And when does the happiness begin

Well, you have actually shown consierable awareness thus far in thinking about the issue so congrats.

Truth is it can be a mixture of both, sometimes (often) it is situational (eg poor upbringing, poor parenting, economic, etc bu these acn all be fixed or at least bettered with practical advice) but sometimes also clinical reason behind it too.

So do you push away pple because maybe, just maybe u are scared of something? Getting too close then rejected?

When you are young, not every person has the greatest social support network around them be they family or friends or even good teachers, so don’t just blame yourself for that.

As a result when people are young they make ‘sometimes’ less then ideal decisions, but the beauty is yu are allowed to make mistakes when you are young so stop being so hard on yourself.

Happiness also isnt some final hill/destination, rather its a serious of daily steps, actions & thoughts.

Its hard to know what issues you may be facing but i will assume you want a happy relationship? Happy to hear more if u like ….

Alternatively, I would suggest ‘maybe’ go see a GP about some low level meds that might help you a little so at least you can rebuild other aspects of your life via school/work. Thats important too.

But in lieu of that, always happy to listen and help if we can.

Utti is fast becoming a force for good here …i like it :).

She says some vg things.