too hard for me. I can’t do it right. And now my stepdad called to warn me that my mom’s on her way home after talking to the cops, apparently she’s pressing charges against me .. for what, I do not know.
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Buddy,
You need to get out of your house first of all. Your mother sounds like a complete lunatic who cannot control how often she spreads her legs. Honestly, it is people like her who need to be sterilized. Good people like you and I have to pay taxes to the offspring people like your mother bring into the world because they cannot properly care for them. Get out of your house and then decide what you will do.
I don’t know how to get out.. I’m trying my hardest, but I don’t really have a place to go..
TJ: Go to a church or some youth center. They will help you get out of that nuthouse.
Then what about my siblings? I can’t really leave them here with that witch. My sister’s gotten very depressed too and she’s only 16. I feel so helpless. And I feel so sorry for my stepdad. I just want her to go away and leave us alone. Everything would be so much better without her..
and I’m so afraid of becoming like her. I’d rather die than treat anyone I love and care about like that. I’d talk to a shrink about it, but that costs a fortune and I don’t have anything right now. I was also raised to believe that asking for any kind of help is a sign of weakness and that is bad. I tried telling my best friend about it, but that didn’t do much good. All she said was “seriously? really? that sucks” and then she just says she has to go because she is busy with her boyfriend. I’m at the point where I’m giving up on everything, feels like no one really gives a damn. Jeeze, I whine a lot don’t I? I just feel better talking about it.. Keeping it in for so long kind of wears you out after a while. I don’t want to be weak. I don’t want anyone to think I’m psycho. I’m just learning that people can break you down no matter how strong you think you are. I see people around me are having a great time with their families and home is there safe spot, but it’s the complete opposite for me.. I just lock myself inside my room and try to sleep my days away most of the time. Sleeping is good.. It makes me feel better. But it doesn’t last long, you know? I wake up and I can’t stop shaking and I have a hard time breathing and I’m scared out of my mind most of the time. I never know when she will come screaming into my room and throw something at me and tell me I am a failure, which I already know because she’s been telling me that I am for the most part of my life. Is being alive supposed to hurt this much? I don’t think I’m doing it right.
TJ: Bring them all to the church then. You have to do something. Sometimes people aren’t meant to be on this earth. We’re just here because our mothers were whores. That was my situation, and I am guessing it is yours. It’s your choice if you want to do anything with your life that was forced on you.
Dear TJ:
Bear in mind, that because you’re depressed and anxious right now, you’re looking at life through “gray-colored glasses.”
But the good news about depressions is that evenutally you will recover from this depression, and feel less anxious, and life will regain its interest and some joy for you.
You are very young, at the beginning of your life. You may have a life purpose that is not yet clear to you, and suicide would prevent you from carrying out your life’s mission.
My life’s mission did not start appearing to me until my middle-thirties — if I had committed suicide in my early 20s, as I originally tried to do, I would never have found out what I was here to do.
The same thing may be true of you.
You don’t have to take the same way “out” as your dad and your uncle did.
Like you, I grew up with a mother who had periods when she was out-of-control and verbally abusive.
It is exhausting and demoralizing, like constantly having someone pour poison in your ear.
Some of us just get lousy parents, and we have to take extra-good care of ourselves because our parents can’t be there for us. But we can treat ourselves kindly and be there for us.
I agree with Jason that you need to leave the situation. I appreciate that you care about your siblings, but the best thing you can do for them is create a new life for yourself.
Then you can invite them to call you and visit you. Remember, moving out of the house does not mean cutting them off. You can stay in touch with them and your stepdad.
You can also call state child and family protective services if your mother abuses your siblings after you leave home, and apply for legal custody of them.
Please don’t believe the myth that it is weak to get help — a person who gets help is actually showing psychological strength. It is strong to share your feelings and seek help.
Right now you are exhibiting symptoms of stress, depression and anxiety — a church or youth program can help you find a counselor in a low or no-cost treatment program.
Please don’t kill yourself — you are still desperately needed by your siblings. And how would your suicide affect your boyfriend? He would have a negative memory for the rest of his life.
Give yourself some time to get away from this situation, and start planning for what type of adult life you would like. You may have much happiness awaiting you elsewhere.
If you would like a list of positive thinking and depression resources, please post an email address here, and I will gladly send them to you.
