Just not sure of everything again. I cannot believe this feeling would revisit me this soon. I feel like it was just weeks ago that I started feeling great inside. Today, it’s just the opposite.
Everyday, I’m feeling irritated of almost everything and everyone around. My family’s full of judgemental beings. My parents are way too preoccupied with caring for their favorite daughter’s son. My brothers are way too busy playing their games. Older sisters are too busy with their lives. Younger sister currently living under the same roof is full of judgement. At one point in this lifetime, I feel close to her, like a sister-sister relationship, then she destroyed it by always marking me as a complainer, a complicated, incompetent waste, and a liar. I cannot stand living in this atmosphere. I want to travel to a place where I can breathe again. If I had a car, I’d be on the other side of the states already.
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i know exactly how you feel. my happiness and sadness is a roller coaster and my best friend was scared for me so he got me a therapist which is a bunch of bullshit. i’m leaving to new york in a month after my graduation to find myself again. i think it would be a great idea if you could leave too to get away and be happy again.
Thank you for the offer, but no. If I were to get away, I’d rather go by myself, alone, than dragging someone else along, or accompanying with someone else. You go ahead and enjoy your trip. Hope you’ll find yourself again.
that’s what i’m doing. i’m going by myself. thanks. i’ve been depressed and suicidal for almost 2-3 years now and it seems like the best thing to do…..
Suicide, yes, is such bittersweet. Likewise, I’ve been depressed and suicidal since 2010.
mind telling me your story and i’ll tell you mine in return? i never knew that there were other people feeling the same pain and understood what i felt.
It’s a long story, and I rather not tell it again. I told it to several people who I thought would understand me, only to figure they’re passing judgements behind my back. I even posted the story on here before, only to find some persons marking my result of suicide and depression as “unworthy”. So I had it. I won’t just share my story to anyone anymore.
You can tell me your story if you want. But since I didn’t tell mine to you, I think it’s fair that you don’t either.
ohh, i’m sorry. i like that you have that mindset. it’s kind of like, “trust a few.” well, i’m here to talk anytime you want. i know you probably get that a lot but there are some people who just don’t understand. i’ll probably write a post about my life later and you can read it on there. i just registered onto this site today and i was hoping to share my experiences. i just have my days where i’m feeling full of happiness and the next day, it just gets taken away.