Being near 17 kick from high school …….. my parents cant even afford food with my expenses…im better off dead right now ….just me the lying lesbo whore why would anyone want me around
This is what i need desperately to tell my mother, but i cant because she committed suicide 6 month ago.
She was sick, desperate and when she told me she was going to kill herself, i couldn´t believe her. I didn´t do anything because it just simply CANNOT be true.
I regret a lot of things but the worse, what I cant stand, is that she had to kill herself to die. I wish, even though she wanted to die, she could have the chance to do it pacefully in a bed instead of what she did. It really breaks my heart to imagine how much she […]
when you find someone/something that makes you happy and you lose it its worst dying …my deepest fear came true..my life just know how to get messed up
I get these weird feelings. Sometimes I just want to cry, sometimes I just wat to punch something but it’s crazy because that’s not me. I like to drink, I like mint and whenever I drink I carry mint around with me. I just fucking hate everything and I’ve tried everything to just get rid of it. Everyone tells me I’m such a good singer but then everyone hates it when I sing. I can’t even jam with people because whenever I start to sing with them they think I’m showing off. It’s like I can’t even do what I love anymore. And then […]
(A lot of the things I have to say in this post are comments I have already made in replies to posts by others. If something I say seems familiar to you, you probably read one of my previous comments.)
I once heard someone say that for some people, this world was never going to be quite right. I agree with that assesment. I see many people here on this site just like me. They feel alone, even in a room full of people. Somehow, no matter what we do, we just don’t fit into “the groove” that everyone else seems to. Because of this, everyone […]
There are days when I feel like if I can push myself a little harder everything will get better, If I can just see things differently, maybe if I didn’t analyse everything to pieces or if I were better, smarter, kinder..? , maybe if I can just think and do things the way they do… It will all be better..
And there are days when I just wanna give up… Maybe I’m built to be dissatisfied. From all the possible combination of genes, mine were not assembled to last, or to be passed down.
My sequences of A, G, C, T, is a self destructive […]