Cordially,
Struggling to Survive (been there)
Hey TJ, hope u’re not in jail.
I can see all the problems ur mom cost ur family. Like I said, “*****”. I don’t get it, why all of u still keep her around, why not just kick her out?
And she can say all those things and hit u or throw things at u, but u aren’t what she thinks of u, mother or not, and she’s unfit to be one anyway. U aren’t those things she said, and u don’t need to be dependent on her. U’re not a failure, so she tries to make u one instead to fit her sick fantasies. Don’t let her have that pleasure.
Hi TJ –
I’m talking out of experience – I used to live in a similar situation. I felt worthless and tried to kill myself. I got out of my house, moved to a different town, found a job, went to school, managed to get on my own feet, be on my own. It wasn’t easy, but it was very empowering. I also had to leave my little sister behind (she was 16). My getting away from the situation helped her understand that she didn’t have to stay and be a victim either. Many years later, she got out too.
Do get out – your mom is not going to change, your stepdad is not going to grow strong and do the right thing about her, your siblings will not be better off with you staying there.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Also don’t be afraid to talk to your boyfriend about how you feel – not only should he be able to understand it, he may be able to help you out too. If not him maybe his family, some relative, some neighbor, some teacher – look around and ask for help!!!
Get out of you house, and after you have settled down into a new situation, go see a therapist. There are state run counseling programs that are either free or have a sliding scale. Do get treatment. That’s a big mistake I made – after I got out and settled down somewhere else, I felt such big relief the last thing I wanted to do was go talk to someone about my past. I got married and had three children. My husband is the kindest soul I’ve ever met, and my children are amazing in ways I never thought human beings could be. Yet I find myself many times reenacting the chaos I was used to when growing up, and I can sometimes become really emotionally abusive of my kids and my husband. I am getting treatment now, and while I can tell this is a long and dark road, it’s very much worth walking!! And – there is light at the end of the tunnel.
And – as soon as you feel you are on your own feet again – do take the time to help out your siblings and your stepfather. and then reach out for others who may be going through the same situation you are now going through. Make a difference in their lives. That will brig a whole new meaning into yours.
I wish you good luck – my heart is with you!
i feel the same way im feelin kill myself everday 1 my friend killed him sef cause situation like tha i wanta get away here to go or im scaryed of bein homeless and wastin all tha i eva wanted please help me someone, at this point i have no 1 my mom is the most evil mom and wicked why would she want me not happy ma bad the same i wanted to jump in front of a train cause i keep feelin like im dein slowly but yea ppl like mom always fuck kid life up why would u bring me here and have be goin thru all this no i wanted have a kid cause i feel like i need have sumthin here b4 sumthin bad happen to me yea i tell him or her dont let no 1 fuck ya life up and if u want sumthin get it dont go by no 1 order……
okay talk to me, ill listen. write me at simply.vintage@yahoo.com or my aim and yahoo is simply.vintage. I want to say im sorry, you do have a hard life. please write me, please…..im here, even if i dont know you.
Wow, I’m surprised you’re able to just take all that from your mom. If I were you, and my mom was that bad, I would scream at her just the same as she screams at me. You don’t have to show her that much respect, since she basically ruined you, and your family’s life. I would suggest screaming/yelling at her back or just flipping her off.
Hello, (Sorry I typed so much, but all of it had to be said)
I’m an 18 year old college student who just so happened to stumble upon this page while doing research for an essay that I had to write. Let me start off by saying wow. I’m proud of you for being able to hang on this long, and the fact that you have should be fuel for you to want to hang on even longer. I can tell you that I’ve never really had to deal with anything nearly as traumatic as what unfortunately you have to deal with on a seemingly daily basis, but it doesn’t take a certified psychologist to sense that theirs a lot pain and hurt in your life and in the lives of the people around you. And one piece of advice I’m going to give you real quick is don’t I repeat do not take Philip’s advice, all that’s going to do is cause more hurt more pain and it will just create a vicious cycle and will make your outlook on life even more negative than it already is. Not to mention you have siblings who look up to you and you want to be the best role model that you can be right?
I think one piece of the story that is being over looked here is that your mom (who I know it’s hard/near impossible to feel sorry for at the moment) is suffering from some type of emotional wound in her life or has some void in it that she has no idea how to fill. It’s hindering her growth and ability to mature and to be the mother/spouse that she needs/needed to be. This transpires into her behaving the way she does and causes her to say those hurtful things that she probably doesn’t even realize the effect that those words can have.
