Hello, I’m new to the site.
My name is Jaspar and I think I’m going to die…
What to say? I came to this site out of desperation…I’ve tried everything, therapy, meds which just leave me feeling sick. nothing is working. I’m just so fucking tired. I’m scared, so very scared of dieing…but the pain of life is too great and Depression got the best of me. I’m actually almost…excited? that I may end my suffering and go into an eternal sleep. I just have to find the right method of suicide now. I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s like death is fucking calling me. My brain is trying to get me killed. I can’t take it anymore ;(
I lead a lonely life and have always been bullied. I have no friends, am in highschool and havn’t had a single girlfriend and my family have no respect for me. I have so much pain and anger and sadness all bottled up inside of me and It’s killing me, literally.
No one understands me…I don’t understand me…
I am just too tired and cried-out. just a hollow shell, with a black heart someone in it’s depths pumping poisonuos venom into my soul. I can’t think straight and I don’t even know who I am. I have much more to write but I am too confused.
I have give up all hope…
~Jaspar~
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if you feel at your witts end go to the emergency room to give yourself one last chance.
And what would they do there?
Hi
I am also in highschool and also have such problems.For 2 years,every ****** day I am on the edge of doing a stupid thing,because of my own brain.I am still here because I have a good family and don’t want to cause them such pain.So I offer you to try to help each other.It won’t be bad to talk with someone with the same problems as me..If you want to try,just let me know
I have spoken to physcologists and they don’t really help. Every day I just feel sick and full of shit.
I know they don’t help,that is why I want to talk to a person like me,with such problems,the ONLY thing I haven’t actually tried
Ok then, what have we got to lose? send me your email. I’m getting really bad though. I’m going to hospital tommorrow.
oh wow, just realised that it’s 10:20AM by this site. Where I am it’s 10:20PM I have terrible insomnia you see…
do you have skype,it is allot more easier to communicate,than the email.If you have,add me-hazeman12
I’ve got skype, will ad you right away
Hey! You should email me or something. You can talk to me if you like… benn.bywater@hotmail.co.uk