I had an appointment to see my  psychiatrist and my mum was with me, im 15 and my psychiatrist asked my mum about our family history and after some stuff they talked, i don’t know i wasn’t concerntrating but i heard my name and i started to listen, im sitting beside my mum. and my mum said when i was 5 years old i caused her so much stress she took me to a bridge and she was going to throw me off the bridge and kill me because i cause her alot of stress and she couldn’t handle me…. but my dad saw what was happening and talked my mum out of it. im 15 now, i heard this a few months ago when i found out. I still cause her a little stress but not much as when i was little, she treats me fine. i’m seeing my psychiatrist because i tried to kill myself last year if that helps with anything… well anyway should i forgive my mum? i don’t know! it was a long time ago but she did try to kill me but she treats me fine now??? i don’t know if i could trust her now… i just remmemberd a few minutes ago because i forgot it for a while now.?? should i forgive?
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omg!, somethings wrong there, because children are sapost to be presious nomatter what,, you go through 9 months of hell and pain and morning sickness because you no in the end you will love them nomatter what, not to get stressed out and dump them off a bridge, if she didnt want you, and was that stressed out, she coulda gave you up,if you think about it, what possibly could a 5 year old do to make someone that miserable, anyone at 5 is a typical 5 year old, there brains aint even half way developed to know what they are doing, any one knows it aint easy to raise a child, you should know that when you are pregnant and before you choose to sleep with someone,but that doesnt mean you go and throw them of a damb bridge,im not trying to piss you off or make you upset, but iv been through hell and back and i dont even know if im all the way back yet,,so im gonna be real with you,anyone who feels like dumping there innocent 5 year old off a bridge should check them self in to a hospital. because they obviously have bigger issues then there child,in my eyes,i havent forgave my mom for trying to kill me when i was nine years old yet,i would just feel sorry for her,and never put that much blame on your child when you have one,
sorry to sound that harsh, but i would ask her if she went back to wen you were 5 would she try to do it again, then if she says ya, then mabey not, and if she says she wouldnt try to ,then mabey forgive her,
im the kid not my mum?
noexeption, i don’t feel that conftorable to ask my mum about it though
Of course you should forgive her … it was ten years ago and you yourself say your mom treats you fine … of course it’s something horrible to hear and to know you were on the edge of no longer being … but people make mistakes … it could have any number of factors that caused her to lose grip with reality … of course now you have to always keep it in the back of your mind to watch and see if she is “losing it” again but therapy will never work without honesty, and if you are going to make this “fresh”, then it will damage everything going forward.
Let it go
dawg
its ok,i understand,well not what its like for you, but i can try to relate,i was always told i had to forgive,but i learned, that forgiving takes time, it comes with your own pace,just dont let it stop you from living your life,
“Forgiving” take all of about one nanosecond – no time at all. But what it DOES take is a solid commitment to be “done” with the situation that requires the forgiveness.
Carrying something with you without forgiving only hinders you from moving forward … it’s an anchor that keeps you stuck in place while the world moves along … cu the anchor line (forgive) and you’re free to set sail at full speed
popeye dawg
*Cut the anchor line
Just in short right now
Yes, you should forgive her. It is quite some time ago, and not forgiving her could eat you up with anger from inside.
There is one thing though: Have your mother ever recieved some treatment and was it proper? (You might have to prepare yourself not to rely too much on her. But I cannot tell at all from here.)
Been eating your spinach I see, good answer.
It doesn’t matter what happened in the past, what matters is how you will take care of yourself now.
Peace
i guess i should forgive her then