I really don’t ask for a lot out of life. I mean I’ve wished for a lot of things, sure, and who hasn’t? I know that I don’t need a lot of luxuries in life.  But is it really too much to ask for a little stability in my life? All I want to be able to do is go to sleep at night without being anxious about where I’ll end up sleeping and if I’ll eat tomorrow. It’s the reason I ended up suicidal in the first place. Not the self-esteem issues, not the loneliness, not any failed relationship, not school, not work. Hell, I do great in school. I wish life was more like school, where if you do what you’re supposed to do, you’re guaranteed something good. None of that trivial shit is my problem. I just don’t want to end up stuck in poverty, never making ends meet for the rest of my life.
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It’s sad when you can’t even have what you want when you expect so little. I agree with you on this unfair part of life. I wish it gets better for you. I wish you’ll be able to find peace.
For me, I feel like I expect too much from life. It’s filling me with many deceptions. At least I can blame myself after, because it’s my fault to be hoping for too much. I don’t think I would be able to face the deception it would give me to be in your position.
Maybe try to expect a little more? Then your deceptions towards life would be a little less painful. And maybe it would push your subconscious to lead you to better things. You know, I read somewhere that we only get what we think we deserve.
All I can advise you to do is get more education…be extremely frugal and try to hold on during the recession…eventually….things have to go up… Even if they get worse…
“…I read somewhere that we only get what we think we deserve.”
We only get:
1) what we’re given
2) what we can take
We only keep:
1) what no one tries to confiscate
2) what we can protect
Although, lots of people seem to self-sabotage, or refuse to accept what someone else wants to give or share with them, due to feeling like they don’t deserve it.
If you’re not actively doing things to make yourself undeserving of better, then it doesn’t make sense to reject the good things that happen to come your way.
Couldn’t agree more. Of course, i also fall into the self sabateur catagory…… 😉
So do you have an education? If you like school I’d hope you’ve got some sort of degree.
Sounds like you just need a lucky break. Keep looking! You sound like you’re already ahead of 50% of the population.
You really don’t ask for much. I’m curious about your situation. It makes all of my problems feel petty.