I dont want to live

i dont have anything going for me and i never will. Everyone always says life sucks, so why even bother. It is universaly agreed that life is a ***** and then you die and for some reason everyone justs accepts that and moves on. Well why the fuck would we even bother, if life sucks then why keep living it. Its like a crappy movie, you know its crap so you stop. Well life is crap so why not stop. People say its selfish and you will be hurting your friends and family. If your friends and family really fucking cared about you they would see that life sucks and support your decision to not live in the world that sucks. And even if they dont who the fuck cares, its not their fucking life where do they get off saying that its unfair to kill yourself, so instead they make u live in a shit world and hate yourself untill you die a lonely death. Because everyone dies alone, its a biological fact, and for some reason everyone is allways searching for a way out. A way out of ending up a lonely old bastard with noone in the world but themselves. well i hat to break it to you but thats exactly how your going to go. Take a look at your life right now because that as good as its ever going to get. People say that it will get better. First off, no it fucking wont. Secondly, it doesnt fucking matter, as much as you want to live in the future you cant, you have to deal with whats right there and whats there sucks shit. I dont particularly like pain, and every time ive tried to get sleeping pills or pain meds ive failed. My mum showed me the way, get yourself a life where noone is looking for you, lie in bed and drift off. To die peacefully knowing that there is no more bullshit and that this is the end.