I am still here. I have released this negative energy from me, for now. I still have my hiccups, and that’s normal. I’ve meditated and asked for love to fill my heart. I’ve asked for my heart to relinquish all forms of hate, guilt, and envy; because I have no room for those things. Most of all, I have begun to forgive myself for the loss of a dear friend. We all need ourselves to heal emotionally and spiritually. I have a dream of healing others…I want to save as many people as I can and pay my respects to those I could not…This is […]
i’m fucked up and no one seems to notice. i’m sad and non one seems to notice. i’m disappearing and no one seems to notice. i’m dying and no one seems to notice. i’m falling apart and no one seems to notice… this is how i feel. </3
Lie to me like you used to
Tell me everything is how it should be
Lie to me, did you have to?
Because in the end it never matters what I think
And I can barely tell the sky from the shoreline
And I can see myself reflected in your eyes
And this was all a dream
And it?s coming back to me
A portrait in grey scale
A perfect betrayal
And I can’t even breathe with this weighing on my chest
You knew me at my best
Now I can’t even stand on my own
I can’t do it anymore I’m only 14 a girl can only take so much I wish the last time I tried killing myself worked I have noone to talk to so here I am and still people won’t probly care sadly being raped by your father and friend for years and finally getting away and now your stepdad is a creep also is hard for me I try to be a good person and help a lot of people but I have no one but my boyfriend that’s not enough for me I miss my sisters I can’t see them because my family on […]
hi.
I’m new to this.
I found this site by googling if I could kill myself by suffocating myself with a pillow.
I’ve given up.. I can’t do this anymore. I have no where to turn. My mother hasn’t talked to me in day. I got a tattoo the other day that was supposed to help me.; its done the opposite. my friends haven’t really been here. my boyfriend tries but it always seems like he wants to be somewhere else
when im upset, it hurts him. if i was dead, it wouldn’t. no one would have to worry about me anymore. i can’t do […]
I’ve never written a suicide letter before, or maybe I have, they were surely times in my life when I should have.
But how to you even begin without sounding terribly clique’ and readable? I guess I’ll never know, because really you can’t know until you’re dead and everyone has read the letter. I hope mine gets stolen and passed around the local schools. I’ll write tons of terrible secrets I’ve kept inside about everyone I know and let my down fall create such conflict that they forget I’m even gone. Even in death I long to make suffering controllable.
But those are for later […]
tomorrows my moms birthday and while i can say i will smile and be happy on the outside thats only part of the truth but ill be crying on the inside. I havent decided if im ready to die yet ecspecially since i never seem to get it right I know if i really was ready id go to the bridge and jump off. I guess im at the point were i still do want help even though no help has been the right help. My therapist i feel like i havent talked to her in years. The last two times i saw her once […]
For 3 years now I have really liked this guy. (gonna call him Bob) I got his number at a party and started texting him. We wrote notes to eachother, went to movies, and the last few months he would come over so we could hang out. He considers us to be best friends, and tells me how crazy he is over this girl he works with. I want him to be happy, even if that means im not in the picture. But listening to him talk about other girls kills me and im too scared to tell him… Â I broke up with my first […]
Hi. I’m a 19-year-old female college student. I’ve never posted on this site before, but it keeps coming up when I do suicide method research. My desire to kill myself has gotten much worse, very quickly. I don’t know what to do. Please keep reading, if you have time. I need someone, anyone. Help?
I’ve been depressed since I was 13. I grew up with a perpetually angry and violently abusive mother and a cold, neglectful father. They made me believe that I wasn’t good enough to be liked, and that I would never be unless I was perfect. I still can’t shake it- I know […]
So this Saturday, my family and I are throwing a party/pool party. Were having a few of my friends come over and than were having my parents’ friends and their children too. It seemed cool until I heard that a boy from my tball team when I was younger was going to come over too. I instantly got nervous and felt like I had to look good, the only probelm is that I have big thighs and 2 rolls on my stomach and I feel fat to go swimming with him.
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What is a more rational choice: killing yourself or spending entire life in solitary confinement?
Why?
Last night i cried myself to sleep.I’ve been hurt so much.Being in middle school has not been the funnest of times because “my friends” bullied me so bad to the point i wanted to kill myself.I still remember that day and how i ran to a ditch and sat hoping somebody would kill me.But when that failed i did a pill overdose. That did nothing too. I prayed and prayed and prayed and asked god why he was doing this to me?! no reply. That same day i walked to my mom’s job as i do everyday.I walked onto her school campus,knowing in my heart […]
If anyone is interested to read about someone else who really is going through life much the same as many of us, I invite you to follow my blog at http://depressioninreallife.blogspot.com/ It’s more of just a journal, but I invite you to comment with your own experiences.
Well I got back from my friends, and it wasnt as awkward as I thought. It was normal, and even my other friend who came over today and didnt know about it. After he found out I lost 6 pounds taking them he made polite jokes about them instead of asking the usual questions such as why do you need to take those. It was just…great. It really seemed happy. Not even seemed..I really felt happy. When I got home I kinda lost the little high feeling I felt,but I dont feel like im about to have a breakdown like I did Tuesday.
Oo and interesting […]
I was chatting with my doctor today about depression
He recommended taking St Johns Wort.You can but it in Wal Mart or any health food store, It has been used for years in Europe, with some very positive results. Im starting today, I will let you know how it goes.
Below is a link to a great website, and it has an extensive forum with testimonials and other information.
Have a Look
Cheers
http://www.sjwinfo.org/
I feel so lost, empty, broken…. Frozen… My story is a complicated one, and may seem silly, or tragic, or maybe I’m not seeing what really is here. I’m sick of the hate and small minds of this world, so don’t any of you creatures say anything evil, and open your minds to try and understand this…
I’m one of the most understanding people in this world, full of light, acceptance, true heart and everything thats good, and truly know whats REALLY right from wrong. Growing up, I had the perfect life, amazing friends who I loved, great family, even though sometimes I was a brat, […]
It is terrible to live with so much tension. I have had so much psychiatric treatment that my mind is going blank and it is difficult to think creatively anymore. My family doctor has also recommended that I belong to the addictions population, the people that have severe difficulties in life. I have so much trauma that I wish to kill myself, except I am afraid of pain. My parents are aging and when they get older, according to Chinese custom, I may not be able to take care of them; rather, their care may belong to someone else. I am hated by many – […]
It’s been so bad all day today, and now it’s nearly time to face the dark. Alone. My thoughts have been running marathons all day, and I see no sign of the excruciating turmoil inside of me letting up.
Once again, the horrible days where I am so physically sick from this, I can’t move, and so emotionally fucked I start losing track of which thoughts are rational and which are not, are the days when I have no one. The times where I am paralyzed with fear and flashbacks and lonliness… they are the nights that I suffer alone.
I guess I do have one small […]
I hate being one, and I’m sure you do too. But you know, sometimes it can’t be helped.
I see people struggling to get through life, and I try to help them. I tell them it will get better. I try to give them hope.
But you know, I don’t feel that way. I refuse for people to get close to me because I’m a worthless *****. I’ve given up hope. I don’t think it will ever get better.
Of course, being the hypocrite I am, I will say that all I want to do is die, but I don’t want you to because […]