Ever since we met (my wife) and decided to stay together, we always have arguments everyday and it seldom happened a day with it. Until we decided to get married, we’re 4 years now and have one 3-year old son. But the state still goes on and sometimes we’re temporarily separated, sometimes I opt to suicide and sometime I leave them for few day to ease the pain.
I love her so much and I don’t want to leave her or get legally separated (in our country there’s no divorce). My problem now is how to handle her everyday since we have a lot of differences (our ideas, way of sorting things, belief) and only love Im sure of are common to us that’s why we’re still together now. We have many times talked to each other but the solution were just temporary, we have been to counselling  but still didn’t work long.
I tried to follow her like, want and ways but I don’t know things will always go wrong. I sometimes think we’re not compatible and should live separated but I always feel sorry for our son. I want to commit suicide now to end everything, the pain, sorrow and misery but Im afraid of the result. I don’t want my family to have negative impact  to our village, to her families and to my parents too. Sometime I just want to go to far mountain and just die there to hide the shame.
Am really out of bright decision right now and feel so much responsibility. I couldn’t handle the waves and felt so drawn.
P.S. Â sorry for my bad English.
3 comments
dont worry friend, everithing will be ok… you are loved
You don’t want to hurt your son by leaving your wife.
You will hurt your son more by leaving this world.
Think about it.
hang on, friend.