I can’t take it anymore. I feel like dying. School is just so much pressure, and I’m so clumsy, that I lose things. My parents yell at me for losing things that cost money. I feel like they care about money more than me. I’ve been suicidal since I was eight. Eight! I felt too much pressure and stess too often. None of my friends and family know about this at all. The only reason I don’t suicide is because it hurts. I don’t want to feel the pain. I’m thinking, “If I have lots of pain, why add more?”
I know I’m young, and I have a life to live, but pain is my biggest enemy. And it LIVES.
My heart is dying. Or maybe it’s dead already. 🙁
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Soul, you are a special person and dont ever forget that. I lose things all the time, get yelled at, and only feel pain all day every day. I would love to help out in any way I can, that seems to be one of the few things that makes my life feel liveable.
Thank you Strong. I appreciate it. Maybe that’s why I’m still alive. I know people are still there for me
Titanstrong is right. The pain doesn’t always go away on its own. If your parents want to yell at you, let them, then grow up and become a great person and show them that they didn’t break you. Same thing with the pain. Give yourself some relax time that is just for you. Keep on living your life and find ways to make it better. Take it step by step, day by day, and prove to your parents, friends, the pain, to you, to everyone that your heart still beats loud and proud.