My name is Rodney ,
When I was born my father didn’t except having a son and left my mum all alone my omother tried to abort me but then an 11 year old boy at church told her not to. I really dnt belive in Miracles.
As I got to the age of 2 my mum would just leave me alone home in darkness going out with different men. My childhood was awful I saw some things that have scard my life By the time I was 5 years old I could not speak so I had to do surgery it only made my life worse I started to stutter and I still am.
Since got the stuttering I was shy since then because I knew that people were gonna make fun of me and they did. As I got to 10 years old I knew I was going to be a failure since I got my first test results a 4a for english and 3c for science. By the time I got to year 7 My test meant nothing to the school put me in the lowest t for everything when I h assessment I was still behind everyone I eventually said I wanted to do suicide but my fends told me to get a tutor and I have had one for 5 years now . Still did not give an affect I even tried Councelling did not do nothing by the time I got to year 8 the same thing happen a just a failure am in year 9 now just got my tracks for gcse I was put into hlowest tracks where you do BTEC which is not good Mother is upset about it and my friends tell me to revise and pray I am christian but As I did  say before I belive in God or miracles why does God want me to live in this world no matter how many tmes I try I fail Since I mean no important value in this world I might aswell die. Why do God let Japan have an earthquake and a Tsunami. I revise still no use because I fail in everything other people In this world are just lucky.
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Wow! that really sucks. I think that the things you have seen in your life and the rejection by your father have really hurt you. I’m sorry you had to go through all that. No child should have to suffer- EVER.
You will find life has a lot of unanswerable questions. And some things will never make sense.
But like I said to another poster, find what makes you happy. Because with or with money, and whether you have someone in your life or not, you have to find something you can turn to when no one else is there. I realized that waaaay too late and I am paying for it now.
If your school has a counselor, talk to them. There may be a reason why you are not excelling at school, even though you try your hardest. You may be better at working with your hands than reading about something – everyone learns differently. There may be other options for you that you have not discovered yet.