To whom ever says they know me
If I didn’t want to live
Here is what I’d give
I’d give the breathe that fills my lungs
The food that will taste sour to my tongue
I would give the wayward mind I have
The undecided and unknown path
I’d give up everything
If I didn’t want to live
If I didn’t like humanity
Understand without unnecessary pity
We are overly selfish and dramatic
Obnoxiously annoying and spastic
We dwell to long on things I want forgotten
Too many people assume how I’ve gotten
If I didn’t like humanity
Perhaps I didn’t want to live
If I didn’t like myself
Here is the basic line up on the shelf
I am pudgy to others eyes
I am loud and I yell too many times
I am an awful person
Don’t believe me just ask some past someone’s
If I didn’t like myself
Perhaps I didn’t like humanity
If I didn’t like emotions
It’s probably cause of the constant convulsions
The flip between happy and angry
To sadness and self pity
To selfish feelings, jealousy
And those simply make you feel lousy
If I didn’t like emotions
Perhaps I didn’t like myself
But I don’t want to stop living
Humanity may be hopeless
But I still love myself
Emotions can get annoying
However I am fine
Just how things are
So fuck off, others who think this is a piece of cake.
I lost my mom, she killed herself. I lost my dad, he’s an ass. My brother never bothered with me. I lost my friend, she killed herself. I have two more friends who want to do the same, I can’t stop them and it worries me but I know it’s hard to intervene. I hate people who try to understand me, it infuriates me to no end. Please to those who push and shove into other people’s lives feeling you know what they are suffering and that you are the magical person carrying the cure, when they ask you to stop. Listen to them.