Wow, I’m just rereading what you wrote and it truly breaks my heart, I almost wanna cry and I can tell you that’s not an easy thing to get me to do… Ecspecially in my essay I was researching sources to help me to prove that their is still good in this world. TJ, I wanna take time out of this letter that I’m sending to you to let you know that if you ever need someone to talk to or someone to vent to or even if you need someone to just listen or to ask for advice, I’m always willing to listen. you can email me at jeremysseaton09@yahoo.com or if you have a facebook or a myspace let me know and we can become friends on that. I’d love to give you my number so that we can talk, but I’m afraid that we live in two different countries.
I want you to know that despite what your mom has told you or anyone has told you, your are not a failure, your life has a purpose and a meaning that only you can fulfill. Don’t believe the lie that tells you that nobody gives a damn. I can name a few people who give a damn, One your siblings who are the reason that don’t want to move out of your house for, your step dad who you say your able to talk to, your friend, the one who goes, o really, that sux, your bf who I believe has a pretty good idea of who you really are and loves you for it, and everyone on here who cared enough to take time out of their day to write a comment on your post. Don’t give up, Don’t ever give up. Quitters never win, but it’s the people who have the will to go on when life deals craploads of bs after craploads of bs who are the winners.
Look, I don’t know what you believe as far as religion or anything like that goes, but I can tell you what I believe. I believe that their is a true and living God. I believe that their is a God that will stick by your side when your life has gone to hell and no one else will. I believe in a God who makes ALL things come together for your good even when it’s impossible to even see a glimpse of what good could possibly come out of a situation. Theirs a saying that goes God doesn’t give us what we can handle, God gives us what he knows we can’t handle and holds our hand through it. I can tell you tho, that if you are able to hang in there and survive this, you would definitely be the strongest person I know of. God will stand by your side if you ask him to. Please take his hand and his love that he promises you and all he ask is that you accept it. And I can’t stress enough, please, I beg of you, keep in contact with me, This story hurt too much for me to read to not want to do anything, ANYTHING to help.
BTW, I want you to know that if you were a mother, you would not be like your mom for the sheer reason that you despise her ways. You already show good motherly qualities in the way you want to look out for your siblings.
Just out of curiosity, have you ever tried having a heart to heart talk with your mom as hard as I know it may be?
P.S. idk what you like to do in your spare time for fun or what kind of music you listen to, but I’m a firm believer that what you put into your life is what comes out. If you can find a way to put positive in and somehow find a way to look at the good, you’ll get the positive and get the good out, unfortunately, the opposite is true. But here’s a song that I recently just heard that may help you when your feeling down and may even encourage you.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2naYghOqM0s and here’s one more that I think may help. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eiBsoFYIoEo
BUT PLEASE MESSAGE ME BACK, OR REPLY, I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU, AND EVEN THOUGH WE NEVER MET AND THIS SITE IS ALL I HAVE TO GO ON, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND I CARE AND I WANT TO BE A FRIEND WHO HELPS YOU THROUGH THIS HARD TIME IN YOUR LIFE! I’M HERE FOR YOU. GOD BLESS!
on more thing I meant to type in that long message, I want you to know that I’ll be keeping you in my prayers. hang in there, stay strong.
Thank you all for your comments. I have been busy trying to get out of this house, but it’s impossible it seems. Like I said, I don’t have any money or anything like that. I’ve been applying for jobs, but no one wants me to work for them. Shock right? I feel like I’m doing my best, but all I get in return is a crapload of bad luck. The only thing that keeps me going right now is my boyfriend and I terrified of dying. AND of living. Feels like I’m stuck in a limbo place. I just really want out.
And to Jeremy, thank you for your comment. You said many things that made me cry because I somehow felt you actually cared. Which is weird, because you don’t know me, right.. what really scares me though, is that my boyfriend is so successful and perfect, that when he realizes what a fuck up I am, he will leave me for someone better. I guess that’s what you get for making someone your everything, when they leave you really don’t have anything. I’d hate to see him happy with someone else, but I’d hate it even more to see him unhappy with me..
This is a text full of selfpity, I know, but I just need a place to vent and this is where I go. Just five minutes ago I found myself sitting on the floor, staring at my razor and thinking how easy it would be just to end everything right there. But like I previously mentioned, I’m scared. I’m scared of everything. I really do need help.
