What Life Has Become… :'(

Hello. This will most surely be my one and only post that I will ever do on this or any website but I felt impulsed to do this. I’m not sure if anyone will care.. but I just want to let out how I feel. My life has always been difficult. With an abusive stepdad and a mother that prefered him over her own blood.. but these last 2 years have been unbearable I cannot take it anymore. My life is complete sadness.. the only good thing I had was my one love. My girl, my future (which I thought)… but now I have finally lost the one person that made life worth it. My life is a hole.. a black hole that will never see light. I feel the life slowly leaving my body. The sadness envelopes my soul and traps it deeper and deeper everyday. I want to end my life. Nothing has meaning for me anymore. There’s is no reason for me to be on this earth anymore. There is nothing that I will miss.. only the one girl I thought could bring me back from this hole.. its over. But I want it to be known that I did try. I regret a lot of things. Yet I know my intentions were always good. I wish every person that reads this luck with their lives and I truly hope your story finishes in a good place. And happy. Something I have not truly felt in a long time. Peace.