I come from a decent family and did not suffer a tramatic childhood. However it was not perfect. There was poverty. There was social services and cops. There was divorce and suicidal thoughts. What are we here for? To keep working, smile at eachother. If you don’t desire possessions then you don’t desire money. If you don’t care about money then you don’t care about a house,car,family ect. So why try? 40,60,80,100 years on this earth to make and work for what you leave behind? Why wait? I care too much about my family to make them look for my body. I care to much to tell them and worry others..I shouldn’t impose on others happiness. Let alone on their entire reason to live. Not to sound cliche but 5 mths ago the woman I love left me for multiple others. I would have put all I own in this life and everything I would ever have that she wouldn’t have cheated, or lied, or left. However it happened and although I did not bet I’m still with nothing. I’m ocd and always have been since I was a child. Iv had ideas that there is more out there and/or less pointless than this. Why prevent the inevitable? Speed up the process and change the words from peoples mouths now. From what a Dick to died too young. Nothing lasts forever. Learn to cherish the good while it last.
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Hi Kai, I’m with you on that one. I’ve always thought we have more of a purpose than being punished on this planet we call earth. Most of it is like living in hell and i hate it. I’ve always wondered what death felt like, is there an afterlife, are we just over, what is there. Some say there is a wonderful or horrible afterlife, myself i’m not convinced. I want to believe there is something way better than this planet but i’m not a religious person but i have prayed to get nothing in return. I’ve always wanted to leave this planet to find out if there is something better. i’ve tried on numerous accounts. even ways people say are sure to work to get nothing. I’m convinced my body is immuned to carbon monoxide from charcoal or vehicle much less anything else ive tried. But yes i agree, cherish the good while it last, but for some what is good. I haven’t seen it in years. they say wait it out, things get better. i’m convinced not for all. myself being one of them. all i can say is be strong, keep your head high, maybe there is a positive reason we are all punished here, maybe not, who knows. take care.
LB