It’s 4pm and I’m sitting here drinking liquid courage. I guess I’m just looking for suicidal people to talk to at this moment, because I like you lot.
I feel like you get it. Thanks.
Even though I’m more of a lurker, I’ve enjoyed the words I’ve had with some of you. You make me feel less crazy.
I feel like I snapped today, and now I should just get it over with. Because everyone thinks I’m mad at them but I’m not. I’m just mad at myself. And I wish I wasn’t out of tequila.
I guess I’m seeking a distraction right now.
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Someone posted on here earlier, that the love of his life was leaving him. He got drunk, caused an accident and paralyzed a young girl in the process. Now he’s looking at prison time, missing his daughter and feeling extremely guilty about his actions. What I’m trying to say is that the situation could always be worse. Don’t worry, you didn’t kill anyone and in the grand scheme of things, this particular time in your life probably won’t stand out much. Just breathe, regroup your thoughts when you’re sober. In the meantime enjoy your buzz and try to lift your mood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZZCVpeBKIA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=fomOtKxGkr8
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Ah Tequila, yes I remember it well.
For me there nothing in my life that taking a drink wont make worse.
That really sucks, out this early on a Friday, when I was drinking the worst thing that could happen was to run out and not have any more money.
Oh yes.. I dont drink to much, but i always pop my pills to help my back and get through each day, i am ready to go also, ive been serious about suicide for the past 2 months, tryed a few times but fucked up my own suicide.. the point is, im done with life, i am completely just fucked up in tha head, and honestly..suicide is my only option.. ive thought about it for a long time, but now..im fucking serious about deing, I just cant deal with things, im way past my breaking pount and all im still doing my research, i just hope i suceed next attemp.
Drinking just makes things worse. Here & there’s fine, just don’t make a habbit out of it, (don’t become a drunk) or you’ll be the next one on here talking about killing themselves.
Thanks. I’ve been thinking about dying for a while, and I was seriously trying to work up the courage. But then I passed out, and spent the later part of the day vomiting. I kept thinking I didn’t want to have my roommates find me, and then all the debt I have. So I guess it’s good. But now this guy I likes hates me…
Oh fucking well, I guess.
Are you a girl? Unusual username for a girl
Oh yeah I am. I guess I’ve always been kinda androgynous.
Why does the guy hate you
Great, I’ve just gone and spilt beer everywhere
Because I freaked yesterday, even though I said I wouldn’t anymore.
I was just feeling depressed, about myself, but he takes it as ‘he’s not good enough’. And when I was trying to explain it, he wasn’t hearing what I was saying (because I’m not very good at communicating when I’m upset) and taking it all wrong. So I got frustrated. He became apathetic, because he thought I was shitting on him. And then I told him he was being such an ass. So now he hates me because of what I said. All I wanted was for someone to say ‘you’re not a piece of shit’ instead of ‘I’m a piece of shit, not you’. That only makes me feel worse.
I know it’s not right of me to call him an ass, but I got so sick of everything turning into him never being good enough when it was never an issue. He’ll never forgive me for it though; he’s still mad at his first girlfriend from like 15 years ago.
edit: lol I envy you. I wish I could have more booze, but I’m still hungover and feeling sick from yesterday.