they say fuck u
i say fuck them
they say go to hell
i say u go first
they say i have no guts to kill myself
i say watch me
they say i need them
i say look where i am with u
they say shut up
i say why dont u
they say we dont need u here
i say i dont need u either
they say they love me
i say thats FUCKING BS!
yes everything above has actually been parts of conversations i have with them, i honestly cant live with them no more. i need away from them…before its too late
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I like this)) and I say “I agree”
i have seen your posts a number of times and your homelife does sound pretty crappy.
So. What is your plan??? Run away? And friends or anything where you can hide out for an extended time until your parents can pull there heads out of there asses??
@i_dont_matter: umm my plan is actually unstable. i have a long distance bf who says his mom would let me live with them since my home is dysfunctional. the problem is the distance. idaho-texas. HOW THE FUCK DO I GET TO TEXAS! im waiting a couple more years, to one be old enough that i cant be filed as a run away and second so i can get a car and drive. i plan on stayin there i dont plan on ever comin home. i just hope that works and i can keep myself sane til then
I wish to be on my own.
My parents and brother told me similar things.
kk Faking.. Hang in there. If nothing else a “creepy” way is simply bus (trailways I think). It is really cheap.
Maria – you hang in there too
@maria: sorry it sucks huh?
@i_dont_matter: alright, i should look into that.
best wishes to you. and I am not suggesting that running away (I am assuming you are a minor) is a good idea. But it is better than harming yourself.
And IF you choose to do that – make damn sure you know WHO you are running to. That you are SAFE. There are a lot of creeps in the world.
@I_don’t_matter I try.I don’t have what else to do
@fakingit Yeah,it sucks 🙁
@i_dont_matter: i know, its probably not the best thing to do but now im desperate for happiness. i trust my bf, and i know i would be safe with him. and yeah im a minor..im 15.
@maria: im sorry, its horrible. i dont get the point of families if they are just ganna be cruel.
Well best wishes to BOTH of you. Just PLEASE dont do anything stupid. You are so young and have a LOT to look forward to…. I know it isnt easy – but give it time.
@fakingit they are cruel.Sometimes they pretend they don’t know about my problems.And when we talk they say some really horrible stuff to me.It’s not easy for a depressive person like me.
@It’s not easy.I’m not even able to kill myself.I can’t do anything right.
maria – i too have tried and “failed”.
Maybe surviving a suicide attempt is not a failure but a success!! Maybe it is God saying – I know about your pain but I want you to try some more.
idk.
I am lost too. I just dont think YOU should give up.
God must have a plan for us.Well..I don’t know.I try to keep the hope alive
Hey Maria – i really DO firmly believe there is a purpose. Now let be honest enough to say I am NOT some “righteous” person. I am a bit of a slimeball. BUT, I know God exists. I know THIS is not heaven (thus not perfect nor is it supposed to be). I know that Christ died for ME and for YOU.
I also know there is ZERO possibility (according to mans knowledge) that I could survive from my suicide attempts. Zero. But God said no. I dont know why. I guess I am “supposed” to say that it is not for us to know. Ya, it does kinda piss me off. But I am not greater than God – so here I am. Wanting to die, but unable.
I hope YOU are in a better place in your struggles.
There is a God.I’ll always believe that.
Even though I think life is not for me.I can’t even cry when I feel sad.I became a ”robot”.That’s how I call myself.
feeling kinda dead emotionally but your body wont comply??? THAT I get.
It gets very exhausting. Doesn’t it?
Well hang in there Maria….. Hope the rest of your day is better.
You too hang in there!