LETTERS TO ALICIA

Alicia,

Sometimes going on without you is one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I do it. You have no idea how much I miss you Alicia, no idea whatsoever. We were so young and naïve, nothing and no one could bring us down or put fear in our hearts but then I lost you and I found a fear like I have never known. When Paul pulled that trigger, he took away one of the best parts of me, you. Leesh, you were my best friend, my sister, my partner in crime. We laughed over the dumbest things imaginable and did not care what anyone else had to say about it. The day you died was the start of a nightmare I have yet to wake up from. Maybe I am in a coma, I hope so because that is the only way I am able to get through each day is by hoping I am just having a bad dream. This year on December 17, it will be 3 years that you have been gone. This is crazy. I cannot believe that you have been gone that long. I wish I could go back to October 2009, the night of the football game when it poured down rain and the wind blew as hard as it could. I think that was the coldest night in October… Michael kept his arms wrapped around me because I was soaking wet and freezing, you were throwing skittles at me, and C.J. hit me in the head with a Coke bottle. That was a good night. I am so sorry that I missed your funeral; I just could not bear to see you like that. I miss you so much sweetheart, it is unreal. I can still hear the sound of your voice and laugh. I can feel you here. I keep you alive in my heart and that way, you are never forgotten.

 

Love always,
Me