I could write for hours about how I’m feeling, but it would all come down to this… I’m only 20 years old and I can’t see where my place in this world is. I mean, come on, when even my own mother who gave birth to me tells me I’m a fuckup? I KNOW I need to get away from here, but I can’t. Goddamnit, I wish things wouldn’t be so difficult..
It kind of feels like I’m falling down this endless hole. Just when you think you’re about to hit the bottom, you just keep falling. I’m trying my best to hold on because that’s what everyone tells me to do, but it’s so, so hard. I’m weak really, I don’t know where this strength is coming from. It doesn’t take much for my eyes to water up and then I cry. I have this ache in my stomach that won’t go away and whenever I think about the shit I’m in, I just can’t help but cry. I’m always tired, but when the night comes and it’s time to sleep — I lay awake for hours because of all the dark thoughts in my head. I can’t make them go away..
I’ve been really excited about this job interview I was having today, and they mixed it up so they called an hour and a half later, when they had just sent me an email saying they wanted to re-schedule the interview to Monday instead. I was caught off guard, I was so prepared for the questions. I had been preparing myself for a full 8 hours…and then he asks questions I had no idea about. I just took the answers from the top of my head. It lasted for 12 minutes, but it was 12 looong minutes. When we hung up I just broke down in tears. Because I know I can do this job. I just know that I’m perfect for this job.. But I won’t get it. I’m jinxed, I swear.. it’s not something I can explain. it’s just.. wow. Bad shit always happens to me. I wish I could make it stop, because deep down I know I’m not a bad person.. I’m a good person bad stuff keeps happening to.. But it’s wearing me out. I can’t even write this without crying.
How pathetic is that?
And I’ve found that snapping a rubber band on my wrist gives the same relief as cutting, but without the scars and not as messy. Although I have bruises.. It feels better. It’s so much easier to deal with physical pain than emotional, but you all probably know that. It sounds SO pathetic, but it makes me feel.. I wouldn’t say BETTER, but.. it helps me cope.
Hi TJ,
How’s it going, sorry for not getting back to you until now. I find myself reading your writings and with each sentense I find that theirs sooo much I want to say that I don’t really know how to organize it and make sure it gets said, but I’ll do my best.
One thing I’ve noticed mostly in your writings TJ is that somehow somewhere you lost your I think I can, I think I can spirit. And that’s a terrible thing to lose. When you lose that, you’ve already accepted that you can’t. You see, so much of life is based on outlook, as the saying goes, What do you do when life throws you lemons, you make lemonade. You see, if your outlook on life is I’m a screw up, no one loves, I can’t do anything right, That’s all you’ll ever be. Another saying (Sorry for going saying heavy) Whether you think you can or think you can’t your always right. Look, I know life has thrown WAY more than its fair share of lemons at you, but it is at these times that your positive outlook needs to shine. I challenge you, every morning when you wake up to tell yourself, I am not a failure, I can be a success in this life. Start feeding your mind these positive thoughts and you Will notice a difference, I promise. I urge you tho, PLEASE don’t believe the lie that says That your no good. You are capable of doing great things and one day you will do great things, You just have to believe that that day will come. I have soo much I can say about this, cuz I’ve seen it first hand in my life, and I can promise that no matter how long the tunnel is, theirs always light at the other side of it.
