when I go to ask for help I get too scared of being sent away and everyone’s judgement. what if they all think i’m crazy or insane or something,
My brother tries to talk to me when I’m crying and it just makes it worse and i just want to punch him in the face.
the man i looked up too, my grand father, passed. mt dad lost his job so now we have no money. my grades keep dropping, I’m cutting more and more.
I’m scared and helpless, I want help and a friend. I have tons of “friends” but none that are actually there for me. My so called best friend left me to another on of my friends i introduced her to. She now calls me a ***** because I couldn’t help her with my problems. But how am I supposed to help someone when I can’t even help myself anymore? No one understands how i feel or what I’m going through. I’m overly critized, and my anxiety is slowly killing me even more. & soon enough I promise i won’t be here anymore.
I just don’t think I can do this. I can’t leave my mother alone here but I think soon enough that’s what I’m going to do.
All these words are wrapped around my head, I’m fat and ugly, i look pig, i look like a beaver, i’m too tall, i cant dance well enough. & they’re all swallowing me whole.
I jut can’t do this anymore…