Idk what to do… 3 years back, i met a guy and started dating him… he changed.. totally.. he misbehaves wid me soo much.. i am sick.. my grades are falling. ma dreams r breking plss help me find a effective and painless way to die
July 2012
my scars are fading, and i feel lost without them…
what do you do when you can’t take it anymore. You have people willing to help but because they probably tired of hearing it. And what can they do to help? Its not a quick fix. What do I do, when I have a best friend. And shes not a normal best friend, shes like a sister, but more. Someone I love more than anything in the world. Someone Im there for all the time and the only reason im here right now is because I love her to much to let her go. Selfish in a way I guess. But even tho she means […]
Only 20 minutes ago i stumbled onto this site. I wasn’t looking to share a story about my life, or connect with others who felt the same as i do. I simply was looking for a small amount of inspiration for a friend of mine who’s thought of suicide. After finding this site i was instantly reeled in by a numerous amount of stories. Stories written by people right now just like myslef. Only a few minutes ago i read one about someone who wishes to die right now. And i know they’re not the only one wishing for the same relief..
Yes, i have thought […]
Here are some songs that I can relate to when I’m feeling depressed and suicidal.
Please leave a comment with your own suggestions so we all have something new to listen to!
Coming Apart (This video was loosely based on the story of Kevin Hines, a young man who jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge)
Coming Apart Music Video. – YouTube.
Water Under The Bridge – Red Hot Chili Peppers
Because I attempted suicide, I really like the lyrics – “I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Us-JodA2YcY
Gorilla Zoe Featuring Lil Wayne – LOST
“I’m losing my mind, […]
I don’t want to go into my story, I don’t want to say why I’m doing this, but what I will say is that I have suffered long enough. My whole life is hell and it’s only getting worse and worse. It will never get better. I think I might end my life either tonight or Thursday night; Thursday night is most likely. I would like to talk about it some though… if only to feel less alone.
I’m over.
im frikkin deaf from blasting suicide silence, asking alexandria, my children my bride, lamb of god, and cannible corpse…-brain explosion- whoa.
I’ve been dealing with depression for over 2 yrs. now. And I’ve attempted suicide multiple times from taking pills to OD, to crashing my car. I used to cut all the time when I got really upset. I told my “2nd mom” about all this and she was really worried one day I told her I wanted to die. And me her and her daughter (my ex) went to a hospital for me to get help I took a couple classes and hated it, it wasn’t helping so I left. I went on medication for my depression doctors not knowing I was suicidal. I still […]
I have hated myself since I can remember. I always thought I was worthless. I remember looking at myself in the mirror when I was 5 and thinking ‘I hope my face changes and looks better when I grow up’. I’ve never fit in with anyone and I cry a lot. I feel like my body is a prison and I would do anything to be free. Suicidal thoughts take control of my life when I am on a low. I can’t get rid of them. I’ve had these thoughts since I was 10 years old. I battle myself constantly and it’s exhausting. Only my […]
The line between sane and insane (reality and imagination) is skewed heavily and it’s getting hard to decipher and find out if it’s which. How do I slow down the process of insanity? I still have my head, but not for forever.
How do I fix this? Memory games? Extra reading? Keeping my mind off of any critical thinking? I got the last one covered, this whole weekend I avoided thinking and further depressing myself. At least I ain’t going back to asphyxiating myself.
This is odd. Is it really insanity? Or is it just another disorder. Or maybe I’m actually getting schizo, after creating another persona […]
I’m listening to a song as I work on my project. I do 3D modelling for personal release even if it isn’t comeplete. I’ve been working on an eye since eyes are another thing I’ve drawn well that hasn’t stopped. Eyes see everything even what they brain doesn’t process. Pain, happniess, sadness, weakness, strength joy, it see the world and what you see is reflected in them when the camera captures you in a freeze.
My eyes see the blurr frm tears that won’t fall. I’m still doing anything to distract myself because I have no real hope anymore. Just a passive motion. I’m […]
The fucking country were I was born it is making me more suicidal. Everyday I have to listen all kind of bullshit and stupidity, it is like everyone is trying to be as ignorant and rude as possible. Sick and tired, everytime I go out, I just can think: I hate this place if I have to stay here I will kill myself..
Just dying. I have really little, if anything to live for. I have a hard time imagining any accomplishment that would cause me to transcend the feeling of wanting to be dead that I’ve been experiencing for the past several months. I have done yoga. I have done meditation. I’ve taken all kinds of medication and talked about every aspect of my life. Tried to tie up loose ends in my relationships, but I am broken.
My family is use to me being this strong person and think I will make it through but the truth is I’m not strong. The force that drove my strength is gone my ex and kids I hurt so bad know that I’m forced to look from the outside in. I will do anything to change it bring them back. I can’t do this anymore. If home is where the heart is I’m as long way. From it. I don’t want anyone else I just want my life back without that why live. I’m not strong I’m human I care I hurt I bleed. They […]
What’s one thing you’d like to leave behind when you die? I’d like to touch someone’s life in a way that would make a difference. I want to inspire someone to do good and to mean something to them. What about you guys? What do you want to leave behind?
well, ive never been somewhere where people kid of feel the same and i think it’ll do me good to like wriite this openly
im 17 and ive grown up with mysisters dad till ten who menaly and physicaly abused me.. he left. i also lived with a abusive alcoholic mum who constantly hiit,put me down and basically fucked me up (god iwish i knew this website earlier)
4 months ago my mum went to prison and im glad, my nan rescued me and im now living in a stable enviroment
ive felt alone most my life and never shared any of it to be honest except with […]
im so happy i could actually cry, im so glad i found this site. most of us feel like we dont fit in, we have issues and we feel alone. na’aww im so happy to realise im not the only one
Why do you guys think that music is such a huge trigger for people. I can definitely say that it is a trigger for me. I always cry when i listen to music. even if its happy music. it really sucks because i love music so much. it just makes me so upset and depressed. 🙁 liek right now. im listening to music and im fighting back an emotional burst right now.