I guess that those of you reading this have probably heard this a thousand times but i’m going to say it anyway why can’t i be normal? I see people in the streets smiling and getting on with life all happily and yet i’ve been condemned to my own personal hell. I thought that if i blamed people (such as my parents) that i would feel better as i would have someone/something to hate, give my life some sort of purpose. I fooled myself into believing i could be ‘somebody, that i could love life and seize every moment but i can’t. I’ve screwed up everything in the matter of months. Distractions no longer help me as i just keep thinking over in my head how i’m such a failure. The worst thing is that i know i could apply myself and get a good career and make something of my life, its just i have no motivation to do it. I never thought i’d be posting again as i fooled myself into believing i was getting ‘better’ but i guess i’ll always feel this way no matter what, in a corner rotting away because it’s what i deserve and this is the life i’ve been born into. ‘
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Everyone feels like that sometimes. Life would be boring if there were no challenges and it’s more satisfying when they are overcome. I think that as long as your dreams are within sight you havnt lost all chance. Dream the impossible.
You don’t realize how normal you actually are. This is a very common feeling to have, whether you’re born into an easy life or not. Finding your way is one of the hardest obstacles we face in our lives. Finding our niche and where we fit in is a life-long task. At least you recognize this to an extent, that’s more than a lot of aimless individuals out there can say. My advice, and this is just my opinion, is look around for a hobby that truly excites you, and you’re guaranteed to find like-minded people that will share your passion. Life will fall into place my friend, there’s no rush. Keep these two words in mind through your future endeavors and you will do well…”Persistence Pays.” Good luck with everything and take care my friend. 🙂