WOW

Last night i cried myself to sleep.I’ve been hurt so much.Being in middle school has not been the funnest of times because “my friends” bullied me so bad to the point i wanted to kill myself.I still remember that day and how i ran to a ditch and sat hoping somebody would kill me.But when that failed i did a pill overdose. That did nothing too. I prayed and prayed and prayed and asked god why he was doing this to me?! no reply. That same day i walked to my mom’s job as i do everyday.I walked onto her school campus,knowing in my heart she knew what had happened that day at school.And i was right! She looked at me with a smile and tears in her eyes.She told me my LA teacher had called and was worried.She told me to walk back to my school to go see the school counselor. I was there for 4 hours.Talking and talking and talking…..After all that  i now go to therapy and group meetings.It’s all a lot but it helps everyday i know it’ll get better.But i do have those when i wish it would’ve worked or i was invisible.Just knowing there’s people out there that have a similar story helps!There’s still much more to tell……