Well, first, sorry for my bad english…
My life is horrible. I never had nothing… I always be different; In the worst way. When i was a kid, my sister and my cousin excluded me. My parents always fighting and my father never really like us. He just wanna get out, and one day, he goes. But unfortunately, leave took a long time. All starts bad…
I think that one day, i´ll be happy and that all was just a bad time. But not. Grown up that way destroyed me. I think that i am one of that people who born to never be loved for nobody. I never had friends, just one or two people that i talk a liltte more. But i always been close, and i don´t know how to love, i don´t know how to be somebody happy now, ´cause there so much pain and sadness inside me.
With time, i discovery antoher horrible thing, there always made me cry, but i never really think. I don´t wanna be man. I want to be a girl. I wanna have long hair, wear make-up and… i just don´t know, but i am woman, in my head. I hate be man, and that´s makes me cry everyday, and made me the victim of prejudice and violence many times on school… The only one that i love, felt disgust of me
Today, what i have? A shit of family, who never care to me, a horrible father, one body that i really hate, i don´t have friends, and the only thing makes me happy is the dream with dead. Sleep and never wake up would be the best thing that could happen to me. Some lifes are unworthy to be lived, my life is one of that, i just have surfer…
The worst is that i don´t know how to kill myself… and i´m stuck on that misery…
2 comments
It’s hard to be different. The more different you are the harder it is. But you are not the only one who feels this way. Hold on a little longer… You will find your peers and your place in this world but you have to hold on
I am sorry it’s all so dark for you. Try to find people that also want to be a different sex. There are some on this site to speak to while that happens in real life. Read through the posts and you will find them.