Im done with the pain. I’m sick of feeling like a failure. 35, live in my parents basement, hate my terrible job and boss, have no money and make no money. My depression has gotten in way of my shitty job and I’ll probably be fired when I go in on Tuesday. Everyone wants to tell me my life is going to get better. life has never been happy and good. I just dont see life getting better for a depressed cook who’s 35, single, making shit, and lives in his parents basement.
I expected life to get better when I quit drinking and drugs six years ago. I thought getting clean would allow the meds to work better, but have seen no improvements. I really don’t think I can live like this much longer, I’m just afraid of what it might do to the rest of the family. They know im suffering I think. Maybe they’ll understand.
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Cannot say I understand exactly because that is impossible.
But I’ve been there.
Despite following directions and getting extended university education like my folks trained me I have had to move back home because of layoffs and cut hours more than I can count.
I worked two low paying jobs sometimes and still could not afford my own place.
You are not a failure. Life has failed you. Sometimes no matter how hard you try you still get the crap end of the stick. And the whole positive thinking thing works for some people just like anything else in life.
Others will come on and tell you to think positive and try new things. And hopefully you are one of the fortunate individuals who that works for and things do improve for you.
And the messed up thing is that once I did finally move out on my own for more than about 18 months, I am going to end things because I do not want to be homeless or move back with my folks again. Even though I paid rent there every time(had to hustle the streets when I was sans job), it sucks being treated like a child when you are an adult.
Just here to tell you do not be so hard on yourself.
Resources have always been limited. I know that does not help but still just remember your character makes you and not money even though society thinks different.
Sorry for rambling but your post touched a nerve.
BTW I have the utmost respect for those who engage in the culinary arts. Believe in yourself…..
Hey.. I think it would impact your family alot. But u should know even though you might think your not going anywhere or anything you are.. You still got your whole life ahead of you… Ik a comment from a 14 year old really doesnt mattter. BUt you have alot instore for you…. Keep you head high!!
You aren’t a failure. Things just aren’t going right for you right now, and maybe you believe that they never have been. You may be like this for a reason though. You are strong. You can get through this. Look how much you’ve tried to make things better for yourself. You are making a huge effort. That’s amazing and that’s all someone can ask of you. You should be proud of yourself. Most people don’t try and give up. Something good will come out of all of this because you made a great effort. You are truly a good person. If you ever want to talk, you can email me at farmerstrong13@hotmail.com. I’ll always be willing to talk.
question – you mention that your meds aren’t working/making things better now that you’ve quit drinking/drugging … have you talked with your Dr./therapist about that? perhaps the meds you’ve been on were never the right ones for you in the first place. See if you can have an open and honest discussion about your feelings with your caregiver to see if you can get on the proper medication regiment.
Dr. dawg (not really a DR – but I play one on SP)
I too quit drinking because I thought that was the root of all of my problems. I neglected to get mental health treatment. I know I am bipolar. I have made so many bad decisions. The accumulation of these bad decisions have put me in a very bad place. I now don’t know how I am going to get out of the hole I have dug for myself. It does not sound like you are in a hole, just in a rut. Get all the help you can. Sounds like you have a family that cares about you and will support you in whatever you want to do. You are still a young man. You can get out of your rut and move forward with you life.