I wanted to die and I found myself here.

No, you’re not an ideal candidate. You say you are not terminally ill. From what you said, it sounds like the issues you face are solvable. You just need some help seeing the forest through the trees, as the saying goes.
I’d suggest you try breaking your problem areas down in pieces and looking at each one, to resolve one by one. First, you mentioned you cannot afford school (I assume college). if your high school graees were good, you might be able to get a scholarship. Even if they were not, or average, you might have something that warrants a scholarship. You would need to talk with a college advisor for that. But what you can do in the interim is consider a community college. The cost is much less than other schools. Consider even taking just one class. This will help keep you focused. You will also have access to college advisors and career counselors.
As for your looks, it sounds like you are attractive by your comment that you have to “keep guys out of your pants.” So, you just complimented yourself! That is great. May I suggest that find something nice you would like to wear. Seriously. If necessary, go to a store and pick up one thing. It doesn’t have to be costly. Just something that brightens you up. Have fun with it. Go with a girlfriend, and make it a shopping day. Get a facial or something. Do something for yourself. It will pick you up, really.
As for family issues, that is one area that is always difficult to comment about. Not sure if the problems are parents, spouse, children, siblings, etc. Just remember that you cannot change people. But you can change yourself. That is up to you. If you ever saw the movie, “Dead Poet’s Society,” there is a great line from the movie: carpe diem (seize the day). Take some time for yourself, and just yourself. If you like the beach, take a day and go there. Walk around. If you like the mountains, go there. Hike around. If you like malls, go there. Spend a day shopping (you don’t need to buy, just looky loo around). Eat something fun. If you are still down, do it again the following day.
Lastly, if you have a good friend or family member you can talk to, and I mean really talk to, please do that. In the meantime, I really think if you did an activity (a class, or whatever) that gets you thinking about something else, you will have a new way of thinking of life. It will work. You have nothing to lose by trying. Sieze the day!