For those who read my post yesterday, I feel the need to give you a feedback on how things went last night.
So I did talk with my friend. I was really anxious about it and unsure if she was the right person to tell everything. Some of you gave me a little strength to just try it. and I gave it a shot. I’ve always been a better writter than a talker when it comes to feelings and I thought I wouldn’t be able to express it clearly enough. But I did, and I guess that the way I told her things were ok ’cause she listened the whole of it and cared very deeply. Even with my low judgement lately, I could really see that she cared, ’cause I saw tears in her eyes at some points. It was painful to cause those tears but it felt also right cause I knew I was being understood. She helped me set the first little steps I should make to get back on my feet and right now, I feel like trying it.
I tried to write how I felt two days ago, when I was at the bottom. I didn’t want to forget this feeling, cause it seems like we don’t remember it enough when we feel better. So the fact that I did put some words on my feelings the day before I talked with my friend, helped a lot. I was suddenly able to talk and express myself with her. And at the end I asked her if she wanted to read the text I wrote about this and she did. And you know what, there was no surprise there ’cause I already told her the most of it a few minutes before.
So yeah.. Thanks to those who gave me that little strength. This blog is obviously filled with gold people. If any of you wanna talk, please do.
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congrats!
Glad you could open up to someone. 😀 I know how much that can help. Talking to random people on the internet helps, too, but probably not as much. How are you feeling today?
lorax : thank you so very much for caring. I feel a little better today. Now, I’m starting to feel a bit empty, cause yeah I had that great sharing moment yesterday, but it’s over and gone. It only exists in my memory now, you know. Well, in the memory of my friend too. I’ve always had problems with that. You know, the fact that nothing stays forever. Good things always disappear.
But then I come here and I see your comment and it’s like, thank you God, someone cares to ask me how I am. Someone I don’t even know, and that’s helping a lot.
Thank you lorax. I’d really like to talk to you more if you ever want to.
Nothing you do stays forever – this is true. You do it and it’s done, and there is no real way to experience it again. But you remain, and you remain changed from having the experience, and so does your friend. That’s what the memory represents and so long as it still has some of that magic in it, it never really disappears. You can share some of that spice with someone else who needs it in the future, now that you know what it’s like. When people talk about making the world a better place, that’s what it’s about. 🙂
I post on here a lot, but I also lurk forever on this chatroom: http://******.com/Crisis-Chat — I’m usually in there with some ironic color-related nickname that ends in ish.
I’m so glad everything went well! I began to tell someone once and they freaked out/couldn’t handle it. Hopefully you feel less burdened now =)
I also know what you mean by feeling empty today… it’s good to tell someone but what then right? I’d say (though I am unable to do this myself) to get out there and do something fun, meet new people and make friends before the feeling fades.
I AM really glad things went well.
I’m glad it went well…..not an easy thing to do. 🙂
Thank you guys. This stupid feeling of emptiness is here again, but i can at least put words on it now. I’ll try and change my mind about it. Have a great day, everyone.