i found this website today and made an account and so here i am telling you my story not quite sure why im doing this?
im 15 years old and have depression for around 2 years now
my parents got divorced when i was 3 years old,i have no contact with my dad he sees me twice a year and never shows up for christmas or my birthday and always leaves me crying after he says he will!
my mum tries her hardest with me but never understand,she never shown any interest in my life or how im doing,never has my dad or mum said they loved me!
i have no brothers or sisters,i do have 3 stepsisters but i have no idea who they are or where they live,i have no friends and the so called friends i have never speak to me im the one who talks to them and even when i do i feel left out,i have never really had any friends and it sucks when i try to be friendly with everyone im always the person left on my own,at school i sit in the toilets feeling sorry for myself.
i do have a boyfriend and i love him to bits and he is amazing at times but i dont feel he actually knows me and its hard when i have told him many lies about me to cover up the truth about me!
with my depression my mum doesn’t know of course i found help on my own i have been suicidal 3 times overdose on pills and alcohol and tried drowning myself and have cut my self many times!
i over think way to much,i hate feeling so alone
its horrible being on your own all the time and having no one to talk to and the worst thing seeing everyone else around you so happy
i have tried making friends joining clubs ect but still no one i could connect with,my family aren’t close at all its horrible:(
i just want to start over and have a better life with out being so depressed
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It’s hard finding people to connect with. Reading on this site reminds me of how I’m not alone, and there are people out there like me who don’t feel like they fit in or don’t belong. Who can’t simply enjoy life. I can’t tell you that you’ll find those people and a sense of belonging, but there’s hope. All you can do is be strong, even when you feel alone. And please, don’t lie to your boyfriend. It won’t make you happy in the long run. Just be yourself. He’s not with you to be with someone else.
i think just about every person who is depressed would like to start over. maybe lead a “normal” life. a happy one. but there isnt really anything we can do about it now. it is what it is. lifes a cruel joke. i dont blame you for trying to overdose. your life doesnt exactly seem too ideal. but just remember that there are people there for you. you may not think so but they are.
You don’t think your boyfriend knows you, well in the teen years no one knows who they are much less anyone else.
Sorry your having a hard time, we all have variations of misery for each of us here, so we understand the pain and anguish.