Moving on, Girl you have got to realize that your boyfriend loves you for who you are. He sees you and knows you and loves you for you. And if that is not the case, I would suggest that you would have to be the one to break it off. Let me ask you a question, would you want a boyfriend who expects you told him at high esteem while he doesn’t even love the person you are? I know I wouldn’t want a girlfriend that I’d have to put on a costume and a mask for every time they look at me in order to receive their love. Relationships are suppose consist of 3 things. A mutual respect for one another, A love for one another, and a joined pursuit of God’s will. And I guess its worth throwing in that the only legitiment purpose to date someone is to see whether or not you want to marry em. It’s rent to own unless you decide you don’t want to own…
Next, you wanna know why when you look that razor in the eye and it calls out to you to do what you so badly have a desire that your fighting against to do, you wanna know why that scares you? It’s cuz every human being on the face of this Earth has a survivor instinct. It’s an instinct that longs to live. And your fear is that if you cease to breathe, you just don’t know what’s going to happen. Every human has this instinct, cuz God created them with this instinct. Humans at first were not meant to die, ever. When Earth was created it was a Utopia, a place where death didn’t exist. Then the whole Adam n Eve saga happened and death became apart of life. (which when you think about it is kinda a cruel paradox) I go into this to show that we as humans were created to live and are born with that survival instinct. So take that and run with it, don’t ever sell away that instinct, cuz the moment you ignore, is the moment you do precisely what were meant not to do. And again, your life has purpose, their is reason for your life, and if you let me, I bet over time I can prove that. And one more thing, don’t believe the lie that says your weak, you were created in God’s image and God my friend is bigger and stronger than any issue you have or any problem you’ve got. And when he is with you, who can be against you? The distance he will travel with you if you let him is that of how far the east is from the west. If theirs one thing you take from all that I’ve ever told you or if theirs one thing that I’d do absolutely everything for you to get and to understand is that you have a God who loves you and cares deeply about you and he wants to do is to have a relationship with you. He wants to be there for you when its raining, he wants you to cling to him when your not strong. He will guide you through the rough patches of your life and lead you into some things that are simply unimaginable if you let him. I just know that you were meant for so much more than what your living right now, and I can’t wait until the day that that’s revealed to you. O what a happy day that wil be.
PS, I want you to know that even though we’ve never met, it is still possible for me to care about you. I want to be your friend someone you can talk to when your alone, or afraid. Like pen pals I guess you can say. And also I want you to know that if you have any questions that you have for me or that you would like answered, feel free to ask and I’ll do my best to answer, the only dumb question is the one that wasn’t asked. Once again my contact information is email – jeremysseaton09@yahoo.com and if you’d like to get to know me better or if you have a myspace and would like to be my friend, my myspace is http://www.myspace.com/j_rom_e09. Again, I want to hear from you, please do not shy away. I’ll be keeping you in my prayers! 🙂 GOD BLESS!
Once again real quick, an attitude you should have is that of yesterday didn’t go my way, but life will go better today. The only curses we have are the ones we put on ourselves. And sorry for typing soo much again, but theirs sooo much I want to share with you. Keep in touch.
I would suggest taking care of your self, tell your mom, she should be taking care of you she should be supporting you, but i guess that probably would only make her mad, so you should go out and get some kind of job, any job, when you get paid put it in the bank and don’t use the money, it is your money, and save for a while, find what makes you happy, i used to be suicidal, but i realized that it was because i wasn’t doing what made me happy, i love to look at things and see patterns, i like to understand things, it makes me extremely happy every time i understand something, you need to find what makes you happy, you will not find it with out looking at yourself, maybe you enjoy writting online. you probably could find some way to write a lot of blogs and post advertizments on them, or maybe you enjoy walking out side. you could take pictures out side and sell them to people. but maybe on of the things that will make you the happiest, volunteer, this one is realyl hard for me, but i feel it would be really benificial for you to go and volunteer most of the time people really appreciate volunteers and they will be really nice to you, All you can do is take care of yourself and find something that makes you happy! I know this one may sound terrible but maybe start reading books. maybe read the bible. you could probably read many different books and see which one you like best. that probably would point you in the right direction of things you like to do!
Hey TJ,
Got your email and I’m happy to hear that life is looking up for you. I sent a reply and haven’t heard back from you. I figured that you’ve just been busy moving in and starting your new life and probably haven’t had much chance to do anything on the computer… So I’m just checking up and wondering if you got my reply… Message back when you can, ttyl…
Hi Jeremy,
I got your reply. I’ve been kind of busy getting settled. I’m enjoying life again. I never thought that was possible, but it is. I’m working in Ireland and living with my boyfriend. Thank you for believing in me though, it means a lot that people you don’t know can have such huge impact on your life. I hope everything is alright with you.
Aww Happy Endingsz .. I love Them
And Jeremy What a Kind Friend You Are .. Woow .. If Onli Every1 Was Like You !!
&& TJ .. Wish Tha Best Of Luckk For You … 🙂
And Weneva Yuur Upset .. Just Listen To The Climb- Joe McElderry Version
it helps me 🙂
Toodles x0x0x
Well, seems like this one is all figured out. Hope you’re doing fine, TJ, as well as your siblings and step-dad!