It Is Amazing…

How worthless someone can you make you feel. How you confess your undying love for them and they take advantage of that. How can someone do that? Someone you thought could never ever ever hurt you. Truth is, life is full of ups and downs, with dissapointments, the only thing that matters is how exactly you take that infromation and apply it to your everyday life.

I have been with my boyfriend for a year now (someone who I should not be with due to a bad influence: Weed, drugs, alcohol), recently he had gotten into an accident (DWI) I told him I loved him as soon as I saw him becuase honestly I did love him and if something were to happen and I never got to tell him i’d be even more devastated. He took advantage of that. He thought that becuase I loved him that I wouldn’t ever leave him regardless of what he did…and he was right. I put up with everything, from him cheating on me to him going to strip clubs and staying out till 5:30am… I loved him and as many times as I told him “I’m leaving you” I found myself on the phone with him 2 hours later like everything was normal. I slipped into a depression that nobody knew I had. I became a phenomenal actress and nobody knew I was hurting. I began cutting to numb the pain he was causing and it was not helping, since then I have freuquently been contemplating suicide.

I just want him out of my life, I cannot find the strength to get him away, I just fall right back into his trap. I need help. I WANT help with this….. please if anybody could.

have a nice day,

Katherine