I’m so sick and tired. Once again…..
….my last attempt was a failure. I’m a failure. I can’t keep going like this. I’m tired of meds, tired of the failures, tired of living.
I’m staring at a spot in my room that contains my exit strategy. I always kind of knew it would come to this. I’m ready.
I’ve lost my special person for me, I will never have another…nobody finds me attractive, I’m a loser with a shitty job that barely pays…I won’t live like this anymore. I’m tired of being the family washout.
It’s better this way. When I’m gone, there will be one less expense.
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I am sorry you feel this way. I am not going to say I know exactly what you’re going through cause I don’t. But in being a failure, I do. I will not tell you of my life story cause this is about you. I bet you are attractive, and have a caring heart. You are not a loser, they are for saying you are. Take a deep breathe and stay away from the things that depress/stress you, meditate. For you’re special and not at all a failure.
The problem is…it’s EVERYTHING. Everything is a stressor, a reminder, a trigger. I hate my podunk fucking town, I had a ticket out of here that I blew because of alcoholism, I’m tired of living like this.
I hate everything. Just like the title says…I’m tired…..I’m done.
It sounds like you have been through a lot, though you need to be careful about making rash decisions. Be careful not to make what might be the most important decision you ever face lightly. Take a few deep breaths, calm down, it’s not all over, and there is always a way out. Even after I tried to kill myself and it seemed to have all come to a close, I found a way. There is always a way, and you owe yourself rationality.