Taken in a Blink of an eye, but I am strong and I’m NOT giving up

I found out I was Pregnant about 4 months ago. I took two pregnancy tests and both came out positive , that night I started to Spot blood. Everyone Said it was normal, but My body was saying something else. I started having tummy pains and I couldn’t eat or drink anything with out me thinking it’s nasty. The next morning I was Bleeding a Little more so my opinion was that since this is my First pregnancy that my body wasn’t used to me not having my period so I didn’t think bad thoughts. Well now my Stomach is in complete pain and now I Put a Tampon on. I take the tampon out and see some sort of flesh “I might be having a miscarriage” my aunt calls my Dad and he picks me up, now im on my way to the clinic. I was in the waiting room for 2! hours Bleeding. In pain , Crying and begging God for him NOT to Tale my Baby Away. Now I’m crying and scared too loos my baby, they take me in and told me to take a urine sample. As I pee a large amount of flesh came out , I kno I lost my baby. I grabbed the flesh and rapped it in tissue. The doctors say I’m pregnant cause my blood test and pee, another 4 hours pass now in my Room, well I go to have a ultrasound and sonogram . They did the outer and inner. The results come back and I Already kno… I had a “spontaneous miscarriage” and I was 10 weeks into my pregnancy and my Due Date would have been on October 22 2012…..
It’s hard because I Know that this month I would have already been able to feel It kick , now I can’t hold it love it and Be a Mom. taken from me ripped out of my heart. I would have been 6 months.Â