I don’t know. I battle this little thing in my head that tells me to stop eating. “Stop eating! Your thighs are getting bigger, your appearance is getting uglier. Stop!” But I don’t listen. I eat away. No, I don’t throw it up, I don’t take laxatives. Nothing. I’m afraid that someday, that voice will win. I want to to stop. I’m craving the taste of hunger pains. It’s an urge inside of me. Why am I like this? I know I will accomplish not eating. I know it. But when?
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When the time is wrong, you will accomplish. Tell that voice in your head to fuck off or you’ll go to a mental hospital. And it won’t like that . . hopefully. But neither will you either… probably …. I don’t know I just confused myself
Eat one good meal a day.. I miss breatrist lunch too..
I have anorexia and I started off like this… just don’t give in to the voices in your head. You don’t want to end up like me. Just exercise and eat healthy, but I know its hard.
I almost admire you. I eat too much, and then make myself vomit, and then I go days without eating and then back to binging again. You obviously know that it’s better to eat properly, otherwise you would have worded your situation differently. You have to keep fighting for what YOU want, ignore that voice in your head. When that voice says “You’re ugly” you have to stop and think to yourself, “No, I’m actually not. I am very ____(something good about personality, ie loyal) and I have really nice____(something about appearance, ie eyes).”
Just remember; You are never alone ♥