im struggling to even type this as i don’t want to waste anyones time, i am a 31 year old man from scotland and i believe i have reached my end , i am always sad , i have failed to even get a job in the past 4 years, it feels as though my friends and family have no time for me (so much so i tried to talk to them about my deep depression and wanting to end my life , the subject got changed to them almost instantaniously) . i have been single 5 years now and feel so alone , i […]
July 2013
It wasn’t too long ago that my husband tried to strangle me to death while I was sleeping. But it has been long enough that people in my life think I need to let it go and move on.
I don’t know how you move on from a reaction your body has. From something deep and primal. Autonomic nervous system firing off in the middle of the night. You can’t escape your own quickened heart beats. No matter how many people become disappointed in you, since you can’t reach your potential anymore.
I close my eyes, in the quiet hours. When my […]
I’ve recently started truly considering ending things.
I met the woman of my dreams and fell head over heels in love with her. She was beautiful and amazing and felt like the woman I felt I deserved. So like an idiot I rushed foolishly into marriage with her. And immediately after getting married she changed into a totally different person. She started having conversations on her phone with guys talking about how they wanted to hook up with her and she would go along with it. So we ended up arguing and fighting about it but she took it way beyond just a fight. So she […]
An acquaintance recently told me there’s a market for hiring people to help hasten a departure from …here… in Brazil. Does anyone else out there have any factual knowledge about this? Â Thanks.
I don’t wanna live this life anymore, I don’t wanna feel anymore. I don’t wanna live.
if you like me are suffering from depression you should check this video out it didnt help me but it may help you…http://www.upworthy.com/this-kid-thinks-we-could-save-so-many-lives-if-only-it-was-okay-to-say-4-words?g=4&c=fea
As the title suggests this will be only my second but final post… ive struggled with suicide, depression, anxiety, and anger for too long now. tonight is is the night I have nothing to stop me. I wish it was night already so I could get this over with cause i cant stand feeling this way any longer. got drunk and pissed my one and only friend off last night…for the bes that way she wont care about me passing…even if it does im done caring i told her several occasions that im no good for her…this will be practically a year from my last […]
i wish i could tell you the truth but youd hate me forevre so i try find exsusis to talk to you and grantid some of them are pritey petetic but its all i dear do this could go horably wrong but at the same time it could be the best thing in the world i hope if you reed this you will never know but at the same time i whant you to but i dont but i do its all fuckt up if you look at it but hay thats my life for you fuckt up a mess… lacing a sens of yer […]
I’ve had suicidal thoughts for the past several years now. Especially for the past 3 years. I consider myself a spiritual person, but I’m starting to believe that God wants me to take my own life. Life just keeps on getting worse!
This is my first post, and I am desperate for guidence and help!
its been a year since it all started… was gona say its not gona be easy having all the memories hit me again, but i will manage i guess… i dont know, all i wanted was to be busy enough so i dont have time to think it through, although i know i have to think it through and itll hurt less every year. Being busy is quite a hard job, thinking that everybody i know has a partner and doesnt have time for me so im not sure how can i be busy enough and wont stress out. it just started and im already […]
Everyday im crying,suffering..My grandfather died and im lost since then..My heart hurts,im alone..I dont have someone who will help me ,or who will listen to me..My friends have their own problems..I live day by day waiting for something that will help me but there is nothing..I think that the end just came..I think that i will end my life soon
Its not as if I am suspicious for no reason. Much as I wish I were delusional and my paranoid thoughts had no base in fact, previous incidents and repeated behaviors are pretty hard to ignore. Words are powerful but only when your actions match them. And then there are facts that back up my theories that cant be denied and you refuse to explain. I think what I neex to move on is closure and for you to take some responsibility. But if you havent been able to be truthful in the last 2 years its like waiting for a liar to tell the […]
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i dont know how to funchion inside a sicatey with…. well i dont know how to describe it im a skiney ugly kid who has come to see hes lonly as fuck and just whants a stabel relashion ship that dosunt revolv arownd sex befor he gets killed in a war zone or something im fed up with life and the why i feel like im constantly geting the shourt end of things i feel like some times when i liy on the red carpit nere the door next to the old trane set a cigret in my hand n0 top i rember every time […]
It had been half a year since I came here on SP. Since then,I have found my true meaning of life. My life,my pain was the same; but I decided to fight and chase my dreams,and that has made all the difference. I have found my happiness and destination in life. There is no place in this world for those who refuse to fight, I say.
Last night my kitty died. I was playing and laughing with him even at sunset, but at night I found him lying lifeless on the street in front of my house. He must have been hit. It all happened so, […]
I hate Life. I hate living. I have lived for so ling and i have yet to find someone that wasn’t “Living the life of kings” Or worshiping the devil with fucing YCMB or whatever those fucking dumbasses call it. Secretly i hunger to find someone like me. Not into those kinds of shit. Anti social, easy to talk to.. Someone i can hug when we both feel sad and want to kill ourselves. Im not sure if this person even exists.. Every girl goes for the alpha these day and not beta fucks like me.. Just today i went to the super marked and […]
I won’t be able to see him, but that’s okay. I will soon. Knowing that there will be a day of nothing, a day of having an empty heart… Sad that I depend on one soul to support almost all of me. Sad that I can’t walk on my own, that I need him there to protect me…Maybe someday, when I’m hurt, I’ll sprint.
Ernest Hemingway came up with the challenge and a pretty sad one to start it off (“For Sale: Baby shoes. Never worn”). use any punctuations you want for your stories but only 6 words. no more no less. lets see what we can come up with! I’ll start:
The spaceships rose. Their hearts sank.
Right now i feel like i have no reason to be here.. My friends are all asleep and i really need some support.. I dont know what keeps setting my off. Every time it happens im alone and am just thinking. i have my razor out i plan on it tonight.. not killing myself, but having some relief. i deserve that at least.. I need someone here with me. who i can cry to , who understand me, who wont say that my scars are ugly or that i shouldn’t have done that, some one who truly understands it and would call them beautiful and […]
Well, i feel really depressed and i don’t know what to do right now. I wanna burn myself or cut or purge. i looked in the mirror and now i cant stand myself. I hate my body i fucking hate it! im so tired of being big im tired of thinking this is how i look, fat, ugly, disgusting, unattractive im just.. fuck.. i don’t know. i just don’t wanna be this weight…
OH *adding on* i left the room for a second and i come back […]